THE EQUINOX
Oct. 9. Tested new ritual and behold it was very good!
Thanked gods and sacrificed for——
In the “thanksgivingand sacrifice for.
.
I did
get rid of everything but the Holy Exalted One,
and must have held Him for a minute or two.
I did.
I am sure I did.
Such
is the fragmentary account of what was then the
greatest event in Fra. P.’s career.
Yet this is an account of the
highest of the trances—of Shivadarshana itself, as we know
from other sources.
The “vision,” to use still the name
become totally inadequate, appears to have had three main
points in its Atmadarshana stage—
I. The Universal Peacock.
2, The Universe as Ego.
“I who am all and made it all
abide its separate Lord," i.e. the Universe becomes a single
and simple being, without quantity, quality, or conditions.
In
this the "I " is immanent, yet the “ I " made it, and the “ I
᾽᾽
is entirely apart from it,
(This is the Christian doctrine of
the Trinity, or something very like it.)
3. This Trinity is transcended by an impersonal Unity.
This is then annihilated by the Opening of the Eye of
Shiva.
It is absolutely futile to discuss this: it has been tried
and failed again and again.
Even those with experience of
the earlier part of the “vision
᾽᾽in its fullness must find it
totally impossible to imagine anything so subversive of the
whole base, not only of the Ego, but of the Absolute behind
the Ego.
There are, however, many suggestive poetical descriptions
which we advise our readers to study.
Notable are “Aha !"
(passage quoted below) and many portions of Liber LXV,
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