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1905 · PDF PAGE 230

Collected Works (Vol. I)

…nt and be holy! There, secret! Know it! Now forget! Now I have told thee that I love thee! To me our Star in Heaven burning Tells me thy heart as mine is yearning; Tells me Love’s fragrance stolen above thee Thy soul to mine at last is turning Now I have told thee that I love thee! PREFACE. As, after long observation and careful study, the biologist sees that what at first seemed isolated and arbitrary acts are really part of a series of regular changes, and presently has the life-history of the being that he is examining clear from Alpha to Om…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 442

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…ould be presented in not more than a dozen ceremonies, and that it should be brought well within the capacity of any officer to learn by heart his part during the leisure time at his disposal, in a month at most. The eighteenth-century Rosicrucians, so-called in Austria, had already endeavoured to unite various branches of Continental freemasonry and its superstructures; in the nineteenth century, principally owing to the energy {700} and ability of a wealthy iron master named Karl Kellner, a reconstruction and consolidation of traditional trut…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 502

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…van of fascinations. Innumerable elephants groaning under the treasury of virtues, while in her own slim-fingered hands, she brought her heart. Before her coming the concubines covered their faces and fled. We found almost at once a splendid studio on the south side of Washington Square, a long and lofty room with three wide windows, looking out across the tree tops to the opening of Fifth Avenue. From this point of vantage the ensuing months appeared tolerable. I was occupied in defeating the dishonest intrigues of the people in Detroit who ha…

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1906 · PDF PAGE 204

Collected Works (Vol. II)

…se, terrible. His delirium does not amuse; it appals! A man whocould conceive as he did must himself have had some glorious chord in his heart vibrating to the eternal principle of Boundless Love, That this love was wrecked is for me, in some sort a relative of his, a real and bitter sorrow. He might have been so great! He missed Heaven! ‘Think kindly of him! 169. Correctly rhymes.41—Such lines, how- ever noble in sentiment, as: ‘‘A bas les Anglais! The Irish up!” will not be admitted to the competition, Irish is accented on the penultimate—bad…

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1906 · PDF PAGE 263

Collected Works (Vol. II)

… Speaking only the Truth in all things, never speaking * harshly or un- kindly, in his speech realising the love and pity that is in his heart—that man _ has attained to Stage the Third. And because of the great power of a man’s thoughts and words to change his being, because by thinking of the pitiful our acts grow full of mercy, therefore is Stage the Fourth called Right Conduct. To him who has gained this Fourth Stage, his intense as- piration, his right understanding, his care- fully guarded speech—perhaps for many years of self-control— ha…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 90

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…who failed to recognize the black, billious rage that shook him to the soul. I instance this as a proof that Yeats was a genuine poet at heart, for a mere charlatan would have known that he had no cause to fear an authentic poet. What hurt him was the knowledge of his own incomparable inferiority.

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1906 · PDF PAGE 60

Collected Works (Vol. II)

… armies of life’s universal war chasing the pious pilgrim. First, his sight grew adamant, sun-bright, so that he saw aright. Second, his heart was noble, that he would live ever unto good. Third, in his speech stood tokens of this will, so pitiful and pure he spake, nor. ever from him brake woe-winged words, nor slaver of the snake. Fourth, in each noble act of life he taught crystalline vigour of thought, so in each deed he was aright ; well- wrought all the man’s work; and fifth, this hero strife grew one with his whole life, so harmonised to…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 185

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…ly in the process of falling. It would have overwhelmed the photographer under Alpine conditions. I must admit to a certain heaviness of heart in obeying my instructions and sending back the men. It was so obviously right to take them up the slopes to the shoulder and establish the camp at a point whence Chogo Ri could have been reached without question, given one fine day. But my orders were formal and I never thought of disobedience. Of course, if I had foreseen the volte-face of the weather, I might have decided otherwise. I was a little wor…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 356

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

… our benefit, and this is what we did. We {575} began thus; I told Neuburg with the utmost delicacy that Dorothy had been wounded to the heart by his gross manner of wooing, not only because of her almost morbid modesty, but because she had fallen in love with him at first sight. I urged him to make amends by paying respectful court to her, which he proceeded to do, she playing up to it with sublime fantasy, but pretending the greatest reluctance to admit that she was in love with him. Little by little she yielded and they became engaged. (She …

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1907 · PDF PAGE 24

Collected Works (Vol. III)

…lot Del Berashith, xaXos kitab! I trust you take me, do you not? But change of thought—ay ! there's the barb To stick and quiver in your heart ! Well, little lady, what of art? IV, All things are branded change, My thought Long ran in one delicious groove. Now newly sits the appointed court To try another case, to prove Another crime. Last week the law Dealt with the garter's gross offence, You were the Judge, enthroned on awe: I wove that eloquent defence, Unwove that Rhadamanthine frown Which I had made myéeelf, my star; For I was counsel for…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 339

