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MAGICK WITHOUT TEARS 
I am inclined to make my Silence include all forms of 
personal work, and this is very hard to give up, if only 
because I am still afraid of "failure," which is absurd. I 
ought evidently 
to be non-attached, 
even to 
A void-the- Woes-Attendant-Upon-Refusing-The-Curse-
Of-My-Grade, if I may be pardoned the expression. 
And why should I leave my Efficacious Tortoise and 
look at people till my lower jaw hangs down? Shall I see 
what the Yi says? Ay. Question: Shall I abandon all 
magical work soever until the appearance of a manifest 
sign? 
Answer: =-= No Symbol could be more definite 
== and unambiguous. 
I have invoked Aiwass to manipulate the Sticks; and, 
wishing to ask "What shall be the Sign?" got instantly 
the reference in CCXX to our Lady Babalon: "The 
Omnipresence of my body . " But this is not quite clear; I 
took it mentally as referring to the expected arrival of 
Our Lady, but it might mean a trance, or almost 
anything. So I will ask Yi, as my last magical act for the 
time being. 
I think this means the arrival of Our Lady. I 
have serious doubts whether the hexagram 
should not have been: 
which would certainly have meant that. That I 
should doubt anything is absurd; I shall know 
the Sign, without fail. And herewith I close the 
Record, and await that Sign. 
The next entry is dated Sunday, February 1. 
Kindly read over the entry of January 12 with care 
exceeding. Now then: On Friday, January 30, I went to Paris, 
to buy pencils, Mandarin, a palette, Napoleon Brandy, 
canvases, and other appurtenances of the artist's dismal trade. 
I took occasion to call upon an old mistress of mine, Jane 
Cheron, concerning whom see The Equinox, Vol. I, "Three 
Poems." She has never had the slightest interest in occult