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1909 · PDF PAGE 50

Clouds Without Water

…th for breath Exchanged the royal accolade of death, I love you for your cruelty to them; Y love you for your cruelty to me; I see their blood glittering a diadem Upon your dazzling brows; my blood I see Sucked deep into your body, curling round Like fire in every artery and vein Massed in your heart, colossal and profound. Iam mad for you to brand me with the stain Of your own vice. Our souls, a murdering crew Of itching Mullahs, wallow, dervish-drunk. Love surges at the pang! Our poisonous dew Of sweat and kisses blinds us. A mad monk Kissing…

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1909 · PDF PAGE 51

Clouds Without Water

…e’s a hunger to express Nay! wrap yourself and rub yourself in silk! ° press The infinite pangs, the infinite mighty blisses Drink of my blood, engorge my fruitless sperm! Stored in the house of rapture and distress For you were suckled on the poisonous milk Whose key is one of our blood-tainted kisses That betrays virgins to the deathless worm. Whose fume arises from the accursed sod Are we not glad thereof? Kiss, Lola, kiss, Where we lie burning an] blaspheming God. Comrade of mine in the uttermost abyss! —- 76 —-

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1909 · PDF PAGE 65

Clouds Without Water

…et me not hang like Christ ! Now snap my spine: Surely you know the trick — when from your lips I see a thin chill stream of stark black blood Trickling, the stream ofhate that glows and grips My lesser life within its sickening flood. Be pitiful, and end your cruelty ! Suck out the life of me, that I may die! an { O.f —— V O brooding vampire, why art thou arisen? Why art thou so unquiet in the tomb? Why hasthy corpse burst brilliant out of prison ? Whence get the lips their blood, the cheeks their bloom? Is there no garlic I may wear against t…

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1909 · PDF PAGE 4

Clouds Without Water

…, the words have a special and dreadful significance even for us who —thanks be to God for His un- speakable mercy ! — are washed in the blood of the Lamb and freed from the chains of death — and of hell. Surely this terrible history is a true Sign of the Times. We walk in the last days, and all the

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1909 · PDF PAGE 46

Clouds Without Water

…n thus, when I invoke your harsh caress, Put up my mouth to your immortal kiss, Confess you for my lady and murderess — In mine own life-blood I exult to float Even as your white fangs fasten in my throat.

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1909 · PDF PAGE 70

Clouds Without Water

… the wheel? The Initiation I am the centre tco, and stand apart. Tam the All, who made the All, in All | Who ain, being Naught. 1 am the bloodbright Heart. Wreathed with the Snake, and chaos is their pall ‘Thou art as I; this mystery is ours. These blood-bought bastards of futility Can never know us, fair and free-born flowers. So they may say — they will — of you and me: '- These poets never know green cheese from chalk: ‘This is the sort of nonsense lovers talk.” Thy

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1909 · PDF PAGE 82

Clouds Without Water

…' Besse- mer converter ”, ‘“ The comedy is finished ”. A reference to Hamlet and the Players. Reference to Keats’ Belle Dame sans Merci. Blood-bought bastards. — Christians! O Saviour! what didst Thou come to save? Quoted from Arnold’s Song Celestial, Quoted from a magical Coptic papyrus. THE INITIATION This shocking sonnet awakes pity and disgust in equal proportions. If even then they had only turned to the “ Great Physician! ” But no! ‘ God hardened Pharach’s heart ”. Alas! no doubt that the reference is to our blessed Lordand Master, The ba…

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1909 · PDF PAGE 56

Clouds Without Water

…sure in the fond perfume That curls about my altars? in the throats That chant my glory in the decent gloom Of lofty minsters? Shall the blood of goats And bulls and men send up a fragrant steam To me, who am ? Shall shriek of pythoness Or wail of augur move this dreadful dream To some less melancholy consciousness ? I have created men, who made them gods Of their own excrements, and worshipped them. I cannot match these calculating clods Vho twist themselves a faecal diadem From all the thorny thoughts that plague them mast ; Break wind, and c…

