THE EQUINOX
so vast that I could only see to their knees.
“Would not knowledge of the gods suffice?"
" No! " said I.
It was then pointed out to me
that I was being critical, even rationalistic, and
made
to see that A
was not necessarily
fashioned in my image.
I asked pardon for my
blindness, and knelt at the altar, placing my
hands upon
it, right over
left.
Then
one,
human, white, self-shining (my idea after all I),
came
forth
and put his
hands
over
mine,
saying:
“I
receive thee into
the
Order of
the ——."
I sank back to earth in a cradle of flame.
April 25. Yesterday’s vision a real
illumination, since it
22
26.
showed me an obvious mistake which I had
utterly failed to see.
The word in my Kamma-
work (in Burma) was Augoeides, and the method
Invoking Often.
Therefore
a
self—glittering
One, whether my conscience approves or not,
whether my desires fit or not, is to be my guide.
I am to invoke often, not to criticize.
Am I to
lose my grade of Babe of the Abyss?
I cannot
go wrong, for I am the chosen one; that is the
very postulate of the whole work.
This boat
carries Caesar and his fortunes.
A
fair to good; but attention wandered
toward close.
A
fair.
Am convinced I did not go to sleep:
yet the end is completely veiled from memory.
(Neighbourhood-concentration attained—ED.)