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1922 · PDF PAGE 131

Diary of a Drug Fiend

…of every Englishman to learn as much of foreign affairs as he can without inter- fering with his business. That sort of knowledge will always come in useful in case of another European War. It was knowing that sort of thing that had put Feccles where he was in the Secret Service, the trusted confident of those mysterious intelligences that watch over the welfare of our beloved country. Thank you, that will conclude the evening’s entertain- ment. I will say this for Feccles. He always understood instinctively when he wasn’t wanted. So immedi- at…

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1954 · PDF PAGE 49

Magick Without Tears

… even includes certain portions of the su bconscious. 4. In initiation from the grade of Neophyte to that of Zelator, one passes by this way. The main work is to obtain admission to, and control of, the astral plane. Your expressions about "purifying the feelings" and so on are rather vague to enter into a scientific system like ours. The result which you doubtless refer to is attained automatically in the course of your experiments. You very soon discover the sort of state of mind which is favourable or unfavourable to the work, and you also d…

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1907 · PDF PAGE 70

Konx Om Pax

…pecially as interpreted by followers absolutely wallowing in Ruach. Bowley. Shall we leave it at that? That Bones finds objective truth a Way up the Tree, and a Fruit in the topmost bough? Bones. I am more positive than that. Bowley. Less Zoroaster and more Pyrrho, please Lord, for Brother Bones! else you will fall into the way of Paul, and perish in the gain saying of Mohammed. Bones. You are obstinate about the necessity of scorning the objective results of illumination. But let us consider the perfect man. Bowley. Ob, brother, this is fulsome…

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1954 · PDF PAGE 19

Magick Without Tears

…urned all his Qabalistic and philosophical skill in later years toward finding this number in any meaningful word or motto that came his way. Still later, after he had received Liber Legis and was forced, as it were, to obey its precepts, then it was that he began to sign all communications with that significant number. Several of the letters describe a method for studying the Qabalah which deserves more than casual notice. I am calling attention to it specifically for fear that otherwise this approach may be overlooked in the mass of new ideas…

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1954 · PDF PAGE 193

Magick Without Tears

…apricornus; but in that case Saturn would have been afflicted by being in Cancer, with bad aspects from Venus and the Moon, thus taking away aU his rugged, male, laborious qualities, and in the Ascendant might have been Jupiter, suggesting many of the qualities of Pisces: and so forth. Now let me start! You want me to explain the system-or no-system-which I use. I do not "move in a mysterious way My wonders to perform"; for nothing could be simpler. For its origin I have to thank Abramelin the Mage, who empties the vials of his scorn upon the a…

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1922 · PDF PAGE 132

Diary of a Drug Fiend

…he inferior animals. I humour them to some extent in their delusions, because they’re lunatics and ought to be humoured. But it’s a long way between that and admitting that their hallucinations have any basis in fact. I had been in their silly world of sense a million years or so ago, when I was Peter Pendragon. But why recall the painful past? Of course, one doesn’t come to one’s full strength in a minute. Take the case of an eagle. What is it as long as it’s in the egg? Nothing but an egg with possibilities. And the first day it’s hatched you…

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1922 · PDF PAGE 266

Diary of a Drug Fiend

…r, too, had a similar idea. But King Lamus is the first to endeavour to make a practical effort to embody this conception in a practical way. I seem to have wandered a long way from our fare- well dinner party; but my mind is still unable to -concentrate as it should. Heroin and cocaine enable one to attain a high degree of concentration artificially, and this has to be paid for by a long period of reaction in which one cannot fix one’s mind on a subject at all. I am very much better than I was, but I get impatient at times. It is so tedious to…

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1922 · PDF PAGE 343

Diary of a Drug Fiend

…29 try to conceal the amount you were taking from the very person with whom you were taking it openly. Another point is that privation always upsets the mental balance. A man who lacks food or money finds very queer thoughts come into his mind, and does things, not necessarily connected with his necessity, obsessing though that be, which are entirely out of keeping with his character.” I took a pencil, and wrote at once against the cross in column two “In order to make the most of Sister Athena’s illuminating discourse.” She laughed merrily. “Y…

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1922 · PDF PAGE 190

Diary of a Drug Fiend

…ht some trunks from the Savoy. No, I don’t, it would have been a lot of trouble, and interfered with our heroin honeymoon. It’s best the way it is. I wish I had Jacqueline here all the same. I need a maid, and she could have gone out and got things. But we both felt that any one at all would be a pill. The old woman doesn’t bother us, thank goodness. I’m sure she still thinks we're spies. Bother, what’s this? ... Damn! It’s a letter from Basil! (Note. The original of this letter was destroyed. It is now printed from the carbon copy in the files…

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1954 · PDF PAGE 490

Magick Without Tears

…g beyond her personal comfort and pleasure. When the communications ceased, she dropped the whole affair without a thought. She nearly always referred to the authors of these messages as "They"; when asked who "They" were, she would say haltingly and stupidly "the gods," or some equally unhelpful term. But she was always absolutely clear and precise as to the instructions . The New Aeon was to supersede the old; my special job was to preserve the Sacred Tradition, so that a new Renaissance might in due season rekindle the hidden Light, I was ac…

