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1919 · PDF PAGE 126

The Equinox (Volume III, Number I)

…will vibrate to its peculiar tone, struck on another cord. Read, therefore, not only with the eye and brain, but with the rhythm of that Life which you have attained by your Will to Love quickened to dancing measure by these words, which are the movements of the wand of my Will to Love, and so to enkindle your Life to Light. [In this mood did I interrupt myself in the writing of this my little book, and for two days and nights sleeplessly have I made consideration, wrestling vehemently with my spirit, lest by haste or carelessness I might fail …

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1898 · PDF PAGE 17

Aceldama

XI. As life burns strong, the spirit’s flames grows dull ; The ruddy-cheeked sea-breezes shame its spark ; Wan rainy winds of autumn on the dark Leafless and purple moors, that rage and lull With a damned soul’s despair, these leave their mark, Their brand of fire That burns the dross, that wings the heart to its desire. XII. No prostitution may be shunned by him Who would achieve this Heaven. No satyr-song, No maniac dance shall ply so fast the thong Of lust’s imagining perversely dim That no man’s spirit may keep pace, so strong Its pang must…

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1898 · PDF PAGE 37

Songs of the Spirit

…light dances, A spectre-flame, through midnight’s infamy. My blood grows chill and stagnant with my shame. O Love, to speak thy name ! O Life ! O Heaven ! O dreams long dead ! Ye Spirits Rising unbidden from Hope’s cobwebbed door, Ye quick desires that every soul inherits, Leave me to weep, and torture me no more ! My face grows grey with sheer despair ; I shrink From dreams ; I dare not think. I had a poet’s dreams. My soul was yearning To grasp the firmament and hold it fast, 27

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1901 · PDF PAGE 66

The Soul of Osiris

54 THE SOUL OF OSIRIS. “ THE TWO WISDOMS.” OPHIE ! I loved her, tenderly at worst. Yet in my passion’s highest ecstasy, When life lost pleasure in desire to die And never taste again the deadly thirst For those caresses ; even then a curst Sick pang shot through me : looking afar on high, Beyond, I see £¿Æ¹± in the sky. The pretty bubble of Love’s pipe is burst ! Yea ! through the portals of the dusky dawn I see the nameless Rose of Heaven unfold ! Yea ! through rent passion and desire withdrawn Burns in the East the far ephemeral gold. O Wisdo…

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1904 · PDF PAGE 37

Why Jesus Wept

WHY JESUS WEPT 23 Ye hopes of delusion ! Mage, I will trounce thee ! Sage, to confusion ! Problems to solve ? Here is my life ! My secret is told — What is your name, O fairest of women ? Bosom of gold ! Faultless your fame ! An aeon were shame Your beauty to hymn in ! Will you be mine, Mine and mine only ? Beauty divine, How I was lonely ! How I was mad ! Say, are you glad, Glad of me, happy here, Here in my arms ? I kiss you, I kiss you ! Say, is it bliss, you Spirit of holiness ? Holy I hold you ! Swift as a rapier Stabbed me your charms, Br…

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1905 · PDF PAGE 24

Orpheus

…head of the poet, and, seeing Not love, was the lyre of his love; When laurels I bore to the harper, When bays for the lyrist I bore, My life was diviner and sharper, My name in the Muses was more; When virgin I came to him stainless, When love was a pleasure and painless! What Destiny dreams and discovers The fragrance men know for a lover’s? Peace turned into laughter and tears, Borne down the cold stream of the years! Ant. a ORPHEUS O mother, O queen many-minded, More beauty than beauty may be, 2)

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1906 · PDF PAGE 97

Gargoyles

AVE MORS. O V1RGIN! O my sister! Hear me, death! The tainted kisses of the harlot life Sicken me; hers is foul and fevered breath, This noisome woman I have made my wife. She lies asweat, aslime. O hear me, thon ! Wash with thy tears this desecrated brow ! With cool chaste kisses cleanse me! Lay me out, Wrapped in a spotless winding-sheet, and soothe These nerves ill nuzzled by the black swine’s snout With thine eternal anodyne of truth! The foul beast grunts and snorts; but hear me, death! Thy wings are wind-white as her hoofs are dunged. Thy …

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1910 · PDF PAGE 447

The Equinox (Volume I, Number III)

…es of the earth, Its towers and temples derelict, The ready ruin of its mirth, The flowers, the fruits, the leaves that fall, The joy of life, its growing girth— And nothing as the end of all. Yea, even as the Yang-tze rolled Its rapids past him, so the wall Of things brake down; his eyes behold The mighty Beast serenely couched Upon its breast of burnished gold. “ Ah! by Christ's blood!” (his soul avouched), “ Nothing but change (but change!) abides. Death lurks, a leopard curled and crouched,

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1910 · PDF PAGE 447

The Equinox (Volume I, Number IV)

…es of the earth, Its towers and temples derelict, The ready ruin of its mirth, The flowers, the fruits, the leaves that fall, The joy of life, its growing girth— And nothing as the end of all. Yea, even as the Yang-tze rolled Its rapids past him, so the wall Of things brake down; his eyes behold The mighty Beast serenely couched Upon its breast of burnished gold. “ Ah! by Christ's blood!” (his soul avouched), “ Nothing but change (but change!) abides. Death lurks, a leopard curled and crouched,

