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Page 121 of 1301906 · PDF PAGE 282
… Indeed we are. Glory, real or false, is desirable. ing ‘‘real or false,” by virtue of our previous agreement that the Subjective is the Know- able, and that deeper inquiry is foredoomed futile. Scept. Unless, admitting Physiology,! such glory is phantom, poisonous, and your Dhyana a debauch. A7yst, You will at least admit, as a basis for the consideration of this and other points that Dhyana is more vivid than any of the normal dualistic states. Scept. I must. I have myself experienced, as I believe, this.or a similar condition, and I find it …
1919 · PDF PAGE 143
…as happened during those three days, it seems useless to try and do so, in fact it seems useless to make this entry at all except that J know not what is before me, and I feel that had I (or if I) lived longer upon this planet it would have been my life work, indeed it must have been, to help others to the Path. Therefore to those who follow after are these lines written in the hope that they may be saved one drop of the anguish I now suffer. Whatever may have happened in this last three days, the results of my thoughts amount to this. I who ha…
1906 · PDF PAGE 236
…t Bo-Tree. He'll tell me what it all means.’ Poor silly old Lord of the Universe! Had he carried his-memory back one more step he’d have known all about Jehjaour and the con- spiracy, and that he was a Srotapatti and had only one more birth; and might well have put in the 311,040,000,000,000 myriads of aeons which would elapse before lunch in rejoicing over his imminent annihilation. ‘““¢Venerable Sir!’ said Mahabrahma, who had assumed the guise of a cowherd, ‘I kiss your worshipful Trilbies :! I prostrate myself before your estimable respectab…
1944 · PDF PAGE 15
…this series of manipulations. This theory is plainly contrary, not only to common sense, but to the facts of history, and to all that we know about the formation of language. Nevertheless, the evidence is equally strong that there is something, not a little of something but a great deal of something, a something which excludes all reasonable theories of coincidence, in the correspondence between words and numbers. It is an undeniable fact that any given number is not merely one more than the previ‐ ous number and one less than the subsequent nu…
1929 · PDF PAGE 220
…own our embarrassment. But it was a frightfully long drive to the wayside station and a frightfully long wait when we got there. I don't know whether it was part of the arrangement or not that we should take tickets to the end of the line, some place on the west coast of Scotland, the name of which I have entirely forgotten. But we did. We sat opposite to each other in an empty first-class carriage. I only remember on scrap of conversation, and I do not remember what it was except that it was a sort of little joke. We were enjoying a species of…
1929 · PDF PAGE 286
…rnfully, "Next time you get cholera, I hope they'll give you quinine." The joke came three days later, when he died of cholera. I do not know whether they gave him quinine or not. Bhamo is a delightful outpost. One is outside the malarial stewing of the jungle. But I got to hate it, as I wanted to proceed to China, and was held up for seventeen days by the non-arrival of my passport. The delay was partly deliberate. The deputy commissioner was absent; and his assistant was an Eurasian, who took the greatest delight in annoying the white man. I …
1904 · PDF PAGE 94
…hiefly his study was to reduce unto eight things his many. And thus , O Brethren of our Venerable Order, he at last succeeded. Those who know not will learn little herein: y et that they m ay be shamed all shall be put forth at this tim e clearly before them all, with no obscurity nor obfuscation in the exposition thereof. Writing this, saith our Father to m e, the Humblest and oldest of all his disciples, write as the story of m y Quintessential Quest, m y Spagy ric Wandering, my Philosophical Going. Write plainly unto the Brethren, quoth he, …
1944 · PDF PAGE 18
…n to the Order on 18th November, 1898; for, three months later, he had attained the grade of Prac‐ ticus; as such, he became entitled to know the Secret Attribution. He constantly studied this and the accompanying explanatory manuscripts. He checked up on all these attributes of the numbers to the forms of nature, and found nothing incongruous. But when (8th April, 1904 e.v.) he was writing down the Book of the Law from the dictation of the messenger of the Se‐ cret Chiefs, he seems to have put a mental question, suggested by the words in Chapt…
1929 · PDF PAGE 513
…er which has been of cardinal importance in my interior life, and to which constant reference is made in my magical diaries. So far as I know, there is no extant description of this vision anywhere, and I was surprised on looking through my records to find that I had given no clear account of it myself. The vision developed gradually. It was repeated on so many occasions that I am unable to say at what period it may be called complete. I was on a retirement in a cottage overlooking Lake Pasquaney in New Hampshire. I lost consciousness of everyt…
1929 · PDF PAGE 53
53 opportunity of preparing the set classics. But I followed Browning's advice to "greet the Unseen with a cheer": my real knowledge of Greek and Latin enabled me to give renderings, far above the average, of unfamiliar passages. I could never adapt myself to the sheep-system of mnemonic "learning". In October I entered the university, taking rooms at 16 St. John's Street. From that moment begins an entirely new chapter in my life. {106} 12 When I went up to Cambridge in the October term of 1895, I had the sensation of drawing a long deep breat…
