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1910 · PDF PAGE 171

The Winged Beetle

…on’s begun ! With four and five and six it stirs : With seven the druid dance is done, And Death drives home his silver spurs ! Then—the last leap. What crowning curse Can bid that cup of curses brim ? How may God’s maniac ministers Lash the last langour out of Him ? I did it. How ? So great and grim The Gods are, I may never guess. Suffice it, on his mouth I swim A drowning dastard. The caress

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1910 · PDF PAGE 81

The Winged Beetle

TELEPATHY 71 That’s the last folly, to forget, To cling to her, to trust her ! She’s but one star—supremely set, I grant !—but in a cluster ! Yea ; we may tire ; the sea holds yet More fish than ever came to net !

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1910 · PDF PAGE 51

The Winged Beetle

THE GARDEN OF JANUS 41 And that which inward did for ever tend Came at the last to have come out ; And I who had the World and God to friend Found all three foes ! Drowned in that sea of changes, vacancies, and woes ! XXI Yet all that Sea was swallowed up therein ; So they were not, and it was not. As who should sweat his soul out through the skin And find (sad fool !) he had begot All that without him that he had left in And in himself All he had taken out thereof, a mocking elf ! XXII But now that all was gone, great Pan appeared. Him then I …

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1910 · PDF PAGE 150

The Winged Beetle

…t bear its cross ! I say that infinite loss is infinite loss, That tears are trivial, tears are happiness, That this blind ache is God’s last punishment For love ; that all things in that one thing shent Are damned, that had I loved her less I could have prated in some honeyed strain. Taking a subtle pleasure in my pain. It is my bulk, the mass of my intent, That makes the ruin abject. I had sung Some partial earthquake ; here the universe Crashes with one great curse, Whelming the singer and the song. My tongue Is palsied ; only this chaotic c…

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1910 · PDF PAGE 94

The Winged Beetle

… My boy’s lust—all the mighty building’s glamour Dislimns—the shrine’s a stye. Who dares to blight My dreams I damn. You would not throw—last night— Your carrion lump of lechery to my clamour, Cheap, common as it is, a crawling cheese . . . So, for those verses, be content with these !

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1910 · PDF PAGE 124

The Winged Beetle

…weet seer ! And you the hare I started. Shall I escape a tear, And you go broken-hearted ? VII Kiss me ! no one sees. There—good-bye the last time ! Now, please ! Luck’s ease is threes. What a kiss ! what a squeeze ! Dot the i’s ! cross the t’s ! Half a day’s a vast time ! Tragedies, Comedies, Pantomime and pastime !

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1910 · PDF PAGE 73

The Winged Beetle

AFTER JUDGMENT 63 Farewell ! O God, in endless bliss Crowned, with Thine angels singing by : I go to hell, with her last kiss Yet tingling in my memory. Nay, start not from Thy throne ! I go At Thy black damning to the deep. Thou canst not follow me ! I know This thing I had, and this I keep. God ! I have loved. I love ! I love, And shall love through Thine ageless hell. Thou hast the kingdom of the Above, And I, her memory. Fare Thee well ! To Thine I Am—supreme exclaim, The total of all that may be said !— I answer from the abyss of flame : D…

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1910 · PDF PAGE 226

The Winged Beetle

…h, “ Which is the sweetest ? ” O my soul ! Thus didst thou answer the Accurst : “ In her, since all’s divine control, There cannot be or last or first. “ Since all transports me, how shall I Aught of one thing affirm aright ? She dazzles like the morning sky And soothes my spirit like the night. “ Too exquisite the music is That all her lovely shape affords For impotent analysis To mark how every bar accords.

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1910 · PDF PAGE 32

The Winged Beetle

22 THE HERMIT AN ATTACK ON BARBERCRAFT AT LAST an end of all I hoped and feared ! Muttered the hermit through his elfin beard. Then what art thou ? the evil whisper whirred. I doubt me sorely if the hermit heard. To all God’s questions never a word he said, But simply shook his venerable head. God sent all plagues ; he laughed and heeded not, Till people took him for an idiot. God sent all joys ; he only laughed amain, Till people certified him as insane. But somehow all his fellow-lunatics Began to imitate his silly tricks. And stranger still,…

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1910 · PDF PAGE 83

The Winged Beetle

…hat delights in the beauty of form ! O desire of the dream of the dews ! O Valkyrie astride of the storm ! I am thine as we ride on the blast To exult in the mystical Muse, As there drip on the desert at last The immaculate Delian dews. I am thine, I am thine, I am thine— How it slashes the skies as a sword !

