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Page 54 of 791922 · PDF PAGE 159
…d how I wanted dope, and how I wanted to stop dope so that. the dope might do me some good. I couldn’t really feel. It was a dull, blind sense of discomfort. I was awfully nervous, too. I felt as if I were somehow caught in a trap; as if I had got into the wrong house by mistake and couldn’t get out again. I didn’t know what might be behind all those doors ; and I was quite alone. Cockie was there; but he couldn’t do a thing to help me. I couldn’t call to him. The link between us was broken. _ And yet apart from all the fear I had for myself, t…
1929 · PDF PAGE 89
…e enjoyment to strike a chord composed of as many conflicting éléments as possible. The pleasure seems to be derived from gratifying the sense of power, the power to compel every possible element of thought to contribute to the spasm. If the theory of reincarnation were generally accepted, the above considérations would make out a strong case. Frater Perdurabo was quite convinced in one part of his mind of this identity, long before he got any actual memories as such.1 II • « • * 1 * , . . Unless one has a groundwork of this sort to start wit…
1930 · PDF PAGE 95
…xtravagances about “ineffable love”, “unimaginable bliss”, “inexpressible infinities of illimitabie utter- ness”. 1 He usually loses his sense of proportion, of humour, of reality, and of Sound judgment. His ego is often inflated to bursting point, till he would be abjectly ridiculous if he were not so pitifully dangerous to himself and others. He also tends to take his new-found “truths of illumination” for the entire body of truth, and insists that they must be as valid and vital for ail men as they happen to be for himself. I. This correspon…
1954 · PDF PAGE 370
…t of the Rosicrucian system that the Adept should "wear the costume of the country in which he is travelling." I take this in the widest sense. By that word "country" I understand this planet and this social status "to which it has pleased God to call me." The Brethren of the Rose and Cross deprecated monastic life or hermit life: perhaps they thought such expedients cowardly, or at least as a confession of weakness. I agree. One ought to be able to live the normal life of a member of one's class, to all external seeming; at least sufficiently …
1929 · PDF PAGE 38
… of optimism which went with the polite Christianity of the time. I was analysing life in the spirit of Schopenhauer. I couldn't see any sense in pretending that life was not full of horrors. Death and trousers are facts in nature; and merely to avoid reference to them or to invent euphemisms for them does not alter their character. I was reduced to gloating on murder and putrefaction, simply because these things gave the most forcible denial to the assumptions current at home. Paganism is wholesome because it faces the facts of life; but I was…
1930 · PDF PAGE 36
…any idea. We assume that any of these hieroglyphics will be understood by the intelligences with whom we wish to communicate in the same sense as it is by ourselves. We hâve therefore a sort of language. One may compare it to a lingua jranca which is perhaps defective in expressing fine shades of meaning, and so is unsuitable for literature, but which yet serves for the conduct of daily affairs in places where many tongues are spoken. Hindustani is an example of this. But better still is the analogy between the conventional signs and symbols em…
1954 · PDF PAGE 337
…lancing regimen of the Curriculum of A:. A:. ; and, worst of all, he was very far indeed from being a full initiate, even in the loosest sense of the term. His Weltanschauung was accordingly a mass of personal and political prejudice; he had no true cosmic comprehension, no true appreciation of First Principles; and he was tossed about in every direction by the varied conflicting forces that naturally concentrated their energies ever more strenuously upon him as his personal position became more and more the dominating factor, first in domestic…
1922 · PDF PAGE 265
…ous things in the language of absurdity and irony. And when he talks in a serious strain, his language merely accentuates the prodigious sense of humour which, as he says himself, saves him from going insane with horror at the mess into which humanity has got itself. Just as the Roman Empire began to break down when it became universal, when it was so large that no individual mind could grasp the problems which it postulated, so to-day, the spread of vulgar education and the development of facilities for transport have got ahead of the possibil…
1929 · PDF PAGE 88
…uarter of Paris incom- prehensibly familiar and attractive to him. This was not the ordinary phenomenon of the déjà vu, it was chiefly a sense of being at home again. He discovered long after that Levi had lived in the neighbourhood for many years. 5. There are many curious similarities between the events of Eliphas Levi’s life and that of Aleister Crowley. The intention 6f the parents that their son should hâve a religious career; the inability to make use of very remarkable talents in any regular wây; the inexplicable ostracism which afflicte…
1899 · PDF PAGE 250
