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Page 1 of 31909 · PDF PAGE 96
…- THE EQUINOX St. john and his ₪258/?)?ושמthink af Adonai! Exactly: the one difficulty] My best way out will be to concentrate on the New Ritual, learn it perfectly by heart, work it at the right moment. . . . I will go, with this idea, to have a Citron presse; thence to my Secret Restaurant, and dine, always learning the Ritual. I will leave off the mantra, though it is nearly as much part of me as my head by now; and instead repeat over and over again the words of the Ritual so that I can do it in the end with perfect fluency and comprehension.…
1909 · PDF PAGE 38
THE EQUINOX 9.0. Arrived at Pantheon, to breakfast on coffeeand brioche 36 and a peach. I shall try and describe Ritual DCLXXI ; since its nature is important to this great ceremony of initiation. Those who understand a little about the Path of the Wise may receive some hint of the method of operation of the L.V.X. And I think that a description will help me to collect myself for the proper adaptation of this Ritual to the purpose of Self-initiation. Oh, how soft is the air, and how serene the sky, to one who has passed through the black rule o…
1909 · PDF PAGE 59
…lso {or some photographs illustrating some of the more absurd positions, for the instruction of my devotees. I must now copy out the new Ritual. This, you will readily perceive, is all wrong. Theoreti- cally, everything should be ready by the beginning of the Operation; and one should simply do it and be done with it. But this is a very shallow view. One never knows what may be required; i.e., a beginner like myself doesn’t. Further, one cannot write an effective Ritual till one is already in a fairly exalted state . . . and so On. We must just…
1909 · PDF PAGE 62
…roduce me ; I may add that I hope it will be another hundred million before God makes such another cur. Have performed the Equilibrating Ritual of the Scourge, the Dagger, and the Chain; with the Holy Anointing Oil that bringeth the informing Fire into their Lustral Water. I am so sleepy that I cannot concentrate at all. (I was trying the “Bornless One”) The magic goes well; good images and powerful, but I slack right off into sleep. It’s the hour for heroic measures or else to say : A good night’s rest, and start fresh in the morning! I suppos…
1909 · PDF PAGE 36
…Hanged Man posture, to invoke the Angel, within the Pyramid already duly prepared by DCLXXI. Alas! in vain have I tried even the supreme ritual of Awaiting the Beloved, although once I thought Ah ! give unto Thy beloved in sleep! How ashamed I should be, though! For an earthly lover one would be on tiptoe of excitement, trembling at every sound, eager, afraid . . . I will, however, rise and open (as for a symbol) the door and the window. Oh that the door of my heart were ever open! For He is always there, and always eager to come in. I rise and…
1909 · PDF PAGE 50
…. The Question then arises: What shall I do to be saved ? The only answer-and one which is quite unconnected with the question—is that a Ritual of Adeptus Major should display the Birth of Horus and Slaying of Typhon. Here again Horus and Harpocrates—the twins of the twin signs of o°=o" ritual—are the slayers of Typhon. So all the rituals get mixed: the symbols recur, though in a different aspect. Anyway, one wants something a deal better than the path of Pe in 4": 7° ritual. I think the postulant should be actually scourged, tortured, branded …
1909 · PDF PAGE 110
…oo, is wanderingall over the world. Since the last entry, very likely, the beast has not thought even once of Adonai. The Reading of the Ritual has done much service, though things are still far from calm. Yet the mighty flood of the Chittam is again rolling its tremendous tide toward the sea—the Sea of annihilation. Amen. Returning home, with his eyes fixed on the supreme glory of the Moon, in his heart and brain invoking Adonai, he hath now entered into his little chamber, and will prepare all things for the due performance of the New Ritual wh…
1909 · PDF PAGE 67
…N ST. JOHN my credit that I woke saying my mantra with vigour. ’Tis a bitter chill and damp the mom; yet must I rise and toil at my fair Ritual. Settling down to copy. Have completed my two prescribed pages of illumina— tion. Will g0 and break my fast and do my business. After writing letters went out and had coffee and two brioches. At Louvre looking up some odd points in the lore 01 Khemi [Egypt—En] for my Ritual. I cannot understand it; but I feel faint for lack of food ; I must get back to strict Hatha—Yoga feeding. Half-dozen oysters and a…
1909 · PDF PAGE 103
…ailed. Failed. Physical and mental exhaustion are fairly complete. Adonai, look with favour upon Thy slave ! He has walked, reciting the Ritual, to Dr. R and H for lunch. They have forgotten the appoint- ment, so he continues and reaches Lavenue’s at 12.4 after reading his letters and doing one or two necessary things. He orders Epinards, Tarte aux Praises, Glace au Café, and % Evian. The distaste for food is great; and for meat amounts to loathing. The weather is exceedingly hot; it may be arranged thus by Adonai to enable John St. John to med…
1909 · PDF PAGE 101
… up and do some kind of work; for the beast would sleep. John St John has arisen, after doing 20 breath- cycles, reciting internally the ritual, 70 per cent. of which he now knows by heart. To the Dome—a cafe-croissant. Some proofs to cor- rect during the meal. Having walked over to the studio reciting the Ritual (925—9.55 approximately), John St. John got into his pose, and began going for the gloves. The Interior Trembling began, and the room filled with the Subtle Light. He was within an ace of Concentration; the Violet Lotus of Ajna appeared…
