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1929 · PDF PAGE 105

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

… bound, Even a star became the soul of silence most profound. Thus there, the centre of that death that darkened, I sat and listened, if God's voice should break And pierce the hallow of my ear that hearkened, Lest God should speak and find me not awake --- For his own sake. No voice, no song might pierce or penetrate That enviable universal state. The sun and moon beheld, stood still. Only the spirit's axis, will, Considered its own soul an sought a deadlier deep, And in its monotone mood Of supreme solitude Was neither glad nor sad because it…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 108

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…by the Automatic. (7) To conquer the temptations. (8) To banish the illusions. (9) To put my whole trust in the Only and Omnipotent Lord God: as it is written, "Blessed are they that put their trust in Him." (10) To uplift the Cross of Sacrifice and Suffering; and to cause my Light so to shine before men that they may glorify my Father which is in Heaven. Furthermore, I most solemnly promise and swear: to acquire this Holy Science in the manner prescribed in the Book of Abra-Melin, without omitting the least imaginable thing of its contents; no…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 340

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

… naked". Subhana Allahu walhamdu lilahi walailaha illa allahu wallahu akbar wala baala wala quata illa billahi alaliu ala'zhim. Glory to God and thanks to God, and there is only one God, and God is most great, and there is no strength but in Him, the Exalted, the Great. It does not take me long to work myself up by means of a mantra, even of this lengthy type, into a state of ecstasy, and to proceed, if desired, from that state to actual Dhyana, by concentrating upon any appropriate cakra. By ecstasy I do not mean anything characterized by extr…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 405

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…f be influenced by the fashions of a clique. I am reminded of an interesting circumstance which occurred in 1912. Epstein had made a Sun-God. Hearing this, I hurried to his studio. I thought it a sign that the ideas which moved me were independently penetrating other minds. "Hullo," said I, as I entered the studio; "you've been doing the Man of Vitruvius, have you?" "Man of what?" said Epstein. "Vitruvius; you know --- the Microcosm?" I might have been talking Choctaw. I could not believe that Epstein did not know all about it. But he did not k…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 77

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…d people. My mother always believed that Great Eastern, the first steamship of any size to speak of, met with repeated disasters because God was jealous, as He had been of the tower of Babel. In 1917 my cousin, Lawrence Bishop, told me that he thought that "the Lord prepared a great iceberg" for the Titanic in annoyance at the claim of the shipbilders that she was unsinkable. William Whiteley had several fires, which my mother took as the repartee of the Almighty to the merchant's assumption of the title "Universal Provider", which could be pro…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 489

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

… fell. I travelled through the cloven chasm ....To where the redwood's cloistered giant grove ....Sprung gothic and priapic; wonder wove God's glory, gathered in the Titan spasm Nature's parturient anguish. Murk pantasm ....Moving I seemed! I found the treasurer trove ....Of fire, and consecrated all to love, Smiting my soul within the protoplasm. Within that temple of the midnight sun I cried all night upon Hilarion! ....All night I willed, I loved, I wrought the spell That Merlin muttered low in Broceliaunde, Till over Santa Cruz the day star…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 417

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

… river ran Between me and the poppy-pranky Isle, with tangled roots embanked, Where seven sister poplars stood Like the seven sisters of god. Soft as silence in mine ear, The drone and rustle of the weir Told in bass the treble tale Of the embowered nightingale. Higher, on the patient river, Velvet lights without a quiver Echoed through their hushed rimes The garden's glow beneath the limes. Then the sombre village, crowned By the castellated ground, Where in cerements of sable, One square tower and one great gable Stood, the melancholy wraith …

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Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…aved in the same sense as Christians had been, yet they were not damned. The millennium seems to have been thought of as a fulfilment of god's promise to Abraham; but apparently it had nothing to do with "eternal life". However, even this modified beatitude as not open to Gentiles who had rejected Christ. The child was consequently very much relieved by the reappearance of some of the inmates of the house whom he could not imagine as having been lost eternally. The lot of the saved, even on earth, was painted in the brightest colours. It was he…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 319

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…ancholy host of bones; Fate's principalities and Death's dominions ....Echo the drear discord, the tuneless tones. ........Keep us, dear God, from ill, ........What time the Hell-Wind whistles shrill. The King-Ghost hath no music but their rattling; ....No scent but death's grown faint and fugitive; No fight but this their leprous pallor battling ....Weakly with night. Lord, shall these dry bones live? ........O keep us in the hour ........Wherein the King-Ghost hath his power! The King-Ghost girds me with his gibbering creatures, ....My dreams…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 445

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

… to adore more intelligently than the mob because it represents the descent of the Holy Spirit into the midst of that tremendous name of God which only occurs in {704} their ritual because of its power to annihilate the universe if pronounced correctly1. The intelligence of the average mason may be gauged by the following quotation from the R.A.M. degree. The twentieth century! --- and such stuff is solemnly offered as instruction to grown men! Some have doubted whether the Ark was capable of containing two of every sort of creature, with provi…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 31

