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Page 144 of 1971912 · PDF PAGE 111
… these people really feel when you condemn them I Dr. F. And h0pe is the best medicine; at least it helps the man to live out the little life that remains to him. An artist might finish his creation. Dr. B. Oh, artists ! Another set of liars! Dr. P. A doctor will go on with his work better if his brain is not clouded with his own mortal fear. Dr. B. Rot ! if he’s finished, he'd better finish. And besides, despair can often do more than hope. Put the 69
1913 · PDF PAGE 159
…hereof shineth even unto the earth, and bringeth hope and help to them that dwell in the darkness of thought, and drink of the poison of life. Fifty are the gates of under- standing, and one hundred and six are the seasons thereof. And the name of every season is death. During all this speech, the figure of the angel has dwindled and flickered, and now it is gone out. And I come back in the body, rushing like a flame in a great wind. And the shew-stone has become warm, and in it is its own light. Bou-saada, December 3, 1909. 9.50-11.15 pr. Comm…
1913 · PDF PAGE 159
…hereof shineth even unto the earth, and bringeth hope and help to them that dwell in the darkness of thought, and drink of the poison of life. Fifty are the gates of under- standing, and one hundred and six are the seasons thereof. And the name of every season is death. During all this speech, the figure of the angel has dwindled and flickered, and now it is gone out. And I come back in the body, rushing like a flame in a great wind. And the shew-stone has become warm, and in it is its own light. Bou-saada, December 3, 1909. 9.50-11.15 pr. Comm…
1922 · PDF PAGE 38
…oneself, and that each one is entirely separate and can never enter into the recesses of another, which are his foundation of individual life.” One feels oneself out of all relation with things, even the most essential. And yet one is aware at the same time that everything of which one has ever been aware _is a picture invented by one’s own mind. The Universe is the looking-glass of the soul. In that state one understands all sorts of non- sense. “© Thou foursquare Crown of Nothing, that _ Circlest the destruction of Worlds! I adore Thee, ' Evo…
1929 · PDF PAGE 72
…n and only regret that I was not in command of the the 1922 Everest expedition, because that expedition failed and cost heavily in human life. I am convinced that if I had been there the summit would have been reached and that no one would have been killed. In the expedition of K 2, neither man nor beast was injured, and in that to Kangchenjunga, the catastrophe was the direct result of mutinous disobedience to my orders. I do not lay claim to personal credit for this record, save in so far as I was on the way to an apprehension of the proper p…
1929 · PDF PAGE 33
…al strangers, from whom I was carefully protected, had been the skies, the streams, the mountains and the seas. For the first time in my life I was brought into contact with my fellow men and women. For the first time honest friendship, wholesome love, frank, gay and courageous, became possible and actual. I had loved nature as a refuge from mankind. I now perceived the beauty of the world in conjunction with the beauty of my species. For the first time {75} the sea sparkled, the breezes whispered other songs than those in praise of solitude, t…
1929 · PDF PAGE 59
…ed innocence and spiritual sensuality. I bring ye wine from above. ...From the vats of the storied sun. For every one of ye love, ...And life for every one. The air of London is damp and depressing. It suggests the consciousness of sin. Whether one has a suite in the Savoy or in an attic in Hoxton, the same spiritual atmosphere weighs upon the soul. To a poet, moreover, the artistic side of London is the abomination of desolation. The plays are commercialized either for sentimentality or pornography. There is something uncomfortable in going to…
1929 · PDF PAGE 532
… diary. I felt like a soldier wounded to death, scrawling in his own blood the horrifyingly disastrous information which he has lost his life in seeking. 5:00 p.m. The meditation of this afternoon resulted in an initiation so stupendous that I dare not hint at its Word. It is the supreme secret of a Magus, and its is so awful that I tremble even now --- two hours later and more --- 2:20 p.m. was the time --- as I write concerning it. In a single instant I had the Key to the whole of the Chinese wisdom. In the light --- momentary glimpse as it w…
1904 · PDF PAGE 21
…ill make it worth your while, added the wily ecclesiastic. You shall take down in that clever shorthand of yours the true story of my life. Mr N.ch.ls will buy the book and cheat you out of the money ; so theres fame and fortune at a stroke. Put away John Thomas now ; permit me, pray ! Yes, a fine long battering-piece, with a nice hard [19]
1906 · PDF PAGE 63
…is the strength of rest ; Not on thunders or clouds She rideth But draweth me down to Her breast : No maker of men, but dissolving Their life from its burden of ills, Ever resolving the circle revolving To peace of the hills. And dark is Her breast and unlighted ; But a warm sweet scent is expressed, And a rose as of sunset excited In the strength of Her sunless breast. Her love is like pain, but enchanted : Her kiss is an opiate breath Amorously panted : Her fervours last granted Are sorrow, and death. Nor death as ye name in derision The chan…
