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1929 · PDF PAGE 210

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

… of hieroglyphics. {353} The most prominent member of the Chat Blanc symposia, after these, was Paul Bartlett. I found him brilliant and good natured; and his caustic speech gave a spice to his geniality. I thought very highly of his work; but he might have gone much further had it not been for the social and artistic success which acts as a soporific on all artists whose vigilance is unequal to the strain. It is hard indeed for the strongest of us to be ungracious to our admirers. Neglect and poverty, moreover, injure a man's art if they conti…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 260

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…uropeans is the herald of disaster to any independent country. Where the white man sets his foot, the grass of freedom and the flower of good faith are trampled into the mire of vice and commercialism. But in the present instance our route touched only this one tiny outlying hamlet of Tseram and permission had been obtained without difficulty for us to pass. At the same time, the dewan was going to have a man on the spot to see that we did not maltreat and corrupt the natives as we have done in every other part of the globe in which our impulse…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 10

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…ed five hours. The incident made a curious impression on him. He did not see why he should be disturbed so uselessly. He couldn't do any good; the child was dead; it was none of his business. This attitude continued through his life. He has never attended any funeral3 But that of his father, which he did not mind doing, as he felt himself to be the real centre of interest. But when others have died, though in two cases at least his heart was torn as if by a wild beast, and his life actually blighted for months and years by the catastrophe, he h…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 106

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

… matter which affected the sight without informing it. By the exercise of dour determination, I succeeded in getting everything ready in good time to begin the work proper at Easter. It is unfortunate that in these days I had no idea of the value of a Magical Record from the historical standpoint. I find few dates, nor have I troubled to set down even such startling occurrences as are related above. I was dead set on attainment. Anything which appeared to me out of the direct road to the goal was merely a nuisance, a hindrance and a distraction…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 264

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

… degrees and the surface becomes wet. It then freezes again and forms a hard crust. Approaching a slope of this kind, it seems perfectly good névé. One strikes it with one's axe and the entire structure disintegrates. In front one one is a hole as big as a cottage and as the solid slope disappears, one hears the tinkle of falling ice. It is a most astonishing and disconcerting phenomenon. During the while time that I was on the mountain, I experienced no high wind and no unpleasant cold. But the heat of the day was certainly very severe. My ski…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 366

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…ts its transparent falsity by violating its own laws at every turn. Materialists claim that the senses are the sole source of knowledge. Good! Then the most absurd and impossible idea of a madman or a metaphysician must be derived from sensory impressions no less than a brick. We habitually use our mental faculties to criticize and correct our sensory impressions. At what point, then, does our judgment cease to be reliable! Which is more real; the brick, the facts indirectly learnt from the brick, such as its chemical and electrical properties,…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 48

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…tatements, ascended the mountain by the ordinary way and came down by the route in question. The rocks do overhang, but the holds are so good that the climb is quite easy. We discussed the climb with a son of the celebrated Dr. John Hopkinson, Edward, who was there with a large family. We said, quite truthfully, that there was no difficulty or danger for a responsible party; but he and three of his children attempted to repeat our climb and all were killed. A peculiarly English incident adds a touch of grotesque grimness to the story. The widow…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 359

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…eat. The courtyard was running wild with poultry, and I told the woman to slay a couple of birds and roast them. It must have taken me a good quarter of an hour to get it into her head that this was a serious order, and by the time the meal was served the entire village had collected to see the eccentric millionaires who spent one and fourpence on food at a stroke. Logrono will always live in my memory. The situation of the town is very impressive, with its large lazy river, almost dry at that season of the year, affording a measure of the land…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 557

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…e remark lightly. I could not seriously believe that he had been really in torture. It is a fixed idea in my mind that any Englishman of good blood enjoys an adventure, the rougher the better. But the spirit was not in him. Of course, I know that his father's psychology amply accounts for this abject attitude. In him the exhaustion of the stock had reached its climax. I learned later that he had already attempted suicide. He had tried to shoot himself in the heart with a revolver. One would imagine that it would have been safe to bet on his doi…

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1907 · PDF PAGE 247

Collected Works (Vol. III)

… ii, 18 God, I have rowed! iii. 28 God of the golden face and fiery forehead, ii. 22 Gone to his Goddess! the poor worm’s asleep, 1, 239 Good bends and breathes into the rosy shell, lll, 120 Go to the woodlands, English maid, i. 7 Great Liberator, come again, ii. 3 Green and gold the meadows lie, i. 24 HA! HA! Inthe storm I ride, ii. 136 Hail, child of Semelé! iii. 205 Hail! Hail! Hail! ii. 130 Hail, O Dionysus! Hail! iii. 203 Hail, sweet my sister! hail, adulterous spouse, ili, 86 Hail to Thee, Lady bright, i. 243 Hail, Tyche! From the Amalthe…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 567