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

… was published in "The" "Christian;" it began: I am a blind man on a helmless ship Without a compass on a stormy sea. I cannot sink, for God will hold me up, etc. Again, I wrote a poem on the death of my Aunt Ada, which I thought good enough to include in my Songs of the Spirit, and is entirely irreproachable on the score of piety. It seems as if I possessed a theology of my own which was, to all intents and purposes, Christianity. My satanism did not interfere with it at all; I was trying to take the view that the Christianity of hypocrisy and…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 100

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…s turned up with an illustrated manual of obstetrics. He could no longer doubt the facts. But his reaction was this: "Did the Omnipotent God whom he had been taught to worship devise so revolting and degrading a method of perpetuating the species? Then this God must be a devil, delighting in loathsomeness." To him the existence of God was disproved from that moment. He had, however, already some experience of an unseen world. As a little boy, having overheard some gossip among superstitious servants, he had gone into the back garden and invoked…

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Confessions of Aleister Crowley

… I wrote a double Hokku on the Hokku itself. Here it is: THE HOKKU Catch me, caress me, Crush me! Gather a dewdrop --- Star to a system! God in an atom! Comets revel around it --- That is a Hokku. {766} I became a frequent contributor to Vanity Fair. I can never be sufficiently grateful to Frank Crowinshield for his kindness and patience. My association with him is the one uniformly pleasant experience of dealing with editors that I can quote. He always took pains to make the most of his material. If a contribution did not suit him, he did not …

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Confessions of Aleister Crowley

… ends equally in death. Help is sought from behind the veil where, as has been supposed, is a shrine upon whose altar dwells the unknown god. But the veil is rent, all is empty, and the chief officer declares, "Alas, there is no god!" An invocation is made that god may appear and the veil is rent from within. A figure is standing on the altar and he recites the paraphrase of one of Bradlaugh's sermons made by James Thomson in The City of Dreadful Night, "O melancholy brothers, dark, dark, dark." This superb dirge ends: But if you would not this…

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…mpression on a Mohammedan. The anthropomorphic and antropotheistic ideas connected with the Incarnation shock people whose conception of God, irrational though it be, is at least sublime. "God hath neither equal, son, nor companion. Nothing shall stand before His face." The ethical implications of the Atonement are equally repulsive to the Moslem. As Ibsen said, "Your God is an old man whom you cheat." Mohammedanism {296} teaches a man to respect himself; his relation with his supposed creator is direct; he cannot escape the penalty of his sins…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 346

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…nk that rather significant. Once more, I made a translation of the Fatihah, the most sacred chapter of the Koran, I replaced the name of God by that of Mary, and once again found favour with the Vatican. I quote a few isolated stanzas: The red sun scorches up our veins; The white moon makes us mad; Pitiless stars insult our pains With clamour glad. At the foot of the Cross is the Mother of God, And Her tears are like rain to enliven the sod, While the Blood of the Lord from his Body that runs Is the heat of the summer, the fire of its suns. See…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 448

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…e of the alchemists for insisting that the Great Work, an ostensibly chemical process, can only be performed by adepts who fear and love God, and who practise chastity and numerous other virtues. But there is more common sense in such statements than meets the eye. A drunken debauchee cannot perform delicate manipulations in chemistry or physics; and the force with which the secret is concerned, while as material as the Becquerel emanations, is subtler than any yet known. To play great golf or great billiards, to observe delicate reactions, or …

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1929 · PDF PAGE 36

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…conscious artistic self of him was therefore bitterly antagonistic to Christianity. Not only is Satan the hero, but the triumphant hero. God's threats have not "come off". It is the forces of evil, so called, that manifest in strength and beauty of form. The glories of the saints are tinsel. It is impossible to draw goodness with character. On the Christian theory, goodness is, in fact, nothing but absence of character, for it implies complete submission to God. Satan's original fault is not pride; that is secondary. It springs from the conscio…

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Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…Maria de Miramar and Crowley Sketch by Crowley of a devouring demon 768-769 Crowley as a human being, 1934 Crowley as Fo-hi, the Chinese god of joy and laughter Crowley´s hands locked in yogic mudra Sketch by Crowley In Jermyn Street, Piccadilly, c. 1943 At Netherwood, Hastings The Beast 666: self-portrait (c) O.T.O.

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1929 · PDF PAGE 107

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…of the Paths in the Portal of the Vault of the Adepts, a 5° = 6ř of the Order of the Golden Dawn; and an humble servant of the Christ of God; do this day spiritually bind myself anew: By the Sword of Vengeance: By the Powers of the elements: By the Cross of Suffering: That I will devote myself to the Great Work: the obtaining of Communion with my own Higher and Divine Genius (called the Guardian Angel) by means of the prescribed course; and that I will use my Power so obtained unto the Redemption of the Universe. So help me the Lord of the Univ…

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