FOLLOW A WORD THROUGH THE COLLECTION
Search the corpus.
Phrase search ignores case and repeated whitespace. All-words search finds whole words anywhere on the same page. OCR errors can affect results.
15 matching pages
Page 1 of 11929 · PDF PAGE 41
No! thought he, perhaps I lack their faith. Perhaps if I could really persuade myself of God and ChristPerhaps if I could deceive myself, could make believe Such a thought is to surrender one's honesty, to ab- dicate one's reason. It marked the final futile struggle of his will. The demon caught and crunched him, and the noisy delirium began anew. My flesh and blood rebelled. Taken with a deathly vomit, I rushed from the room, and resolutely, for a whole hour, diverted my sensorium from thought. I had always found that the slightest …
1929 · PDF PAGE 54
is published with all reserve as the lucubration of a very peculiar, perhaps unique, type of insanity. V. ENGLISH, M.D. NOTES: 1. It is one of the greatest cruelties of nature that all painful or depressing emotions seem to lengthen time; pleasant thoughts and exalted moods make time fly. Thus, in summing up a life from an outside standpoint, it would seem that, supposing pleasure and pain to have occupied equal periods, the impression would be that pain was enormously greater than pleasure. This may be controverted. Virgil writes: Fortisan ha…
1929 · PDF PAGE 18
Perhaps Monsieur will find there what he requires, he said coldly. Furtively and hurriedly, his glance divided between the forbidden book and the shop-door, his only safe- guard from intrusion the thought that nobody who en- tered would be in a position to throw stones at a fellow- culprit, Theodore Bugg turned over the pages. The book began mildly enough with the winged Vic- tory and only entered the rapids with La Gioconda. Thence, Niagra-like, one plunge to the abyssthe Venus de Milo. The blood flame to his face; his breath came hot and q…
1929 · PDF PAGE 13
…as unfortunate that day, though braver than ever. Such were the indications from which I sought to piece together our plan of escape! Perhaps rather by intuition than by reason, I gath- ered from some two hundred of such clues that the guards Bertrand, Rolland, and Monet, had been bribed, and also promised advancement, and (above all) re- moval from the hated Island, should they connive at our escape. It seemed that the Government had still use for its first strategist. The eclipse was due some ten weeks ahead, and needed neither bribe nor p…
1929 · PDF PAGE 25
… was evident. Ada Brown (Athanasia contra mundum) pooh- poohed the whole affair; Margaret Letchmere thought I must have heard something, perhaps a cry inaudible to
1929 · PDF PAGE 34
… the greater and truer part of me. You have brought unguessed explana- tions from the world of sleep; you are the one woman in the worldperhaps there may never be anotherwho has such an opportunity to study the phenomena of death. He charged me earnestly to suppress my grief, to concentrate wholly on the thoughts that passed through his mind when he could no longer express them, and
1929 · PDF PAGE 46
…considered the incalculable array of the thoughts in his well-furnished mind; I saw that thousands of years would not exhaust them. But, perhaps, when the brain was destroyed beyond recognition of its component parts We have always casually assumed that conscious- ness depends upon a proper flow of blood in the vessels of the brain; we have never stopped to think whether the records might not be excited in some other manner.
1929 · PDF PAGE 52
…ely distributed. The note-books of my work with Arthur (Vols, I CCXIV) will be edited by Professor von Buehle, whose marvellous mind may perhaps discover some es- cape from the destiny which menaces mankind. Every- thing is in order in these note-books; and I am free to die, for I can endure no more, and above all things I dread the onset of illness, and the possibility of natural or accidental death. NOTE I am glad to have the opportunity of publishing, in a journal so widely read by the profession, the MS. of the
1929 · PDF PAGE 31
…e of mind. I sometimes think that I have never had any thoughts of my own; that I have always been read- ing the thoughts of another, or perhaps of Nature. I seem only to have been a woman in those first few months of marriage. VII The six months following held for me nothing out of the ordinary, save that six or seven times I had dreams, vivid and terrible. Arthur had no share in these; yet I knew, I cannot say how, that they were his dreams and not mine; or rather that they were in his subconscious waking self, for one occurred in the afterno…
1929 · PDF PAGE 4
…Englishman protested that nothing had been further from his thoughts. I suppose so, proceeded the other more qui- etly. And the more, perhaps, that I am a convicted murderer. Bevan was now fairly alarmed. I am proud of it, continued Duguesclin. At the age of twenty-five my blood was more fiery than it is to- day. I married. Four years later I found my wife in the embraces of a neighbour. I slew him. I slew her. I slew our three children, for vipers breed only vipers. I slew the servants; they were accomplices of the adul- tery, or if not…
1929 · PDF PAGE 1
…ally the whole of Muckshire south of the Tream. And we have certainly one hour to wait, and Heaven knows its more likely to be two, and perhaps three. And, of course, theres not as much as a bar nearer than Fatloam; and if we got there we should positive and actual disgrace to the railway that allows it, to the country that tolerates it, to the civilisation that permits that such things should be. The same thing happened to me here last year, sir, though luckily on that occasion I had but half-an-hour to wait. But I wrote to The Times a stron…
1929 · PDF PAGE 8
…tory but a pretext for the demand of a loan? The stranger looked prosper- ous and had a first class ticket. More likely a black- mailer; perhaps he knew of other thingssay that affair at Oxfordor the incident of the Edgware Roador the matter of Esme Holland. He determined to be more than ever on his guard. You will understand with what joy, continued Duguesclin, innocent or careless of the sinister thoughts which occupied his companion, I received and an- swered this unmistakable token of friendship. That day no further opportunity of int…
1929 · PDF PAGE 36
…below, within, withdrawn. said to myself, He is dead! Then came Ar- thur's thought, I had better pretend to be mad. It will save her, perhaps; and it will be a change. I shall pre- tend I have killed her with an axe. Damn it! I hope she is not listening. I was now thoroughly awake, and told the driver to get home quickly. I hope she is killed in the motor; I hope she is smashed into a million pieces. O God! hear my one prayer! let an Anarchist throw a bomb and smash Magdalen into a million pieces! espe- cially the brain! and the brain firs…
1929 · PDF PAGE 7
…of obver- sion, and reduced the quadrangle of oppositions to the condition of the British square at Abu-Klea. So much you know; but this perhaps you did not know, that, al- though a civilian, he was the greatest strategist of France. It was he who in his cabinet made the disposi- tions of the armies of the Ardennes; and the 1890 scheme of the fortifications of Luneville was due to his genius alone. For this reason the Government were loth to condemn him, though public opinion revolted bitterly against his crime. You remember that, having proved…
1929 · PDF PAGE 44
…a consciousness from which human limitation had fallen away of things actu- ally taking place in the body. It was a false interpretation perhaps; but it was his interpretation; and it was that which caused suffering so beyond all that poets have ever dreamt of the infernal. I am ashamed to say that my first thought was of the Catholic Church and its masses for the repose of the dead. I went to the Cathedral, revolving as I went all that had ever been saidthe superstitions of a hundred savage tribes. At bottom I could find no difference be- twe…