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1911 · PDF PAGE 38

Hail Mary

…s, And trod upon the laidly worm. II In calm and storm, in peace and strife, There is a lull ; be ours to scale Therein the pinnacles of life By greeting Thee with Mary hail ! III Some of us conquer and succeed ; Some in the battle flinch and fail : Thou art enough for either need :— All greet Thee with the glad “ All hail ” ! Amen. B 31

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1912 · PDF PAGE 9

Household Gods

…er Subtly revealing her Brave breast of pearl! Now—she's withdrawn At dusk to the wild woods, Mystic beatitudes That dure till dawn. Let life exclaim Against these things of spirit, Mankind that disinherit Of love's pure fiame! [He bends before the altar and begins to weep. Ye household gods! By these male tears I swear That ye shall grant this prayer. All things at odds Shalt be put straight— Harmonized, reconciled By some appointed child Of some far Fate! [4 curtain has been drawn aside during this invocation, and Axscia advances. She smiles …

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1909 · PDF PAGE 55

The Equinox (Volume I, Number I)

…untain issued ; for from the Father alike was the Will and the End (by which are they connected with the Father according to alternating life, through varying vehicles), But they were divided asunder, being by Intellectual Fire distri- buted into other Intellectuals. For the King of all previously placed before the polymorphous World a Type, intellectual, incorruptible, the imprint of whose form is sent forth through the World, by which the Universe shone forth decked with Ideas all-various, of which the foundation is One, One and alone, From t…

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1909 · PDF PAGE 55

The Equinox (Volume I, Number II)

…untain issued ; for from the Father alike was the Will and the End (by which are they connected with the Father according to alternating life, through varying vehicles), But they were divided asunder, being by Intellectual Fire distri- buted into other Intellectuals. For the King of all previously placed before the polymorphous World a Type, intellectual, incorruptible, the imprint of whose form is sent forth through the World, by which the Universe shone forth decked with Ideas all-various, of which the foundation is One, One and alone, From t…

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1913 · PDF PAGE 504

The Equinox (Volume I, Number IX)

…more under the empire of the god-men, and are saved by those whom one at first thought their victims ; but the man who strives to live a life of evil deeds, does homage to good by all the intelligence and energy that he develops in himself. For this reason the great initiator said in his figurative language: “I would that thou wert cold or hot; but because thou art lukewarm, I will spew thee out of my mouth.” The Great Master, in one of his parables, condemns only the idle man who buried his treasure from fear of losing it in the risky operatio…

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1913 · PDF PAGE 504

The Equinox (Volume I, Number X)

…more under the empire of the god-men, and are saved by those whom one at first thought their victims ; but the man who strives to live a life of evil deeds, does homage to good by all the intelligence and energy that he develops in himself. For this reason the great initiator said in his figurative language: “I would that thou wert cold or hot; but because thou art lukewarm, I will spew thee out of my mouth.” The Great Master, in one of his parables, condemns only the idle man who buried his treasure from fear of losing it in the risky operatio…

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1922 · PDF PAGE 339

Diary of a Drug Fiend

…he candidate in silence and darkness. He had the choice between going mad or knowing himself. And when he was brought out into light and life, restored to love and liberty, he was in very truth a Neophyte, a man new-born. Big Lion puts us through it without our knowing what he’s doing. Though I’ve been through it myself, I didn’t know in this clear way what had really happened until I tried to explain it to you.” The sense of being enchanted came over me again very strongly. I looked across at Lou, and I could see in her eyes that she felt the …

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1929 · PDF PAGE 466

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…emselves as a committee appointed to report on the ravages of respectability. Novel after novel describes unflinchingly the realities of life in America in its various departments. Upton Sinclair and his school fail by overdoing it. Their sentimental indignation is just as false as the shop on the other side of the street. Howells and Chambers and all those pullulating boosters of the red-blooded, clean living hundred per cent. Gibson young man and his female rival them in invertebrate idealism. But the new school of realism makes a point of be…

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1907 · PDF PAGE 49

Collected Works (Vol. III)

… to give you a prescription like this—they ask a hundred francs—oh! it is a shame! Buy a little syringe; and that is Heaven for all your life—How do you feel? Sirk PERCY. Why, I am well at once. I never felt better in my life. The devil take my trouble 1 A demagogue of the period. now! I shall go out and conquer the whole world. I shall be the great magician, the Lord of the Stars. I have it in me to write poetry. Yes, that, first. (Goes to table and takes pen and paper.) In praise of—what is your medicine called, dear Marchioness? LADY GLENSTR…

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1901 · PDF PAGE 119

The Mother’s Tragedy

… fecundity. Exactly! You have read the golden rede. That is the pity of all things on earth: _ That all must have its consequence again. Life ends in death and loving ends in birth. All’s made for pleasure: man’s device is pain. And in that pain and barrenness men find Triumph on God; and the glory of the mind.

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1908 · PDF PAGE 79

Amphora

… dread King, The curse of Eve, the serpent of desire ! Aid Thou thy servant in her travailing ! Ease Thou the dolour dire ! O Thou whose life brought Light into the Light, Be with us now to comfort and console That this Thy servant, through Thy maiden might, Achieve the goodly goal ! Or, if Thy pleasure be to take from earth Thy servant to Thy holy house above, That Thou mayst hold her, safe in happier birth, In Thine especial love :— Or, if Thy pleasure be to take the child To join Thy choir of innocents in Heaven, We do assure Thee, Virgin un…

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