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Page 1 of 11909 · PDF PAGE 19
12.7. 12.18. 12.20. 12.28. 12.33. JOHN ST. JOHN The Second Day The Stroke of Twelve found me duly in my Asana, practising Pranayama. Let me continue this work ; for it is written that unto the persevering mortal the Blessed Immortals are swift . . . What then should happen to a persevering Immortal like myself? Trying meditation and mantra. I find thoughts impossible to concentrate; and my Asana, despite various cowardly attempts to "fudge” it, is {rightfully painful. In Hanged Man posture, meditating and willing the Presence of Adonai by the Ri…
1909 · PDF PAGE 15
…into two shifts. A nice sleep. Woke refreshed. Am arrived home, having performed a little business and driven back. Will sit down and do Asana, etc. Have started. 7 Pranayama cycles enough. Doubtless the big lunch is a nuisance. I continue meditating simply. Asana hurts badly, and I can no longer concentrate at all. Must take 5 minutes‘ rest and then persevere. I3
1909 · PDF PAGE 20
…ded to correspondence and other business and drunk a citron pressé. The Voice of the Nadi began to resound. Have done ”Bornless One ” in Asana. Good; yet I am filled with utter despair at the hopelessness of the Task. Especially do I get the Buddhist feeling, not only that Asana is intensely painful, but that all conceivable positions of the body are so. Still sitting; quite sceptical; sticking to it just because I am a man, and have decided to go through with it. Have done 10 RY. cycles. Α bit better, and a slight hint of the Bhuchari Siddhi fo…
1909 · PDF PAGE 125
…the day. God! what a day! . . . I dare not trust my will to keep me awake; so I rise, wash, and will walk about till time to get into my Asana. Thirst! Oh how I thirst! I had not thought that there could be such suffering. The Eleventh Day It seems a poor thing to be proud of, merely to be awake. Yet I was flushed with triumph as a boy that wins his first race. The powers of Asana and Pranayama return. I did 21 Breath-cycles without fatigue. Energy returns, and Keenness to pursue the Path—all fruits of that one little victory over sleep. How deli…
1909 · PDF PAGE 99
…oaster (or Pythagoras ?) informs us that the number Nine is sacred, and attains the summit of Philosophy. I’m sure I hope so! I get into Asana . . . and so endeth the Eighth Lesson. The Ninth Day Thus I began this great day, being in my Asana firm and easy, and holding in my breath for a full minute while I threw my will with all my might towards Adonai. Have settled myself for the night. Will continue a little, learning the Ritual. Ζ 97
1909 · PDF PAGE 69
…ious mistake 111 the beginning of this Operation of Magick Art. Iought to have performed a true Equilibration by an hour’s Prana Yama in Asana (even if I had to do it without Kamb- hakham) at midnight, dawn, noon, and sunset, and I should have allowed nothing in heaven above, or in earth beneath, or in the waters under the earth, to have interfered with its due performance. Instead I thought myself such a fine fellow that to get into Asana for a few minutes every midnight and the rest go—as—you-please would be enough. I am well punished. This fo…
1909 · PDF PAGE 48
…rst symptoms of the Bhuchari-Siddhi—the “jumping about like a frog" ——were well marked. I am encouraged to spend a few minutes (still in Asana) reading the Shiva Sanhita. Asana very painful again. True, I was doing it very strictly. I notice they give a second stage—trembling of the body—as preliminary to the jumping about like a frog —1 had omitted this, as one is so obviously thefgerm of the other. The Hindus seem to lack a sense of proportion. When the Yogi, by turning his tongue back for one half— minute, has conquered old age, disease and …
1909 · PDF PAGE 22
…as she is, I don't want to make love to her. Mixed mantra and caresses rather a success. (At her request I gave M. a minimum dose of X.) Asana and Meditation with mantra since 8.40. The blackness seems breaking. For a moment I got a vague glimpse of one’s spine (or rather one’s Sushumna) as a galaxy of stars, thus suggesting the stars as the ganglia of the Universe. Το continue. Not very satisfactory. Asana got painful; like a
1909 · PDF PAGE 131
…rection in a sixpenny edition, and the Book- stall everlasting AMEN. Arrived at Brenner’s studio, and went on with the “ moulage ” of my Asana. Left the Studio; walk with mantra. Mantra-march. Pranayama; quick time. Very brac- ing and fatiguing, both. At Döme to drink a Citron pressé. Reflections have been in my mind upon the grossness of the Theistic conception, as shewn even in such pictures as Raphael’s and Fra Angelico’s. 2 B 129
1909 · PDF PAGE 91