1907 · PDF PAGE 118
…rink her blood. God! could I love a woman more By Arno’s flower-enamelled shore, or Father Tiber‘s tawny flood? And reeking with her lusty life I back the gilded mask and burn With joy and hate. Aha! to turn to my own guts the glutted knife! 0 Satan! stand morose and cold above our bodies swimming thus And plunge thy glory into us, and fan our death with plumes of gold! Write with our blood before thee spilt on catafalque and catacomb The dire monition of our doom, the story of the Mask of Gilt! The paradox is right, by Heaven! exclaimed the big …
1907 · PDF PAGE 11
…- star , to flash forth into the west , winged and wonderful . A Pharos of gleaming hope lighting our way across the boisterous ocean of life to our haven of eternal rest . The fools and the faulty , the wise and the wizened read and tremble before the might of its majesty , for into its flaming horrent hath it woven and braided the ashen locks of wisdom , the dyed curls of folly , and all the glittering circlets of golden youth . All is transcended , all is unified and transcendental ; neither is there joy nor laughter , sorrow nor weeping , f…
1907 · PDF PAGE 93
…ol , tossing a coin with Fate ,” says he ; and again , “ I love you , and shall love you till I die .” “ I love you , and shall love you life .” “ I love you and shall love you after death .” This is the Higher Love ; and so ends one of the greatest poems of true and pure love ever written , musical as the breath of stormy Aeolus . Fas cinated we read its verses again and again , dazzled with their mystic beauty , their harmony , and , above all , their intense human love . As the Editor says , those who fail to find religion in such poems must…
1907 · PDF PAGE 261
…wan - Yin , the Sakti of Amitâbha , the boundless light of the later Mahayana Buddhists . Again we find it in the conception of Prana or life spirit of ancient India ; the Atharva -veda says : “ Rever ence to Prana , to whom the universe is subject , who has been lord of all , on whom all is supported .” Prana is the Purusha or aum , the totality of Brahman , Vishnu , and Siva , of Past , Present , and Future . The Wisdom of the Book of Proverbs , and the later Book of Wisdom ; it is also the same power as the Eden illa - ah of the Zohar , the …
1910 · PDF PAGE 284
…hat filled the universe, and rent my brain also, which blotted out in one instant all sense, thought, and being. In an instant I felt my life extinguisned, but knew that it was by annihilation, not by death. When I awoke out of the hasheesh state I was as over- whelmed to find myself still in existence as a dead man of the last century could be were he now suddenly restored to earth. For a while, even in perfect consciousness, I believed I was still dreaming, and to this dayI have so little lost the memory of that one demoniac toll, that while …
1910 · PDF PAGE 284
…hat filled the universe, and rent my brain also, which blotted out in one instant all sense, thought, and being. In an instant I felt my life extinguisned, but knew that it was by annihilation, not by death. When I awoke out of the hasheesh state I was as over- whelmed to find myself still in existence as a dead man of the last century could be were he now suddenly restored to earth. For a while, even in perfect consciousness, I believed I was still dreaming, and to this dayI have so little lost the memory of that one demoniac toll, that while …
1910 · PDF PAGE 32
…I must first premise that by paederasty I mean actual sodomy as de- fined by British law1 — immissio penis in corpus vivum. “ Arse makes life golden, want of it dull yellow ; The rest is only leather and prunella.” At least, the rest is but preliminaires. An acute observer of my acquaintance remarked to me re- cently that it was the actual mess caused by emis- sion, and the necessity of cleaning it up, that, by allowing time for passion to cool, prevented a great deal of copulation which would otherwise take place. There is a great gulf fixed b…
1911 · PDF PAGE 22
…loss and comment thereupon; for the light itself is but illusion. Truth itself is but illusion. Yea, these be the great illusions beyond life and space and time. Let thy lips blister with my words! Are they not meteors in thy brain? Back, back from the face of the accursed one, who am I; back into the night of my father, into the silence; for all that ye deem right is left, forward is backward, upward is downward. I am the great god adored of the holy ones. Yet am I the accursed one, child of the elements and not their father. O my mother! wilt…
1911 · PDF PAGE 48
…ous food and divine madness. Come unto me, O ye children of men; come unto me, in whom I am, in whom ye are, were ye only alive with the life that abideth in Light.” All this time I have been fading away. I sink. The veil of night comes down a dull blue-gray with one pentagram in the midst of it, watery and dull. And I am to abide there for a while before I come back to the earth. (But shut me the window up, hide me from the sun. Oh, shut the window! *) Now, the pentagram is faded; black crosses fill the Aethyr gradually growing and interlacing…
1913 · PDF PAGE 560
…ungry men which sharpen their hunger without ever satisfying it. Thence are born irritations and troubles, discouragements and despairs.—Life is always a lie to us, say the disciples of 262