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1910 · PDF PAGE 89

The Winged Beetle

…of my melancholy Lackeyed by spectres of my sombre past, I sit and smile at all the shapes of folly That I evoke—save One, that looms at last Towering above these ten tremendous years. I see Him, sacred, single in the vast, A Man of Sorrows, grey with useless tears ; A Man of Glory, with His aureole Radiant gossamer, a mist of spears Storming the sky, His heart one crimson coal To burn all lesser gods, to gild the shame Of this my life’s long infamy, the soul (Abased for Him) in Him one flower of flame— Mine Aceldama one white lily-bloom Availi…

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1910 · PDF PAGE 95

The Winged Beetle

…die for love ; we linger in the lusty fight ; We agonize ; our clutch becomes more cruel and more murderous ; My passion splashes out at last ; ah ! with what ecstasy I bite The red lips of the Octopus ! Amsterdam, Xmas 1897.

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1910 · PDF PAGE 159

The Winged Beetle

…e the celestial team ; and Man was the Lord of the Fire. Deep-mouthed from their thrones deep-seated, the choirs of the æons declare The last of the demons defeated, for Man is the Lord of the Air. Arise, O Man, in thy strength ! the kingdom is thine to inherit, Till the high gods witness at length that Man is the Lord of his spirit.

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1910 · PDF PAGE 56

The Winged Beetle

… So there she used to lie. May be Correggio’s Antiope Best paints you how she lay. And I Loved her, and passed the matter by ; Ending at last, one may dare say, In thinking that those eyes of grey Meant naught, suspected naught, were blind, Expressed the vacancy behind. So life went on. One winter day So silent and so still she lay That I took cold, regarding her. I rose, I wrapped myself in fur ; Then came to her, my thought untold Being that she, too, might be cold. I laid my hand upon her breast. Cold ! Icy cold ! Ah you have guessed. Right.…

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1910 · PDF PAGE 107

The Winged Beetle

…heel ; the bird Followed me home—it sounds absurd ! [My fault ! for getting the grand slam on Chateau Yquem and cold boiled salmon !] At last in anger, not for fun, I lifted my reluctant gun, Gave him both barrels, plain and choke, And blew him into bits. I woke. . . . . . . —How dreams reflect the facts of life ! I was in bed with my own wife.

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1910 · PDF PAGE 123

The Winged Beetle

…ning kiss With only God to view it. IV Hush ! Across the stair. How its creak is thunder ! Now care ! now dare ! be ware ! Or—saved ! at last I’m there, Drowned in your torrent hair, A flame, a waif, a wonder. A lioness in her lair Your body leaps from under. V Take the prize on trust ! Dare the course and run it !— Sweet knight, you win the just,— Your thrust ! a gust of lust !— Ah, God, then, if you must— Wordless still, we’ve won it ! Tall Troy is in the dust ! We’ve done it, done it, done it ! VI Do you love me, dear ? Said the glance you d…

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1910 · PDF PAGE 177

The Winged Beetle

…ep Rolls up the bay to envelope the steep. What then is left, what is left—but to weep ? Maybe the stridency purpled of Pan Leads at the last to the light of His plan. Maybe his work is the wealth of a man ! VIII Bring me the tablets, the stylus of jade ! Lend me thy light, O compassionate maid ! Soul of the master, O come to mine aid ! Make me the man of the marvellous mission ! Sharpen the sword of veridical vision Cut me the knot of the mighty magician ! Here I devote me (record me the vow) Unto the terrible task of the Tao. Soul of the mast…

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1910 · PDF PAGE 80

The Winged Beetle

70 TELEPATHY To some black cavern of the vast On some demonic pinion. And here we lie—discrowned at last— A monarch grown a minion. Yea ; we are come from the bright God To some most desolate abode. Or is it crowned, thrice crowned, we are ? Crowned with long thorns sharp-gleaming, So that bright blood jets out afar From starry brains a-streaming ? Yea ! in our night there shines a star Beyond our dearest dreaming. Yea ; there is born a fearful light Proceeding from the Infinite. However that may be, ’tis clear What duty bids endeavour : To fin…

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1910 · PDF PAGE 36

The Winged Beetle

…on the gale, Till its blade that wavereth Like the flickering of Death Sank before his subtle fence To the starless sea of sense. Now at last the man is come Haply to his halidom. Surely as he waves his rod In a circle on the sod Springs the emerald chaste and clean From the duller paler green.

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1910 · PDF PAGE 153

The Winged Beetle

…riad children to your will. We will damn the coward’s creed, And the eunuch’s squeaking still, Till the world is yours indeed ! Yea ! at last the spell shall break Wherewith Christ and Cromwell bound us

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