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1901 · PDF PAGE 14

The Mother’s Tragedy

…the King of Kings! To me a sinner, me, Lowest of all that be, Be merciful, O Master Soul of things! Show me thy face of ruth, And in thy way of truth, Guide my weak youth, That stumbles while it walks, makes discord when it sings! So, Mighty Mother! Pure, Eternal Spouse, Isis, thou Star, thou Moon, thou Mightiest, Lead my weak steps to thine Eternal House! Rest my vain head on thine Eternal Breast! Spread wide the wings divine Over this shadowy shrine, Where in my heart their hovering lendeth Light! Bend down the amazing Face Of sorrow and of g…

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1907 · PDF PAGE 13

Rosa Coeli

… not one, not one for ever more again. VIII EEING your naked body in the bed Against the jetty silk, I thought you lay Just as the Milky Way Lies in the unkenned hollows of the sky. One swarthy ray of red Leapt from your hither eye, And straight my dream began To map that heaven—your eye, Aldeboran ! I launched the magic boat, and early found The Pirate’s cave and the Enchaunted Ground ; The cedared Lebanon, The Wizard’s Grot, the well of spice, The Hanging Gardens of great Babylon :— All these then did I visit in a trice, And even did confirm …

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1922 · PDF PAGE 378

Diary of a Drug Fiend

…We had the same trouble with teaching Hermes and Dionysus to swim. They found themselves in danger of being drowned and thought the best way was to avoid going near the water. But that didn’t help them to use their natural faculties to the best advantage, so I made them face the sea again and again, until they decided that the best way to avoid drowning was to learn how to deal with oceans in every detail. It sounds pretty obvious when you put it like that, yet while every one agrees with me about the swimming, I am howled down on all sides whe…

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1954 · PDF PAGE 14

Magick Without Tears

PREFACE Xlll have been rearranged in such a way as to give the reader a more steady and gradual introduction to some highly complex and controversial issues. After due reflection however, I have decided to leave them in their present order, and allow the reader to work out his own approach to their contents. It is suggested that the reader first browse through the book as a whole in order to become familiar with the general nature of the material presented. Do remember that there is a table of contents and an index. Later, the reader could take…

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1954 · PDF PAGE 262

Magick Without Tears

…through the pursuit of one line of analysis, this structure is all that we can call our consciousness. Everything of which we can in any way be aware may be interpreted as being some function of this structure. Note! Function. For now we see why Tao may also be translated "The Way"; for it is the motion of the structure that we observe. There is no Being apart from Going. You are familiar with the Four Powers of the Sphinx, attributed by the Adepts of old time to their Four Elements. Air is to Know, Scire; Fire is to Will, Velie; Water is to Da…

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1910 · PDF PAGE 231

The Winged Beetle

…spread, that treads a measure Of love-in-idleness and peace-with-pleasure ! On shining shoulder and soft rounded throat Thy poised head sways—strange grace of melilote With a triumphant air and mild Thou passest on thy way, majestic child ! I will recount to thee, enchantress smooth, The varied beauties that adorn thy youth, And paint for thee thy loveliness Where infancy and womanhood caress. Thy bosom juts its jubilance of jet Triumphant, like a noble cabinet Whose clear and polished panels fling Back like bright shields the lightnings of the…

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1922 · PDF PAGE 80

Diary of a Drug Fiend

…to suggest that you and Lady Pen- dragon take supper with us at the Petit Savoyard ?”’ Haidée slipped her arm into mine, and Lou led the way with Feccles. “We were going there ourselves,” she told him, “and it will be perfectly delightful to be with friends. I see you're quite an old friend of my husband's.” He began to tell her of the old school. As if by accident, he gave an account of the circumstances which had led to his leaving. ““ My old man was in the city, you know,” I heard him say, ‘‘ and he dropped his pile ‘somewhere in Lom- bard S…

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1903 · PDF PAGE 88

Alice: An Adultery

THE TWENTY-NINTH DAY “ Persevere in that clear way thou goest, And the gods strengthen thee.” Pericles. Linked in the tiny shelf upon the ship, My blind eyes burned into her mild ones : limbs Twined to each other while fine dew bedims Their quivering skins : lip fastened unto lip : Whole soul and body frenzied meet and clip ; And the breath staggers, and the life-blood swims ! Terrible gods chant black demoniac hymns As the frail cords of honour strain and slip. For in the midst of that tremendous tide The mighty vigour of a god was mine ! Drun…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 245

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…he feat that I was at pains to go round and look at the place again from below. My judgment had not deceived me --- there was no sort of way up --- yet the torn moss and a few fresh broken bits of rotten rock proved his passage. To this day I regard the facts as the least credible of any that have ever come my way. When Rose and I first arrived at Boleskine, we had made a sort of sporadic effort to carry out some of the injunction of Aiwass. We had arranged before leaving Egypt for the "abstruction" of the Stele of Revealing. I did not understa…

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1922 · PDF PAGE 107

Diary of a Drug Fiend

The Ghiter on the Snow 93 the most beautiful woman in the world for my wife, and that could only be done in the regular way by showing her off in the best dresses and the most wonder- ful jewellery. It was my duty to her as my wife, and I could afford it perfectly well because I was a tolerably rich man to start with anyhow, and besides, the five thousand I was putting into Feccles’ business would mean something like a quarter of a million at least, on the most conservative calculations, as I had seen with my own eyes. And that was all clear pr…

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