5.10.
6.10.
10.50.
JOHN ST. JOHN
I should explain first that I write this record {or other
eyes than mine, since I am now sufficiently sure of
myself to attain something or other; but I cannot fore-
tell exactly what form the attainment may take.
Just
so, if one goes to call upon a friend, he may be walking
or riding or sleeping.
Thus, then, is Adonai hidden
from
me.
I know
where He lives; I know I shall be welcome if I call;
but I do not know whether He will invite me to a
banquet or ask me to go out with Him for a long
journey.
It may be that the Rota. will give me some hint.
[We have omitted the details of this divination—En]
I am never very content with such divinations ; trust-
worthy enough in material concerns, in the things of
the Spirit one rarely obtains good results.
The first operation was rather meaningless; but one
must allow (a) that it was a new way of dealing those
cards for the opening of an operation; (b) that I had had
two false starts.
The final operation is'certainly most favourable; we shall
see if it comes true.
I can hardly believe it possible.
Will now go for a stroll, get some milk, and settle
down for the evening.
I regret to have to announce that on going across to
the Dome with this laudable intention, Nina brought
up that red-headed bundle of mischief, Maryt Waska.
This being in a way a “bandobast” (and so inviol-
able), I took her to dinner, eating an omelette, and
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