THE EQUINOX
the consciousness
behind
thoughts.
Thus,
when the consciousness realizes that ‘I
am
apart from my thoughts,‘ that thought itself
is pictorially shown as a thought."
This seems
to mean that he again got Atmadarshana; his
complaint was the inability to pass beyond.
He adds “to this consciousness all thoughts
are alike; it would never trouble to command
them.”
[a' est, it is the Peace of the Universe,
the Impersonal Absolute.
He was That.
Note that he got this without any Ritual to
speak of; an enormous advance in power of
meditation.
Nov. 4. Descent into Hell.
In the power of the Dweller
—obsession by a devil left by F———- and -?]־
called "?"
(This devil
is described in Sir
Palamede the San/zrm, Sections XXXVI and
XXXVIII.
It asks “ Is there any Path at
all?” and "Are not you a fraud?")
Return
with great difficulty—awful pangs—«Eli! Elil
lama sabachthanil
N.B.—I got back to very near Samadhi in
the end.
(This appears to have been a “ natural ” medi-
tation arising out of the conversation of F——
the Buzite and -?]־the Shuhite l)
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14. Again got
into the Samadhi-proximity-state;
as it were, without trouble.
(Now follows a period of two more months of
ill-health of the severest kind, and apparently