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1929 · PDF PAGE 129

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…this day when I think of it. I ought to have followed the ideal of Gauguin. It was absurd to have got so far only to fall in love with a white woman. I know now that white women introduce the idea of impurity into love in one way or another. There is something either vicious or intellectual about them. Love should be a strictly physiological matter, with just that amount of natural emotion that goes with it. But then, such simple happiness is not for me. Anyhow, I decided to spend a month on Waikiki Beach. I had a vague idea of getting a hut an…

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1909 · PDF PAGE 17

The Equinox (Volume I, Number I)

…c Illuminist. If the little girl had been able to “follow up the light,” she might there have seen Penry standing, his head and his feet white like wool, and his eyes a flaming fire | This, then, in one language or another, is our philosophical position. But for those who are not content with this, let it be said that there is something more behind and beyond. Among us are those who have experienced things of a nature so exalted that no words ever penned could even adumbrate them faintly. The communication of such knowledge, so far as it is at …

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1909 · PDF PAGE 46

The Equinox (Volume I, Number I)

… Other-world. This potion was identified with the Elixir Vite of the physical Alchemists, or one of their “ Tinctures,” most likely the “White Tincture” which transforms the base metal (normal perception of life) to silver (poetic conception), and we sought it by fruitless attempts to poison ourselves with every drug in (and out of) the Pharmacopceia. Like Huckleberry Finn’s prayer, nuffin’ come of it. I must now, like the Baker, skip forty years, or rather eight, and reach a point where my travels in India had familiarised me with their system…

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1909 · PDF PAGE 17

The Equinox (Volume I, Number II)

…c Illuminist. If the little girl had been able to “follow up the light,” she might there have seen Penry standing, his head and his feet white like wool, and his eyes a flaming fire | This, then, in one language or another, is our philosophical position. But for those who are not content with this, let it be said that there is something more behind and beyond. Among us are those who have experienced things of a nature so exalted that no words ever penned could even adumbrate them faintly. The communication of such knowledge, so far as it is at …

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1909 · PDF PAGE 46

The Equinox (Volume I, Number II)

… Other-world. This potion was identified with the Elixir Vite of the physical Alchemists, or one of their “ Tinctures,” most likely the “White Tincture” which transforms the base metal (normal perception of life) to silver (poetic conception), and we sought it by fruitless attempts to poison ourselves with every drug in (and out of) the Pharmacopceia. Like Huckleberry Finn’s prayer, nuffin’ come of it. I must now, like the Baker, skip forty years, or rather eight, and reach a point where my travels in India had familiarised me with their system…

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1913 · PDF PAGE 269

The Equinox (Volume I, Number IX)

…know ail about Gustavus Adolphus. MASTER. Well, that’s splendid. Let’s see now, who was he? BOY [beyond himself] Tyrant! Monster! Brute! White slaver! Mar— con—ee! IT. In the family circle: JOHN [to his brother]. Now, Albert, I should like you to take some flowers to Mother for a present. ALBERT. All right. [Zhey enter shop.) JOHN. Here’s the money. ALBERT. All right. [They reach home.] JOHN. Now you go in all by yourself and say, “Here are some flowers for you, Mother.” I will wait outside. ALBERT. All right. [Wizthin.] Here are some flowers f…

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1913 · PDF PAGE 269

The Equinox (Volume I, Number X)

…know ail about Gustavus Adolphus. MASTER. Well, that’s splendid. Let’s see now, who was he? BOY [beyond himself] Tyrant! Monster! Brute! White slaver! Mar— con—ee! IT. In the family circle: JOHN [to his brother]. Now, Albert, I should like you to take some flowers to Mother for a present. ALBERT. All right. [Zhey enter shop.) JOHN. Here’s the money. ALBERT. All right. [They reach home.] JOHN. Now you go in all by yourself and say, “Here are some flowers for you, Mother.” I will wait outside. ALBERT. All right. [Wizthin.] Here are some flowers f…

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1919 · PDF PAGE 103

The Equinox (Volume III, Number I)

…rpent Apep, my Lord Adonai, it is a speck of minutest time, this travelling through eternity, and in Thy sight the landmarks are of fair white marble untouched by the tool of the graver. Therefore Thou art mine, even now and for ever and for everlasting. Amen. 58. Moreover, I heard the voice of Adonai: Seal up the book of the Heart and the Serpent; in the number five and sixty seal thou the holy book. As fine gold that is beaten into a diadem for the fair queen of Pharaoh, as great stones that are cemented together into the Pyramid of the cerem…

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1907 · PDF PAGE 285

The Star in the West

…his experience , and modify his hitherto unduly narrow conceptions of the laws of nature. This is the method of true science , the great white magic of the Black Goddess : Gape wide , 0 hideous mouth , and suck This heart's blood , drain it down , expunge This sweetening life of mire and muck ! Squeeze out my passions as a sponge , Till nought is left of terrene wine But somewhat deathless and divine ! 2 Huxley continues : “ The day - fly has better grounds for calling a thunderstorm supernatural than has man , with his experience of an infinit…

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1911 · PDF PAGE 135

The Vision and the Voice

…nless thou slay me, thou shalt not unveil the Mystery of the Aethyr. Therefore I did as he commanded; in the quiver were two arrows, one white, one black. I cannot force myself to fit an arrow to the bow. And there came a voice: It must needs be. And I said: No man can do this thing. And the voice answered, as it were an echo: emo hoc Sacere potest. 133

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1910 · PDF PAGE 166

The Equinox (Volume I, Number III)

