THE EQUINOX
3.41. Began again.
I shall take " Hua allalu alazi lailaha
illa hua” for mantra [any sacred sentence, whose con-
stant repetition produces many strange effects upon the
mind.——ED.] if I want one, or : may Adonai
reveal
unto me a special mantra to invoke Him!
3.51. Broke down again, mantra and all.
352- Went on meditating in “ Hanged Man posture " [Legs
4.14. crossed, arms below head, like the figure of the Hanged
Man in the Tarot Gards.—BD.] to formulate sacrifice
and pain self—inflicted; for I feel such a worm, able
only to remain a few minutes at a time in a position
long since“ conquered."
For this reason too I cut again
the Cross of Blood ; and now a third time will I do it.
And I will take out the Magical Knife and sharpen it
yet more, so that this body may fear me ; for that I am
Horus the terrible, the Avenger, the Lord of the Gate
of the West.
4.15— Read Ritual DCLXXI.
[The nature of this Ritual is
4.30. explained later.—ED.]
5.10. I have returned from my shopping.
Strange how
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solemn and dignified so trivial a thing becomes, once
one has begun to concentrate l
I bought two pears, half a pound of Garibaldi biscuits,
and a packet of Gaufrettes.
I hada Citron presse, too,
at the Dome.
At the risk of violating the precepts of Zoroaster 170
and 144 I propose to do a Tarot divination for this
Operation.
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