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…whose most easterly point is in the longitude of Oxford. He was homesick for the dull uniformity of family life. That is, I believe, the heart of England's horror. Frank Harris has described English vices as "Adultery with home comforts". The average Englishman likes to drink tea in a pair of previously warmed soft slippers, with a smiling piece of meat presiding over the soggy toast, and unintelligent brats playing halma in the background. "The East" only means to him sunstroke, fever and other diseases, each more dreadful than the rest; peopl…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 73

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

… kind of unmentionable vice. Asses! It is, indeed, technically, an obscene book and yet the fact that I wrote it proves the purity of my heart and the mind in the most extraordinary fashion. The facts are as follows: In the course of my reading I had come across von Krafft-Ebing's Psychopathia Sexualis. The professor tries to prove that sexual aberrations are the result of disease. I did not agree. I thought that I was able to understand the psychology involved; I thought that the acts were merely magical affirmations of perfectly intelligible …

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1929 · PDF PAGE 24

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…on as I heard of chemistry, I realized that it dealt with reality as I understood the word. So I soon had "Little Roscoe" practically by heart, though it was not a school subject. I furnished a laboratory in the house at Streatham, and spent all my time and money in making experiments. It may be interesting to mention how my mind worked. I had heard of the petard as a military engine; and I was hoist with it. Roscoe told me that chloride of nitrogen was the most powerful and sensitive explosive known. My idea was to dissolve it in some volatile…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 323

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…r through a moment's carelessness. It is unpardonably foolhardy to take a chance in matters of such serious import. I took the vision to heart as a lesson. I next day's entry makes this clear. Yesterday's vision a real illumination, since it showed me an obvious mistake which I had utterly failed to see. The word in my Kamma work (in Burma) was Augoeides, (a subsequent entry implies that the word was "given" me directly from the unseen world) and the method Invoking Often. Therefore a self-glittering One, whether my conscience approves on not, …

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1929 · PDF PAGE 425

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…e, first and never equalled, had understood and demonstrated the art of dancing as a complete language of the affections of the mind and heart. Knott and Nina, as already recorded, had contracted a liaison. I met Knott for the second time when I was introduced to Fenella Lovell and wrote "The Ghouls", as previously related. I saw a fair amount of him in the next few weeks; so that, running across him in London on October 11th, he took me after supper to the Savoy to meet Miss King1. A boisterous party was in progress. The dancer's lifelong frie…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 473

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

473 to be a gentleman's. He is homosexual at heart --- though I believe not so in practice --- and conscious of this inferiority, which makes him {747} timid. This is accentuated by a nervous temperament. He has a remarkable gift for epigrammatic phrases, a strong sense of rhythm and a great critical ability, which is masked by his opportunism. His Confessions of a Barbarian is probably the cleverest book ever written by an American about Europe. Some of his poems are so simple and direct that, if they miss sublimity, which may or may not be th…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 328

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…t midnight in its moral sense of Light-in-Darkness; if a pelican, to the legend that she pierces her own breast to feed her young on her heart's bleed; if a goat, to the entire symbolism of Capricornus, the god Pan, Satan or Jesus (Jesus being born at the winter solstice, when the sun enters Capricorn); if a pearl, to the correspondences of that stone as a precious and glittering secretion of the oyster, by which I mean that invertebrate animal life of man, the Nephesch. It must not be supposed that I am obscure on purpose. I have thought in th…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 20

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…our. When I called him "Uncle", he would {55} snigger, "Oh my prophetic soul, my uncle!" But the time came when I knew most of Hamlet by heart, and when he next shot off his "joke", I continued the quotation, replying sternly, "Ay, that incestuous, that adulterate beast!" --- I am, in a way, glad to think that at the end of his long and obscene life I was reconciled with him. The very last letter he ever received from me admitted (if a little grudgingly) that his mind was so distorted that he had really no idea how vile a thing he was. I think …

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1929 · PDF PAGE 160

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

… to the beast to find him lashing about in a couple of feet of water and bleeding profusely. I had almost certainly shot him through the heart. Unfortunately, this is of very little use with these reptiles. We got up as close as the natives could be persuaded to go. There certainly was some risk if we had gone quite close in, but we ought to have ventured near enough to drive a boat- hook into the mud between him and the deep water. But they could not be persuaded to do this and there was no time for argument. Maiden sat up in the middle of the…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 402

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…at the beliefs and prejudices of men meant nothing to me, that my eyes were fixed on the enternal, my mind conscious only of God, and my heart wholly filled with the love of the Light. However, he feared. He had forgotten the first words of his initiation, "Fear is failure and the forerunner of failure." Therefore he failed. The only allegation against him was that he was my friend and colleague and he read into this the suggestion that our relations were criminal. The defendants denied that they had ever meant to make any such suggestion. The …

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