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1906 · PDF PAGE 16

Gargoyles

…! Renounce the dream! Seek not some mystery in the kiss, Some virtue in the chrysopras, Some nymph or undine in the stream. Things as we know them should be enough To glut our misery and our love. VIII. Why must despair to madness drive The myriad fools that fear to die? God’s but a fervid phantom drawn Out of the hasty-ordered hive Of thoughts that battle agony In the melancholy hours of dawn. When vital force at lowest ebbs Anaemic nerves weave frailest webs.

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1906 · PDF PAGE 82

Gargoyles

… That youth—scarce thirty—bowed like sixty?” ** Oh, A woman jilted him.” ‘‘ Absurd!” ‘* Conceit! Some youths take life—are Puritans, you know!” I heard it, sitting in the window—glowed, Rushed to my wife and kissed her. Lithe and young The rapture of some ardent madness flowed ; And—by-and-by—its miracle found tongue. Guess, guess the secret why I burn for you These years so cold to woman as I was! Guess why your laugh, your kiss, your touch run through My body, as it were a tunéd glass! 74

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1912 · PDF PAGE 108

The Equinox (Volume I, Number VII)

…Bob? Mrs. B. Nothing serious; he has had a bit ofa cough this month back. Dr. F. Heaven help him if he has to make his own diagnosis—you know we call him Doctor Doom’em ! Mrs. B. It’s just that I want to talk to you about. Dr. F. You don't mean to say you mind ? Mrs. B. Mind ! It's driving me mad. Dr. F. But he’s the greatest consultant we have ; nobody ever comes to him while there's a chance anywhere else. Mrs. Β. Yes; but whatever other drugr he gives them, he never gives them hope. Dr. F. But they come for his opinion. Mrs. B. And don’t wan…

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1912 · PDF PAGE 108

The Equinox (Volume I, Number VIII)

…Bob? Mrs. B. Nothing serious; he has had a bit ofa cough this month back. Dr. F. Heaven help him if he has to make his own diagnosis—you know we call him Doctor Doom’em ! Mrs. B. It’s just that I want to talk to you about. Dr. F. You don't mean to say you mind ? Mrs. B. Mind ! It's driving me mad. Dr. F. But he’s the greatest consultant we have ; nobody ever comes to him while there's a chance anywhere else. Mrs. Β. Yes; but whatever other drugr he gives them, he never gives them hope. Dr. F. But they come for his opinion. Mrs. B. And don’t wan…

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1922 · PDF PAGE 90

Diary of a Drug Fiend

…rolled out of bed and crawled across to the H. and took one little sniff, and sat on the floor till it worked. It’s great stuff when you know the ropes. It picked me up ina minute. So I had a bath, and got these things on. I’m still a bit all in, You know we did overdo it, didn’t we, Cockie ? ”’ “You bet,” I said feebly. “I’m glad I’ve got a nurse.” “ Right-o,” she said, with a queer grin. “ It’s time for your majesty’s medicine.” She went over to the bureau, and brought me a dose of heroin. The effect was surprising! I had felt as if I couldn’…

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1912 · PDF PAGE 51

Sir Palamedes

…ard,” quoth he, “ And by thy venerable age I charge thee this my riddle ree.” Then said that gentle eremite: “This task is easy unto me! Know then the Questing Beast aright! One is the Beast, the Questing one: And one with one is two, Sir Knight! Yet these are one in two, and none Disjoins their substance (mark me well !), Confounds their persons. Rightly run Their attributes: immeasurable, Incomprehensibundable, Unspeakable, inaudible, 45

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1910 · PDF PAGE 191

The Winged Beetle

…assure you that I share your sentiments. I have heard very ill things said of him, I can tell you. MRS. OSSORY. Who is he ? Does any one know ? A man of family, I hope. How dreadful for poor Henry if he had been run over by a plebeian ! OSSORY. Well, we hardly know—I wonder if his credit is good. [His voice sinks to a whisper as the awful suspicion that he may be financially unsound strikes him.] CARR. [sharply, as if pained]. Oh, oh ! Don’t suggest such a thing without the very best reason. It would be too terrible ! [This time EUPHEMIA laughs…

