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1898 · PDF PAGE 125

White Stains

…e spear ; my feet were shod With iron as I kicked my God. Such frightful fancies dim my eyes— I can remember how his side Lay open for a lover’s prize— I violate the Crucified ! Hell shrieks with impious laugh ; they sing A mad lewd chant ; Hell hails me king ! So runs my dream ; but what am I ? A lover by a Jewess’ bed, A lover waiting wistfully For his desires to be fed ; His only lust—a lover’s bliss, And with no language but a kiss ! In her loose lusts I find again The memory of that dream gone by ; Her kisses waken in my brain The picture …

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1898 · PDF PAGE 23

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… fall All crowns, all kingdoms, for one rhythmical Caress of thine, one kiss my soul to tame. You crown me king and queen ; I crown thee lover ! I bid thee hasten, nay, I plead with thee, Come in the thick dear darkness to my bed. Heed not my sighs, but eagerly uncover, As our mouths mingle, my sweet infamy, And rob thy lover of his maidenhead.

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1898 · PDF PAGE 29

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…as one Whose unity is sacred, still shall dwell Together—Not the cold embrace Of “ We shall meet again ”, but let us say The ritual of a lover, being this “ God be with you ! ” She. O heart too dear to me, Too much beloved for lover’s tongue to tell, God be with you ! Farewell, sweet heart ! He. Farewell. (EXEUNT). BESUNT CETERA.

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1898 · PDF PAGE 48

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42 A JEALOUS LOVER A JEALOUS LOVER I I have an idol wrought of stainless gold Before whose feet I bow, in whose delight I am content to live, whose spells of might Are smiles that gleam, are tears that glisten cold On the fair cheek that blushes if I praise ; Are warm ripe kisses in the softer hours When love is perfect blossom of sweet flowers, Are shadowed glances of pure lovelight rays From clear blue eyes, are wonderful caresses When love is golden autumn of sweet fruit. What other worship can usurp my days When I may lie amid her sunny tre…

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1898 · PDF PAGE 9

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…........................................ 32 A Ballad of Choosing .......................................................... 40 A Jealous Lover ................................................................. 42 Ballade de la Jolie Marion .................................................. 45 At Stockholm ..................................................................... 49 Mathilde ............................................................................ 50 Yet Time to turn ................................................................ …

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1898 · PDF PAGE 50

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44 A JEALOUS LOVER For I am alone, unloved, in murk and gloom, Unloved, unfriended, fittest for the tomb, Who worshipped golden feet and found them clay. 4 She creeps alive upon the tawny sands, False glittering woman, girt about with lies ! She steals toward me, the tigress sleek and fierce ! Destroying devil, with long sinuous hands And hate triumphant in blue-murderous eyes ! I nerve myself to spring upon and pierce With maddening fangs those firm white bosom towers, To tear those lithe voluptuous limbs apart And glut my ravening soul with v…

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1898 · PDF PAGE 31

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THE RAINBOW 25 With virtue Thy likeness we cover, With priestcraft we mock at Thy power, And the meanest on earth is a lover, As vile as a flower. Come down through the visionless aether, And watch for the sprout of the grain Hid dark in the wonder beneath her, A marvel of passion and pain ; Smite power from on high into mortals, Draw spirit to spirit and nigher, That winds burst the wonderful portals And tongues as of fire. O Life of the stars in their glory, O Light of the passionate spring, How sweet and supreme is thy story, Most Wonderful,…

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1898 · PDF PAGE 51

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… remember sighs and tears, Yet I will think upon the nights I whispered into passionate ears The fond desires, the sweet faint fears. My lover’s limbs of lissome white Gleamed in the darkness and strange light, The wondrous orbs voluptuously Bent on me all unearthly bright : But we must part, and love must die.

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1898 · PDF PAGE 34

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…ity, the child of Impotence, And eyes grow dim with grey distrust thereof. Forget, dear heart, forget ; life’s glow is sweet : Come to a lover’s arms that grow divine At the first eloquent embrace of thine, While pulses in wild unison warmly beat. 2 I know a valley walled with glistening steep Of fire-hewn rock, and stately cliff of ice,

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1898 · PDF PAGE 49

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A JEALOUS LOVER 43 Ripples break foamless, where the golden coasts Echo their mellow cadence. Such delight Is on me I would fain sigh into sleep Until my love comes forth to dream with me Of silent words of love and peopled stars Where we may live and love and never weep Nor yet be weary. The last ruby bars Are sunk beneath the sea. The shadows creep More on me as I quicken with desire My love is all of gold, my faith is deep Lit with my heart’s imperishable fire. 3 Pale spectres of the stars, corpse-lights, bad-ghosts Sicken the icy glamour of…

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1898 · PDF PAGE 61

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…— Yea, king and queen of Sheol, terrible Above all fiends and furies, hating more The high Jehovah, loving Baal Peor, Our father and our lover and our god ! Yea, though he lift his adamantine rod And pierce us through, how shall his anger tame Fire that glows fiercer for the brand of shame Thrust in it ; so, we who are all of fire, One dull red flare of devilish desire, The God of Israel shall not quench with tears, Nor blood of martyrs drawn from myriad spheres, Nor watery blood of Christ ; that blood shall boil With all the fury of our hellis…

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1898 · PDF PAGE 15

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…inating character was accused, four years later, in Vienna, of poisoning her paramour, but thanks to the wealth and influence of her new lover, she escaped. The legal father, left by himself with a squalling child to amuse, to appease in his tantrums, and to bring up in the nurture and admonition of the Lord, was not a little perplexed by the sudden disappearance of his wife. At first he supposed that she had been translated, but, finding that she had not left the traditional mantle behind her, he abandoned this supposition in favour of quite a…

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1898 · PDF PAGE 20

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…s collection. This shock, coming so soon after, and, as it were, as an unholy perpetual reminder of the madness and sequestration of her lover, no less than of his infidelity, unhinged her mind, and she shot herself on July 5th, 1869. Her last letter to Madame J . . . S . . . is one of the tenderest and most pathetic ever written. She seems to have been really loved by George, in his wild, infidel fashion : “ All Night ” and “ Victory ”, among others, are obviously inspired by her beauty ; and her devotion to him, the abasement of soul, the pro…

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