THE EQUINOX
8.30. On the contrary, to use the spiritual forces to secure
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health, as certain persons attempt to do to-day, is the
vilest black magic,
This is one of the numerous
reasons for supposing that Jesus Christ was a Brother
of the Left—Hand Path.
Now my body has been treating me well, waking nicely
at convenient hours, sleeping at suitable times, keeping
itself to itself .
.
. an admirable body.
Then why
shouldn’t
I take it out and give it the best dinner
Lavenue can serve? .
.
. Provided that it doesn’t stop
saying that mantra!
It would be so easy to trick myself into the belief that
I had attained!
It would be so easy to starve myself
until there was " visions about”!
It would be so easy
to write a sun-splendid tale of Adonai my Lord and my
lover, so as to convince the world and myself that I
had found Him!
With my poetic genius, could I not
outwrite St. f—John (my namesake) and Mrs. Dr. Anna
Bonus Kingsford?
Yea, I could deceive myself if
I did not train and fortify my scepticism at every point.
That is the great usefulness of this record; one will
be able to see afterwards whether there is any trace of
poetic or otherinfluence.
But this is my sheet—anchor:
I cannot write a lie, either in poetry or about magic.
These are the serious things that constitute my per-
sonality; and I could more easily blow out my brains
than write a poem which I did not feel.
The apparent
exception is in case of irony.
[P.S.
I wonder whether it would be possible to draw
up a mathematical table, showing curves of food (and