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1909 · PDF PAGE 19

Clouds Without Water

X We tread on earth in our divine disdain And crush its blood out into purple wine, Staining our feet with hot and amorous stain, The foam involving all the sensual shrine Of love whose godhead dwells upon your mouth Wherein the kisses clustering overflow With brimming ardour of the new sin’s growth Till round us all the poisonous blossoms blow, And all the cruel things and hideous forms Of night awake and revel in our revel, While in us rage the devastating storms Whose dam is Luxury and their sire the devil... It is well seen, however things …

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1909 · PDF PAGE 17

Clouds Without Water

…s of our joys immense — Child! I aspire to that bad eminence! Vil Hell hath no queen! But, o thou red mouth curving In kisses that bring blood, shall I be alone? What of the accomplice of these deeds unswerving? Will not your dead hot hisses match mine own? As here your ardours brand me bone and marrow Biting like fire and poison in my veins, Shall you not there still ply your nameless harrow, Mingle a cup from those our common pains To intoxicate us with an extreme pleasure Keener than life’s, more dolorous than death’s Till these infernal bli…

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1909 · PDF PAGE 31

Clouds Without Water

… pangs its foes inflict Are naught to this unutterable mist Of absence. Where's the daily sacrament, The glad devouring of your body and blood, Sweet soul of Christ, my Lola? I am rent Even as the demons from the face of God When they would peer into beatitude. I am barred from the incalculable bliss, The unutterable chrism, the soul’s food, Of you, your gaze, your word, your touch, your kiss O Gods, Fates, Fiends — whoever plays the Pope ! Lift up your curse — leave me not without hope! IT] My soul is like the savage upland plains Of utmost wr…

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1909 · PDF PAGE 34

Clouds Without Water

…ccursed murderer Her God ? — if so be that she hath a God. Foul curses from my life’s envenomed flood Break in a vomit of black foam and blood. IX As one entranced by dint of cannabis, Whose sense of time is changed past recognition, Whether he suffer woe or taste of bliss, He loses both his reason and volition. He says one word — what countless ages pass! He walks across the room —— a voyage as far As the astronomer’s who turns his glass On faintest star-webs past the farthest star And travels thither in the spirit. So It seems impossible to m…

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1909 · PDF PAGE 23

Clouds Without Water

…r citadel, that steals The keys and opens stealthily the gates When we are sleeping, when the dawn conceals Its earliest glimmer and our blood abates Awhile its tide ! O mystic maiden o’ mine, Did I not warn you of the insulting foes? Blind worms that writhe for envy, pious swine~ That gnash their teeth to espy the gold and rose Out flaming like the dawn when kiss for kiss Passed and for ever sealed our bale and bliss. IT] Behold ! the elixir for the weeping wound ! Is it that wine that Avallaunius poured From the Red Cup when fair Titania swoo…

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1909 · PDF PAGE 74

Clouds Without Water

…her wizardry, dissolved her doom; And though her wine be death to him that drinks We shall carouse for ever in the tomb. We drank bull’s blood and all our pangs immense Are better than eupeptic innocence.

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1909 · PDF PAGE 68

Clouds Without Water

…tagnant veins! Your jackals howl among the holy courts; Your monster brood of devils in my brains T.aughs; oh! they feast on my decaying blood; They gnaw the last sweet morsel from my bones. — As on the parched-up earth there flames the flood Of the monsoon, black dust and barren stones [.eap into green, so I whose epitaph Your passion writes, awake to live — to laugh! — 10 — Al Even to the end of all must I resist. New deaths, new births, each minute bolling oyer. I can go on for ever, an you list — Now, now! O no! I will not. O my lover! Spar…

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1909 · PDF PAGE 5

Clouds Without Water

…ed not have feared that the poor servants of God would claim him as repentant, though surely we would all have shed the last drop of our blood to bring him to the grace of God. Alas ! it was not to be. The devilish precautions of this human fiend excluded all such possibilities. He died as he had lived, no doubt. Alas! no doubt. — VII—

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