1909 · PDF PAGE 99
…y doing any one simple thing for ten minutes at a stretch! Twenty-five Breath-Cycles . . . But it nearly killed me. I was saying over the Ritual, and did so want to get to the Formulation of the Hexagram at least, ifnot to the Reception. As it was, I broke down during the Passage of the Pylons, luckily not till I had reached that of Tahuti. But it is a good rule; when in doubt play Pranayama. For one can no longer worry about the Path: the Question is reduced to the simple problem: Am I, or am I not, going to burst? I got all the sweating and tr…
1909 · PDF PAGE 16
…it yet more, so that this body may fear me ; for that I am Horus the terrible, the Avenger, the Lord of the Gate of the West. 4.15— Read Ritual DCLXXI. [The nature of this Ritual is 4.30. explained later.—ED.] 5.10. I have returned from my shopping. Strange how 14 solemn and dignified so trivial a thing becomes, once one has begun to concentrate l I bought two pears, half a pound of Garibaldi biscuits, and a packet of Gaufrettes. I hada Citron presse, too, at the Dome. At the risk of violating the precepts of Zoroaster 170 and 144 I propose to d…
1909 · PDF PAGE 44
…it probably comes from bolting that big lunch, and may mean that I must sleep to recover equilibrium. I will, however, use the Pentagram ritual on my Anahata Cakkram [the heart; a nerve—centre in Hindu mystical physiology—ED] and see if that steadies me. (P.S.— Yes: instantly). Notice, please, how in this condition of intense magical strain the most trifling things have a great influence. Normally, I can eat anything in any quantity without the slightest effect of any sort; witness my expeditions and debauches; nothing upsets me. P.S.—But notice,…
1909 · PDF PAGE 73
…sense) which does not lead to Adonai. (In another sense, all is evil which is not Adonai.) And of course I had the insane idea that this ritual would serve to stimulatemy devotion. For the information of the Z.A.M., I may explain that this ritual pertained to Saturn in Libra; and, though right enough in its own plane, is a dog— faced demon in this operation. Is it, though? I am so blind that I can no longer decide the simplest problems. Else, I see so well, and am so balanced, that I see both sides of every question. In chess-blindness one used…
1909 · PDF PAGE 111
JOHN ST. JOHN ”.5. According to the Ritual, Ο.Μ. withdrew himself from the Vision; the Vision of the Universe, at whirling abyss of coruscating suns in all the colours, yet informed and dominated by that supernal brilliance. Yet 0. M. refused the Vision; and a conflict began and was waged through many ages—so it seemed. And now all the enemies of Ο. Μ. banded themselves against him. The petty affairs of the day; even the irritations of his body, the emotions of him, the plans of him, worry about the Record and the Ritual and—- O! everything l—th…
1909 · PDF PAGE 34
…ck Art. Having got rid of Maryt (who, by the way, is Quite mad), and thereby (one might hope) of Apophis and Typhon, I perform the Great Ritual DCLXXI with good results magically; i.e., I formulated things very easily and forcibly; even at one time I got a hint of the Glory of Adonai. But I made the absurd mistake of going through the Ritual as if I was rehearsing it, instead of staying at the Reception of the Candidate and insisting upon being really received. I will therefore now (11.50) sit down again and invoke reallyhardon these same lines…
1909 · PDF PAGE 93
…dest sleepers imaginable. Nine solid hours without turning once is my irreducible minimum. Having done an hour’s illumination of the New Ritual, will go and break my fast with coffee and a brioche, and thence proceed to Michael Brenner’s studio. I have spent the morning in modelling Siddhasana— a more difficult task than appeared. Rather like THE taskl But I went on with the mantra, and made some Re- flections upon Kamma. I will now have a Yogin coffee and sandwich, and return to my illumination of the Ritual. In the desert of my soul, where no h…
1909 · PDF PAGE 68
…n hour; but I don‘t think it even once a day. All my energy has suddenly come back. Was it that Hatha—Yoga sandwich? I go on copying the Ritual. Copying finished. I will go and dine, and learn it by heart, humbly and thoughtfully. The illumination of it can be finished, with a little luck, in two more days. I am disinclined to use the Ritual until it is beautifully coloured. As Zoroaster saith : “ God is never so much turned away from man, and never so much sendeth him new paths, as when he maketh ascent to divine speculations or works, in a conf…
1909 · PDF PAGE 39
…ld, whose Terror is about him on every side, Yet since he has followed the voice of the Officer who has prepared him, in this part 01 the Ritual no longer merely Nature, the great Mother, but Neschamah (his aspiration) and the representative of Adonai, he may pass through all. Yea, in spite of the menace 01 the Hiereus, whose function is now that of his fear and of his courage, he goes on and enters the Pyramid. But there he is seized and thrown down by both officers as one unworthy to enter. His aspiration purifies him with steel and fire; and the…
1909 · PDF PAGE 57
… like, too, to remark that the suggestions in the “Herb Dangerous " [We hope to publish this essay in No. 2 of “The Equinox ”—EDr] for a ritual seem the wrong way round. It seems to me that the Eastern methods are very arid, and chiefly valuable as a training of the Will, while the Ceremonies of the Magic of Light tune up the soul to that harmony when it is but one step to the Crown. The real plan is, then, to train the Will into as formid— able an engine as possible, and then, at the moment in the Ritual when the real work should be done, to fli…