JOHN ST. JOHN
6.31. failure than he was ready to admit.
But the fact
stands ;
he cannot concentrate his mind
for three
seconds together.
How utterly hopeless it makes one
feel!
One thinks one is at least always good for a fair
average performance—and one is undeceived.
This, by the way, is the supreme use of a record like
this.
It makes it impossible to cheat oneself.
Well, he has got to get up more steam somehow,
though the boiler bursts.
Perhaps early dinner, with
Ritual, may induce that Enthusiastic Energy of which
the Gnostics write.
This morning the whole Sankhara-dhatu (the tendency
of the being John St. John) was operating aright.
Now by no effort of will can he flog his tired cattle
along the trail.
So poor a thing is he that he will even seek an Oracle
from the book of Zoroaster.
Done.
Zoroaster respectfully wishes to point out that
" The most mystic of discourses informs us—His
wholeness is in the Supra—Mundane Order ; for there a
Solar World and Boundless Light subsist,
as the
Oracles of the Chaldeans affirm.”
Not very helpful, is it?
As if divination could ever help on such exalted planes !
As if the trumpery elementals that operate these things
possessed the Secrets of the Destiny of an Adept, or
could help him in his agony!
For this reason, divination should be discarded from
the start : it is only a “ mere toy, the basis of mercenary
fraud ” as Zoroaster more practically assures us.
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