The Equinox (Volume III, Number I)

A MASTER OF THE TEMPLE Mind must have been well concentrated as time passed quickly. (Sounds rather good. O.M.) July 7. Note. This afternoon, while reclining in an easy chair, nearly fell asleep; instead, however, I concentrated for some while. On being asked by R. to go and do some little thing for her, I put hands over eyes before rising, and saw a light so peculiar that it is worth mentioning. It had the appearance of being three distinct things at once. Dead black, a beautiful night-sky-blue, but at the same time the very essence of it was brilliant light. Quite indescribable in words. (Seems very good. O.M.) It may be remarked that Fra. V.I.O. had occupied himself with the contempla- tion of the Stélé of Revealing, completed therefrom a Pantacle of Nuit, and had obtained a sigil for same, during this day. (This peculiar light is stigmatically characteristic of the Stélé. O.M.) June 18th, 10.34 to 10.53 P.M.=19 mins. 14 mins Pranayama 10.20.20. Regular and easy. 5 Mins. Meditation. Mind cleared and became calm. It perhaps ap- pears that little progress is made, and some slackness exists as regards exercises. The truth is, I more and more use the true essence. If a little worry occurs, automatically, I turn to That within which dissolves it at once and restores the balance. It is that NOTHING with which I come into closest contact during meditation, but It is ever present, and I recognize the fact. I believe it to be the true Stone of the Wise which turns everything to gold. I call it Adonai when I give it a name at all. Most often the mind slips into that state without reason or argument. (Yes: it does appear that more time ought to be given to the Work. But the Progress is not bad for all that. However, I don’t quite like the complacent feeling. Nothing replaces hard work. Somebody I know (or don’t know) does more actual grind than he ever did. 24 full dress Magick ceremonies in the first 5 weeks of 1914, and about 2 hours every morning writing up the records. And in this please include 2 bad goes of influenza and bronchitis! O.M.) July 9, 7.20-7.24 A.M. Dragon. Rather bad. Tried to do practice outside in the rain, there being no room in the tent. Note:—Man, wife and baby together with all one’s earthly belongings in a tent 12’x10’ in wet weather, is certainly a record. (I’ve been one of 5 big men in a tent 7’6x6’ in a hurricane blizzard on a glacier. But you win. O.M.) Aug. 8. Note. I begin to feel the fuller life again. These few pages of Edward Carpenter have acted like a draught of living water and revived me a great deal. 161