…could hardly be."— Zhe Athenzum. “Mr. Aleister Crowley has merits as well as faults, although the latter are the more patent. He lacks a sense of humour, but on the other hand he has a high seriousness, which is full of promise, even if it be a trifle ludicrous and monotonous. He has but little skill in metre, and yet a considerable gift of rhythm. He has passion, the foundation of poetry, as well as mysticism, so often its bane and ruin. For instance, when he remarks that ‘I see the thin web binding me With thirteen cords of unity, Towards the…
1922 · PDF PAGE 209
… are in constant competition for the premiership of the minds of the educated classes. The commonest ploughman would have had more horse-sense than that doctor. I gave Peter the tablet with plenty of water when he began to get restless. It soothed him a great deal. I wished I had one for myself. I felt my irritability returning ; but I didn’t break out because it couldn’t be long till Basil came round. I looked forward to his coming as to a certain end to all our troubles... . What actually happened was quite different. I hardly know how to wri…
1929 · PDF PAGE 59
…p we cannot speak. It will now be recognised that to devise a practical magical ceremony to correspond to Tetragrammaton in this exalted sense might be difficult if not impossible. In such a ceremony the Rituals of purification alone might occupy many incarnations. It will be necessary, therefore, to revert to the simpler view of Tetragrammaton, remembering only that the Hé final is the Throne of the Spirit, of the Shin of Pentagrammaton. The Yod will represent a swift and violent créative energy; following this will be a calmer and more reflec…
1996 · PDF PAGE 51
…to heal the hurts and horrors of humanity, almost the “complete cohort.” On this point I concur that they argue indisputably, with sober sense to support and stress of suffering to spur them. They prove with Euler’s3 exactness and Hinton’s4 passion that hetero sexuality entrains an infinity of ills: jealousies, abortions, diseases, infanticides, frauds, intrigues, quarrels, poverty, prostitution,
1929 · PDF PAGE 516
…ere opening gradually to the perception that the results of observation and experiment demanded an interpretation as repugnant to common sense (as understood by the man in the street and the Rationalist Press Association) as the utmost conceptions of Pythagoras, Paracelsus and that Great Order itself of which I was an initiate. My subsequent researches have been almost exclusively determined by considerations of this kind. While I have done my utmost to advance directly towards truth by the regular traditional magical and mystical methods which…
1906 · PDF PAGE 7
…n world as so many devils let loose from hell. * This volume consists of unpublished poems dating from 1886-1903. Crowley writes, ‘‘ The sense is of dead leaves drifting in the dusty cave of my mind.” The lupus is over her face and head, Filthy and foul and horrid and dread, And her shrieks they would almost wake the dead ; Rotting away ! In her horrible grave she lay, Rotting away ! Rotting by night, and rotting by day, Rotting away ! | In the place of her face is a gory hole, And the worms are gnawing the tissues foul, And the devil is gloati…
1922 · PDF PAGE 379
…would calm their clamour sufficiently long to enable you to get the thing done. Now, it’s utterly wrong to force yourself to work from a sense of duty. The more thoroughly you succeed in analysing your mind, the more surely you become able to recognise the moment when a supreme effort is likely to result in definite achievement. Nature is very quick to warn one when one makes an error. A
1922 · PDF PAGE 208
… of the men he used to know in the hospital to get them to give him some H., but they hadn’t dared to do it.. They were suffering from a sense of insult about the new law, the Diabolical Dope Act. They had undergone a long and expensive training and had diplomas which made them responsible for the héalth of the community ; and now they weren’t allowed to prescribe for their own patients. It was natural enough that they should be indignant.
1907 · PDF PAGE 81
…ssage from your house. ALAIN, I regret infinitely that I cannot comply with Monsieur’s most moderate demands— at least [yzezck/y] in the sense he means.
1909 · PDF PAGE 304
…try.”—Hume, iv., p. 134. + If a piece of lead were to remain suspended of itself in the air, the occurrence would be a ‘miracle,’ in the sense of a wonderful event, indeed ; but no one trained in the methods of science would imagine that any law of nature was really violated thereby. He would simply set to work to investigate the conditions under which so highly unexpected an occurrence took place ; and thereby enlarge his experience and modify his hitherto unduly narrow conception of the laws of nature.”—Huxley, “ Essay on Hume,” p. 155. “A ph…
1909 · PDF PAGE 304
…try.”—Hume, iv., p. 134. + If a piece of lead were to remain suspended of itself in the air, the occurrence would be a ‘miracle,’ in the sense of a wonderful event, indeed ; but no one trained in the methods of science would imagine that any law of nature was really violated thereby. He would simply set to work to investigate the conditions under which so highly unexpected an occurrence took place ; and thereby enlarge his experience and modify his hitherto unduly narrow conception of the laws of nature.”—Huxley, “ Essay on Hume,” p. 155. “A ph…