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1910 · PDF PAGE 208

The Winged Beetle

198 MR TODD supplies no hint of the answer to mine. For I—it seems I hardly know what question to ask ! Oh, Charley boy, the future is with you, and with your children—or, can humanity ever solve the great secret ? Is progress a delusion ? Are men mad ? Is the great secret truly transcendental ? We are like madmen, beating out our poor brains upon the walls of the Universe. Is there no Power that might reveal itself ? [Kneels.] Who art Thou before whom all things are equal, being as dust ? Who givest his fame to the poet, his bankruptcy to the …

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1907 · PDF PAGE 294

The Star in the West

… cycles — of Renaissance , Decadence , and Slime . In the first the Adepts rise as artists , philo 1 Eleusis , vol . iii, p . 221 . “ TO KNOW , TO DARE , TO WILL , TO KEEP SILENT , are the four words of the magus , inscribed upon the four symbolic forms of the Sphinx . “ To command the elements , we must have overcome their hurricanes , their lightnings , their abysses , their tempests . “ In order to DARE we must KNOW ; in order to WILL we must DARE ; we must WILL to possess empire , and to reign we must BE SILENT .” — E. LÉVI , The Ritual of …

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1909 · PDF PAGE 11

John St. John

…n as a tree must shoot downwards its roots into the Earth in order that it may flower, and bring forth fruit in its season. So also now I know that even in my months of absorption in worldly pleasure and business, I am not really there, but stand behind, preparing the Event. Imagine me, therefore, if you will, in Paris on the last day of September. How surprised was I—though, had I thought, I should have remembered that it was so—to find all my necessary magical apparatus to my hand! Months before, for quite other reasons, I had moved most of my…

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1922 · PDF PAGE 219

Diary of a Drug Fiend

…ie Jacobs had a flat in Park Mansions. I knew she would stand for anything, and keep her mouth shut. She was in, thank goodness. I don’t know what tale I told her. I don’t know why I was stupid enough to trouble my head to invent one. She's a real good sport, Maisie, and doesn’t care what you do as long as you don’t interfere with her. She had some white silk, and we sewed up the H. in little packets, and stitched them in the flounces of my dress. I kept about half, and put it in an old envelope she had. That was to make my peace with Peter. Bu…

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1910 · PDF PAGE 340

The Equinox (Volume I, Number III)

… which came from the woman’s heart, turned to the other two, and said: “Tam her heart . . . her beautiful, beautiful heart. “What do you know of the deeds of the Queen who were never in her council chamber? “When you were bold, I was perhaps afraid, and when you exulted, there was I know not what trouble of sadness throbbing within me. All that you were I sustained: all your pleasure stirred through me, and you but harvested that which I sowed. “When you were all aflame, it was I who lit you, and you could not even be sad without me. “Not less …

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1910 · PDF PAGE 340

The Equinox (Volume I, Number IV)

… which came from the woman’s heart, turned to the other two, and said: “Tam her heart . . . her beautiful, beautiful heart. “What do you know of the deeds of the Queen who were never in her council chamber? “When you were bold, I was perhaps afraid, and when you exulted, there was I know not what trouble of sadness throbbing within me. All that you were I sustained: all your pleasure stirred through me, and you but harvested that which I sowed. “When you were all aflame, it was I who lit you, and you could not even be sad without me. “Not less …

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1922 · PDF PAGE 325

Diary of a Drug Fiend

…the country was enchanting. Dionysus was all on fire to get us up to the Abbey, and tugged at our arms. | ““ Now Di,” said Hermes, “ you know it’s wrong to pull at people like that. It’s one of the rules,” he explained to Lou, “ not to interfere with people. Big Lion says that every one would get on all right if only he were left alone.” He seemed to think the statement required explana- tion. ‘“‘ Cypris is reading Gibbon to us this week ; and she shows us how all the trouble came from people meddling with other people’s business.” I shouted wi…

