September
29th. 12.0 mn.
IL15-11.41
am. a.m.
30th.
10.5 am.
October.
Ist. 5.30 p.m.
9.30 p.m.
THE EQUINOX
Dharana on Ajna and “Aum Tat Sat Aum” thirty-one
minutes. At one time Ajna seemed enormously, perhaps
infinitely, elongated.
Mantra “Aum Tat Sat Aum” with usual throbbing.
Took 210 drops of Laudanum as an experiment under
MAitrananda’s guidance. (Absolutely no mental result, and
hardly any physical result. I must be most resistant to this
drug, which I had never previously taken).
Recovering from the Laudanum.
Pranayama and Dharana hopeless.*
Another month of this great work commences, and though
the toil has not been wasted the reward indeed seems still
far off.
On the first of the month P. writes:—
“Blessed be thou, O Bhavani, O Isis my Sister, my Bride,
my Mother! Blessed be Thou, O Shiva, O Amoun, Concealed
of the Concealed. By Thy most secret and Holy Name of
Apophis be Thou blessed, Lucifer, Star of the Dawn, Satan-
Jeheshua, Light of the World! Blessed be Thou, Buddha,
Osiris, by whatever Name I call Thee Thou art nameless to
Eternity.
Blessed be Thou, O Day, that Thou hast risen in the Night
of Time; First Dawn in the Chaos of poor P.’s poor mind!
Accursed be Thou, Jehovah, Brahma, unto the Aeons of
Aeons: thou who didst create Darkness and not Light! Mara,
vile Mask of Matter!
Arise, O Shiva, and destroy! That in destruction these at
last be blest.
Pranayama.
Mantra seventeen minutes. Noise of glass being rubbed
persistent.
From now I decide to work more seriously, and follow out
the following programme:
Mantra “ Aum Tat Sat Aum.”
Dharana on Ajna Chakkra.
Read Bhagavad-Gita.
Vegetarian diet.
* Probably at this time a period of “dryness” supervened.
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