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The sixth Chokmah day was devoted to a terrible ordeal. I had by this time been enlightened as to 
the falseness of the Cat; it therefore became my duty to slay her. I had created truth by means of 
an untrustworthy material and must therefore no longer cling to the image of the ideal. I must 
destroy it, well knowing that it would never again be possible for me to delude myself with poetical 
puppets. I must face reality for good and all. 
The desolation in my heart was unspeakably dreadful and the seventh Chokmah day found me in the 
same solitude and silence as the first three; with this difference: that a minister was appointed to 
comfort and console me. Exactly as before, every single relation that I had established snapped 
suddenly. I had plenty of friends; but none of them meant anything. However, my consolation was 
supreme. On the one hand, the despairing cynicism of the wise realist Snake, on the other, the 
heartless vanity of the foolish idealistic Cat, had left me hopeless for humanity. 
In this extremity, I met a very rare animal. A woman! She was a regular street-walker. She had been 
familiar with hardships, callousness, obsession, shame and poverty from her cradle; but she 
possessed every noble quality to the full. Hers was the true pride, generosity, purity and passion to 
which the Cat so basely pretended; and hers also the clear-insighted intelligence, the wide 
experience and deep insight of the Snake. Yet she had faced and conquered her foes, instead of 
acquiescing in despair. 
I am not one of those sentimental slop-mongers who are always finding angels in the mud. On the 
whole, my experience of outcast woman had not provoked any excess of sympathy. I thought that in 
most cases their own defects were responsible for their misfortunes. Indeed, I failed to realize 
consciously the sublimity of this girl until long afterwards. But today, I see clearly enough the 
nature of her mission; which ended as strangely as it began, at the close of the Chokmah day. She 
disappeared into the Ewigkeit without a word and all my efforts to trace her were fruitless. 
This day of repose and reward had prepared me for my next ordeal. At the beginning of the eighth 
day appeared a Monkey and an Owl. Once again I was confronted with the necessity of choosing 
between two ideas. The Monkey had all the insensate passion, volubility and vanity of the less 
developed primates. She was a great artist and a great lover; yet in each of these functions she 
displayed the utmost inanity of conceit. The Owl, 
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on the other hand, was incapable of sublimity and at the same time free from affectation. She was 
as pleasant and sensible as the Monkey was excruciating and absurd. 
The nature of my ordeal was twofold. In the first crisis, it was put up to me to do the right thing 
without permitting any interference from personal inclination or consideration of the ultimate 
consequences of my line of action. The test was applied at a conference of the parties chiefly 
concerned. The Monkey's husband wanted me to take her off his hands. A divorce was to be 
arranged and a marriage to follow. Asked to give my views, I began "I have no personal feeling in 
the matter." The words were a bombshell. Both husband and wife realized, to their amazed horror, 
that they had neither of them any means of influencing my conduct. I found myself completely 
master of the situation. It is only necessary to destroy in oneself the roots of those motives which 
determine a man's course, in order to enjoy the omnipotence and immunity of a god. 
The second point of the ordeal concerned the choice between the women. The Owl offered all the 
delights of carefree ease and placid pleasure; but there was nothing to be gained. The Monkey 
represented a life of turmoil and anxiety, with few magnificent moments amid the hours of 
fretfulness; but progress was possible. It was as if the Secret Chiefs had asked me, "Are you content 
to enjoy the fruit of your attainment and live at peace with the world, surrounded by affection, 
respect and comfort, or will you devote yourself to mastering and fertilizing mankind, despite the 
prospect of continual disquietude and almost certain disappointment?" I chose the Monkey. I was 
perfectly willing to make the best of the Owl, in my spare time, so to speak; but I accepted the 
responsibility attached to her rival without reservation.