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1944 · PDF PAGE 250

The Book of Thoth

GENERAL CHARACTERS OF THE TRUMPS AS THEY APPEAR IN USE KNOW NAUGHT! ALL WAYS ARE LAWFUL TO INNOCENCE. PURE FOLLY IS THE KEY TO INITIATION. SILENCE BREAKS INTO RAPTURE. BE NEITHER MAN NOR WOMAN, BUT BOTH IN ONE. BE SILENT, BABE IN THE EGG OF BLUE, THAT THOU MAYEST GROW TO BEAR THE LANCE AND GRAAL! WANDER ALONE, AND SING! IN THE KING’S PALACE HIS DAUGHTER AWAITS THEE. In spiritual matters, the Fool means idea, thought, spirituality, that which endeavours to transcend earth. In material matters, it may, if badly dignified, mean folly, eccentricity…

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1910 · PDF PAGE 99

The World’s Tragedy

…ld shall bleed In the vilest vice of vices. 2ND NYMPH While the riddle thou hast ree’d Mocks them with its “ Blood suffices ”. ALEXANDER Know ye, bright ones, who I am ? I have slain a thing adored At this altar to its Lord, As a butcher kills a lamb. IST NYMPH That shall be — thou rightly fearest — Till the Balance weigh the Ram. 2ND NYMPH Men shall even slay their dearest For the sake of that slain lamb.

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1930 · PDF PAGE 16

The Banned Lecture

one thing of which I feel certain is that 800 children is a lot. I don’t know over how many years these practices were supposed to have spread. As I think you must all feel sure by now, I know nothing what- ever of my subject. But scientific experiment in those days was always a very prolonged operation. They thought nothing of exposing some unknown substance to the rays of the sun and moon for periods of three months at a time, in the hope that in some mysterious way the first stage of some dimly-visaged operation might be satisfactorily accom…

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1904 · PDF PAGE 12

The Sword of Song

…e me) “in that vicious style The very faith whose truths you seem (Elsewhere)35 to hold, to hymn supreme In your own soul ?” Perhaps you know How mystic doctrines melt the snow Of any faith: redeem it to A fountain of reviving dew. So I with Christ: but few receive The Qabalistic Balm,36 believe Nothing—and choose to know instead. But, to that terror vague and dread, External worship; all my life— War to the knife ! War to the knife ! No ! on the other hand the Buddha Says: “I’m surprised at you ! How could a Person accept my law and still Use …

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1907 · PDF PAGE 178

The Star in the West

…aking these ten com mandments , ” he says , referring to the Decalogue . Further back in his “ Proverbs of Hell ,” he writes : You never know what is enough unless you know what is more than enough . The pride of the peacock is the glory of God . The lust of the goat is the bounty of God . The wrath of the lion is the wisdom of God . The nakedness of woman is the work of God . For everything that lives is Holy . 9 In Samuel Butler's “ Erewhon we find much the same idea in the following couplet . He who sins aught sins more than he ought , But h…

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1912 · PDF PAGE 176

The Equinox (Volume I, Number VII)

…t so when I were young, lad. The world gets worse as we get older, Jack. JACK. Nonsense, Father, they won't attack us. Don’t the village know how I half—choked the life [HE mahesa murderous gesture, so violent that the OLD MAN shrinks] out of Bagstock, that was torturing the stray dog? MARTIN. Ay, lad, and well it served the brute. I'm off now, Jack, you’re a strong lad and a brave, but these nasty robbers have weapons, we must be careful, main careful JACK. Only one night-cap, Father! MARTIN. Ay, lad—I’m thinkingadrop 'ud do ye good now, Jack.…

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