… begin the new day in affirmation of my Unity with my Lord Adonai I The Eighth Day Thus the Eighth day, the Second Week, begins. I am in Asana. For some reason or other, Pranayarna is quite easy. Concentrating on Adonai, Iwas in Kam- bhakham for a whole minute without distress. It is true, by the way. I was—and am—in some danger of looking on this Record as a Book; i.e., of emphasising things for their literary effect, and diminishing the importance of others which lend them- selves less obviously. But the answer to this, friend Satan] is that …
1909 · PDF PAGE 59
JOHN ST. JOHN 11.30. Have been walks with the mantra arranging for and 2.0. modelling a “saddle” whereby to get Asana really steady and easy ; also {or some photographs illustrating some of the more absurd positions, for the instruction of my devotees. I must now copy out the new Ritual. This, you will readily perceive, is all wrong. Theoreti- cally, everything should be ready by the beginning of the Operation; and one should simply do it and be done with it. But this is a very shallow view. One never knows what may be required; i.e., a beginne…
1909 · PDF PAGE 75
…ly Guardian Angel " as equal to Neroda-Samapatti, the trance of Nibbana. I hope I shall be able to live up to this! Have been practising Asana, etc. I forgot one thing in the last entry: I had been reproaching Adonai that for six days I had evoked Him in vain. . . . I got the reply, “ The Seventh Day shall be the Sabbath of the Lord thy God.” So mote it be! T/æ Seven/ll Day. I began this great day with Eight breath—cycles; was stopped by the indigestion trouble in its other form. (P.S.—Evidently the introduction of the Cascara into my sensitive…
1909 · PDF PAGE 14
…by deglutition, as the Hatha Yogis do. The distaste for food has already begun. Impressions already failmg to conned. I was getting into Asana and thinking “I will record this fact,” when I saw a jockey being weighed.
1909 · PDF PAGE 21
…nduly? I think not; if one didn’t change to another mystic process, one would have to read the newspaper. This completes my half—hour of Asana. Legs very painful; yet again I find myself wishing for Kandy (not sugar candy, but the place where I did my first Hindu practices and got my first Results) and a life devoted entirely to meditation. But not for mel I’m no Pratyeka—Buddha; a Dhamma—Buddha every inch of me! [A Pratyeka-Buddha attains the Supreme Reward for himself alone; a Dhamma—Buddha renounces it and returns to hell (earth) to teach othe…
1909 · PDF PAGE 13
…d be profaned, and the Eye be closed upon me I All this did I swear and seal with a stroke upon the Bell. Then I steadily sat down in my Asana (or sacred Posture), having my left heel beneath my body pressing into the anus, my right sole closely covering the phallus, the right leg vertical; my head, neck, and spine in one straight vertical line; my arms stretched out resting on their respective knees; my thumbs joined each to the fourth finger of the proper hand. All my muscles were tightly held; my breath came steady, slow and even through both…
1909 · PDF PAGE 53
…et her in but for the accident of my being outside the room and the door left open, so that she was inside on my return. Let me get into Asana. The Fifth Day So beginneth the Fifth Day of this great Magical Retirement. With two and twenty breath—cycles did I begin. This practice was a little easier; but not much better. It ought to become quite simple and natural before one devotes the half-minute of Kam- bhakam (breath held-in), when one is rigid to a strong projectionofWill toward Adonai,ashas been mycustom. I hope to-day will be more hard de…
1909 · PDF PAGE 33
…bsolutely at will : even the Work itself may become an obsession. I 1 hours with no real break—not bad. The bad part of to-day seems the Asana, and the deadness. Or, perhaps worse, I fail to apprehend the true magical purport of my work: hence all sort of aimless formulae, leading—naturallyenough—to no result. It just strikes me—it may be this Isis Apophis Osiris IAO formula that I have preached so often. Certainly the first two days were Isis—natural, pleasant, easy events. Most certainly too to-day has been Apophis! Think of the wild cursing a…
1909 · PDF PAGE 27
… Bath is over. Icontinued the mantra throughout, which much alleviated the torture of massage. But I could not get steady and easy in my Asana or even in the Hanged Man or Shavasana, the “ corpse-position." I think the heat is exciting, and makes me restless. I continue in the cooling-room lying down. I have ordered !2 oysters and coffee and bread and butter. O oysters! be ye unto me strength that I formulate the 12 rays of the Crown of HVA! I conjure ye, and very potently command. Even by Him who ruleth Life from the Throne of Tahuti unto the …