…sult of speech as a disturbing factor in Dharana (meditation). The experiment was as follows: P. sat and meditated for five minutes on a white Tau (T) during which Méitrananda spoke six times with the object of * No rough working is given in this volume; it is only a compendium of Results. + The goddess Isis, Deir, Kali, Sakti, etc, in her aspect as the patroness of Meditation. There are five principal meditations. Metta-Bhavana, on love; Karuna-Bhavana, on pity; Mudita-Bhavan4, on joy; Asubha-Bhavana, on impunity; and Upeksha-Bhavana, on seren…

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1910 · PDF PAGE 166

The Equinox (Volume I, Number IV)

…sult of speech as a disturbing factor in Dharana (meditation). The experiment was as follows: P. sat and meditated for five minutes on a white Tau (T) during which Méitrananda spoke six times with the object of * No rough working is given in this volume; it is only a compendium of Results. + The goddess Isis, Deir, Kali, Sakti, etc, in her aspect as the patroness of Meditation. There are five principal meditations. Metta-Bhavana, on love; Karuna-Bhavana, on pity; Mudita-Bhavan4, on joy; Asubha-Bhavana, on impunity; and Upeksha-Bhavana, on seren…

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1911 · PDF PAGE 73

The Vision and the Voice

…hin my body. Bou-SAapa. December 3, 1909. 9.15 to 11.10 a.m. THE CRY OF THE 14TH AETHYR, WHICH IS CALLED UTI There come into the stone a white goat, a green dragon, and a tawny bull. But they pass away immediately. There is a veil of such darkness before the Aethyr that it seems impossible to pierce it. But there is a voice saying: Behold, the Great One of the Night of Time stirreth, and with his tail he churneth up the slime, and of the foam thereof shall he make stars. And in the battle of the Python and the Sphinx shall the glory be to the S…

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1919 · PDF PAGE 425

The Equinox (Volume III, Number I)

… the Not-Self is neces- sary. 40. For, on Path fourth, the lightest breeze of passion or desire will stir the steady light upon the pure white walls of Soul. The smallest wave of longing or regret for Maya's gifts illusive, along Antakarana—the path that lies be- tween thy Spirit and thy Self, the highway of sensations, the rude arousers of AhankGra (the faculty that makes the illu- sion called the Ego)—a thought as fleeting as the lightning flash will make thee thy three prizes forfeit—the prizes thou hast won. The meaning is again very much c…

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1922 · PDF PAGE 176

Diary of a Drug Fiend

… a state of sleepless agony. Our visit to the studio had burnt itself into my mind. I imagined the flesh of my soul sizzling beneath the white hot branding iron of Lamus’s Will. I reached out my hands for this diary.. It has relieved me to write it down in all this detail. I found myself on fire with passionate determination to fight H. and C. to a finish ; and my hands were tied behind my back, my feet were fettered by a chain and ball. I wouldn’t be made to stop by that beast. We'd get it despite him. We wouldn't be treated like children ; we…

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1904 · PDF PAGE 18

The Sword of Song

ASCENSION DAY 11 Samadhi-Dak,51 convenient To travel to Maha Meru,52 Or Gaurisankar’s53 keen white wedge Spearing the mighty dome of blue, Or Chogo’s54 mighty flying edge Shearing across the firmament,— But, first, to that exact event You Christians celebrate to-day. We stand where the disciples stood And see the Master float away Into that cloudlet heavenly-hued Receiving him from mortal sight. Which of his sayings prove the true, Lightning-bescrawled athwart the blue ? I say not, Which in hearts aright Are treasured ? but, What after ages Eng…

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1907 · PDF PAGE 146

The Star in the West

…lize the sublimity of the Great Mother hood , whose children are as one , a flaming crown of glory twined and interwoven with roses both white and red . This mingling of the passionate and the chaste we find is the new ideal that Crowley flashes before our dazzled sight. Away with Mary, immaculate Mother of Christ : away with Messalina , incestuous prophetess of Lust . Away ! Away ! To the West , to the East , till they meet in some flaming region of equatorial fury, and flashing interfuse and interblend . Once again must a prophet of the Lord …

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1911 · PDF PAGE 90

The Vision and the Voice

…of lightning. The least of their spears is like a great water-spout. On their shields are the eyes of Tetragrammaton, winged with flame,—white, red, black, yellow and blue. On their flanks are vast squadrons of elephants, and behind them is their meteor-artillery. They that sit upon the elephants are armed with the thunderbolt of Zeus. Now in all that host there is no motion. Yet they are not resting upon their arms, but tense and vigilant. And between them and me is the God Shu, whom before I did not see, because his force filleth the whole Ae…

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1912 · PDF PAGE 103

Book 4 (Part I)

…interesting when science really determines the variables and constants of these equations. 2 This is so complete that not only “Black is White,” but “The VVhiteness of Black is the essentia! of its Blackness.” “ Naught: One = Infinity”; but this is only true because of this threefold arrangement, a trinity or “ triangle of contradictories.”

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1919 · PDF PAGE 93

The Equinox (Volume III, Number I)

…rnity, let Thy wave break in foamless glory of sapphire upon the laborious coral of our making! 49. We have made us a ring of glistening white sand, strewn wisely in the midst of the Delightful Ocean. 50. Let the palms of brilliance flower upon our island; we shall eat of their fruit, and be glad. 51. But for me the lustral water, the great ablution, the dissolving of the soul in that resounding abyss. 52. [havea little son like a wanton goat; my daughter is 87

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