John St. John

6.55. 7.5. 7-35- JOHN ST. JOHN I shall now ceremonially defile the Beyt Allah with Fig, to express in some small measure my utter disgust and indignation with Allah for not doing Hisjob properly. I say in vain “ Labbaik! ” [I am here—En] He answers, “ But I ’m not here, old boy—another leg-pull ! ” He little knows His man, though, if He thinks He can insult me with impunity. Andre, un sandwich l [Beyt Allah, the Mosque at Mecca, means " House of God ”—ED.] I shall stop mantra while I eat, so as to concentrate (a) on the chewing, (b) on defiling the House of God. Not so easy! the damned thing runs on like a prairie fire. Important then to stop it absolutely at will : even the Work itself may become an obsession. I 1 hours with no real break—not bad. The bad part of to-day seems the Asana, and the deadness. Or, perhaps worse, I fail to apprehend the true magical purport of my work: hence all sort of aimless formulae, leading—naturallyenough—to no result. It just strikes me—it may be this Isis Apophis Osiris IAO formula that I have preached so often. Certainly the first two days were Isis—natural, pleasant, easy events. Most certainly too to-day has been Apophis! Think of the wild cursing and black magic, etc. . . . we must hope for the Osiris section to-morrow or next day. Birth, death, resurrection! IAOI The Sandwich duly chewed, and two Coffees drunk, I resume the mystic Mantra. Why? Because I dam well choose to. 31