1929 · PDF PAGE 111
…scribe. These questions, etc. pass, after pledge of secrecy concerning interview. A. Are you convinced of the truth of the doctrines and knowledge received in the grade of 5° = 6ř? Yes or No? If yes (1) Then their origin can spring from a pure source only? If no (2) I degrade you to be a Lord of the Paths in the Portal in the Vault of the Adepts. B. If he reply "yes", the masked man continues: Are you satisfied with the logic of this statement? Do you solemnly promise to cease these unseemly disputes as to the headship of this Order! I for my p…
1904 · PDF PAGE 82
…Bo-Tree. He’ll tell m e what it all means.’ Poor silly old Lord of the Universe ! Had he carried his memory back one more step he’d have known all about Jehjaour and the con- spiracy, and that he was a Srotapatti and had only one more birth; and might well have put in the 311,040,000,000,000 myriads of æons which would elapse before lunch in rejoicing over his imminent annihilation. “ ‘Venerable Sir!’ said Mahabrahma, who had assumed the guise of a cowherd, ‘I kiss y our worshipful Trilbies :1 I prostrate myself before y our em inent respectabi…
1906 · PDF PAGE 281
…go is rejected. Scept. Before inquiring further of you: What is this Dhyana? let me say, in view of what you have just urged: How do you know that the Ego is rejected? Myst. Peccavi. My leanings are Bud- dhistic, I will confess: indeed, the great majority of Eastern philosophers, arguing 2 priort from the indestructibility of the Ego— a dogma, say I, and no more !—have asserted that in the Dhyanic state the Object is lost in the Ego rather than vce versd, and they support this conclusion by the fact of the glorification of the object. Scept. Bu…
1906 · PDF PAGE 17
…ensanguine with unfed desires, A very beast of prey; hot hands caress, And violent breath that surfeits not excess. But raise no head! I know thee, breast and thigh, Lips, hair, and eyes, and mouth: I will not die But thou come with me o’er the gate of death. So, blood and body furious with breath That pants through foaming kisses, let us stay Gripped hard together to kiss life away, Mouths drowned in murder, never satiate, Kissing away the hard decrees of Fate, Kissing insatiable in.mad desire, Kisses whose agony may never tire, Kissing the ga…
1929 · PDF PAGE 15
… splendid knife, 2 blades, a saw, a screwdriver, a thing to pull out thorns, another to get stones out of horse's shoes, another I don't know what for, a leather piercer, a gimlet & a corkscrew and name plate. It is nicol plated in some parts, but the handle is ivory. The asphalt2 gave way near the middle. We were nearly blown hup bu the hoiler3 a little while ago, no jokes. We had a ý holiday given us on Friday. Please send me a little money for fireworks. Send up my bankbook by the 1st please. I am awfully well, thank you! I have joined a sor…
1906 · PDF PAGE 235
… There was a grave difficulty in his mind—an obstacle right away from the word ‘Jump!’ Of course there was really a yood deal: he didn’t know where the four clements ceased, for example :* but his own identity was the real worry. The other questions he could have stilled; but this was too near his pet Chakra.4 ‘Here I am,’ he meditated, ‘above all change; and yet an hour ago I was Indra; and before that his flute-girl; and then a Nat; and then a parrot; and then a Hathi—‘‘ Oh, the Hathis pilin’ teak in the sludgy, squdgy creek!” sang Parameshva…
1906 · PDF PAGE 237
…in them is no inward Principle, as some pretend, that can avoid, that can hold itself aloof from, the forces of decay.” ‘*And how do you know that, little Brother ?”’ smiled the Thrice- Honoured One. ‘‘Lord, I perceive this Truth whenever 1 Thirst: z.e. desire in its evil sense. 2 Ignorance. 3 Doubt. + ‘* Bliss-of-non-existence.'’ One of Crowley's eastern names. I consider the Universe. More, its con- sclousness seems ingrained in my very nature, perhaps through my having known this for many incarnations. I have never thought otherwise.” ‘““ Ri…
1929 · PDF PAGE 585
…ss lies heavy on my heart, yet the word which I uttered at my first initiation, "Perdurabo", still echoes in eternity. What may befall I know not, and I have almost ceased to care. It is enough that I should press towards the mark of my high calling, secure in the magical virtue of my oath, "I shall endure unto the End." -oOo- WEH note: Crowley's writing ends here, but the following later writing by Jane Wolfe is of interest in that it relates to the events of this final chapter: "A villifying report of what took place at the time of the death …
1906 · PDF PAGE 234
…s, reserves all ground within 50 feet of a dagoba. The incident described in this section actually occurred in 1901. 2 Siam. | example—— know a thing or two about Indra, for ‘Tt was done. Beautiful was the young- girl’s face’.as :she Sprang mature. from the womb of. Matter,:.on- her’ ie-goamey of: an hundred: thousand. years... Of.’‘ali. ‘Indra’s ’ flute-girls:she played and-sang’ the:sweetest, . Yet ever some remembrance, dim:as a-pallid - ghost. that fleets down the’ tong’ avenues! Of - ‘deodar and moonlight; stole in: her: brains and her son…
1929 · PDF PAGE 108
…he Great God, not to work ill unto my neighbour: to communicate it to no living person, unless by long practice and conversation I shall know him thoroughly, well examining whether such an one really intendeth to work for the Good or for the Evil. I will punctually observe, in granting it, the same fashion which was used by Abra-Melin to Abraham. Otherwise, let him who receiveth it draw no fruit therefrom. I will keep myself as from a Scorpion from selling this Science. Let this Science remain in me and in my generation as long as it shall plea…