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…ichards, firstly with a plan for marketing the existing stock, and secondly with a proposal to write my memoirs. He promised to put in a good word for me as he knew Grant Richards well and was influential as being a man of sound business and literary judgment. I therefore called {895} and made my proposals. But after some consideration, Grant Richards could not see his way to accept my terms. I think we were both reluctant to part; and one night I was inspired to try him with a third artificial minnow. I would write a shocker on the subject whi…

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1906 · PDF PAGE 211

Collected Works (Vol. II)

…rn in the lowest Avitchi! Fast! Walk! Wake! these are the keys of the King- dom! Peace be with thy Beard! Aum!” This sort of talk did me good: I hope it may do as much for you. 63. With eyes wellfixed on my proboscis, 5— See Bhagavad-Gita, Atmasamyamyog. 67. Brahma-charya.'*—Right conduct, and in particular, chastity in the highest sense. 72. Baccy.“—A poisonous plant used by nicotomaniacs in their orgies and debauches. ‘“The filthy tobacco habit,” says ‘‘ Elijah the Restorer” of Zion, late of Sydney and Chicago. That colossal genius-donkey, Sh…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 354

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…ad ever been known. No author of even mediocre repute had ever risked his reputation by such flagrant stupra. Maugham took my riposte in good part. We met by chance a few weeks later, and he merely remarked that there were many thefts besides those which I had pointed out. I told him that Harris had cut down my article by two thirds for lack of space. "I almost wish", I said, "that you were an important writer." I had begun, I do not in the least remember how, to try my hand at short stories. Even today having written more than seventy such, I …

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1929 · PDF PAGE 170

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…no aspiration and no interest --- nothing but a gnawing desire to be done with the day's dreary dragging. In addition to this there is a good deal of actual discomfort. The glare of the sun in very distressing and either it, or its reflection from the hot arid rocks, is scorching. At the same time it often happens that a bitterly biting wind is blowing. It seems to eat into one's very bones with harsh cold. One does not know what to do about clothes. On one side one is roasted; one the other frozen. It is easy to understand how the heart leaps …

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1929 · PDF PAGE 561

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…an hour. One of his myrmidons after another stood at my side to be scrutinized for comparative height and width. One man thought my nose good enough to arrest me; another urged that my mouth cleared me of the crime. But the chief of police was tenacious. He had in his mind his step and the Legion of Honour and the "Daily Mail's" twenty-five thosand francs. Almost in despair I pulled out Guillamod's account of the 1902 expedition and showed him my photograph with my name printed under it. "Do you really wish", I said, "to maintain that I am a de…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 61

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…ibe. But though my view was thus entirely superficial, it was none the less in a certain sense profound and accurate. One can get a very good idea of a country by traveling through it in the train. The outward and visible signs do, after all, reveal, especially to the poet, its inward and spiritual graces. The people who lead one astray are the analysts who fail to come out the other side. Mr. Jorrocks and Mr. Pickwick give a better idea of England than Charles Reade or Sir Walter Besant. Dumas pčre tells us more about France than Zola. A great…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 250

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…ey had never satisfied me; the form was theoretically impossible. On the other hand, the lyrics and some of the dramatic dialogue are as good as anything in my work. I felt that one part of my life was drawing to a close. I made a clean sweep of my literary dustbin. I had its contents carted away and dumped on the public. I felt myself to be on the brink of a new birth and in Gargoyles will be found the first fruits of that new life. But at this particular time I was much too happy to create. Creation is the effect of physiological dissatisfact…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 309

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…utenant who was supposed to have crossed form Canada and from whom they wanted information about some local foolishness. I took a pretty good look at Niagara. It is absurd to shriek at the desecration cause by building a few houses in the vicinity. It seemed to me that they helped rather than hindered one's appreciation. They supplied a standard of {502} comparison. All that has been said of the falls is, as the sayers admit, ridiculously below the reality. In their way they challenge comparison with the mountains of Asia themselves. They have …

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1929 · PDF PAGE 304

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

304 the Yangtze; for one thing, the delays at Bhamo and Tengyueh had robbed me of time. I was anxious to get to Europe in good time to prepare a new expedition to Kangchenjunga for 1907. I had the mountain, so to speak, in my pocket. A part of average strength could make as certain of strolling to the top as if it were the Strand. I decided, therefore, to turn south and make for Tonkin. On March 2nd, after breakfast and tiffin with the consul general, who was unfortunately short of stores and could only spare us a couple of tins of butter, we s…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 552

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

552 with a will and made good. As against all this, he was surly, mulish and bitterly rebellious. He raved against the injustice of being punished for breaking the regulations of the navy. I vainly showed him that when he signed on as he did of his own free will, he pledged himself to conform with the regulations and that in breaking them he blasphemed himself. Reckless in his ardour for knowledge, he injected himself with forty grains of cocaine. He had never tried it before. All he knew was that half a grain had been known to cause death. The…

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