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1928 · PDF PAGE 164

Little Poems in Prose

…r- stand me; at last I succeeded; but then she answered me very sadly, and even, if my memory serves me, turned away her eyes; “I do not know, I do not remember.” What bizarre things does not one find in a great city when one knows how to walk about and how to look! Life swarms with innocent monsters. Oh Lord my God, Thou Creator, Thou Master, Thou who hast made law and lib-

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1954 · PDF PAGE 436

Magick Without Tears

…k to the other two. Faith in its Meaning Number One was perfectly well defined by the schoolboy: "the faculty of believing that which we know to be untrue." It is at least the acceptance of 403

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1911 · PDF PAGE 68

The Equinox (Volume I, Number V)

…the roof. 1: Lead me to it, I pray thee! He: Fix thine eyes upon it. |: Sir, I will. Yet I pray thee to tell me thy name. He: Thou didst know it of old, didst thou not? I: The son of the mountain? He: The Stone of the Crossways. [: It is enough. Let me fix mine eye upon the door. He. It is well. Then I obeyed him, and in that obedience forgot him. For though mine eye wandered often, and although once the planks beneath me threatened to give way and plunge me once more into the stream, yet I strove as a man may. Then, mine eye being accustomed to…

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1911 · PDF PAGE 68

The Equinox (Volume I, Number VI)

…the roof. 1: Lead me to it, I pray thee! He: Fix thine eyes upon it. |: Sir, I will. Yet I pray thee to tell me thy name. He: Thou didst know it of old, didst thou not? I: The son of the mountain? He: The Stone of the Crossways. [: It is enough. Let me fix mine eye upon the door. He. It is well. Then I obeyed him, and in that obedience forgot him. For though mine eye wandered often, and although once the planks beneath me threatened to give way and plunge me once more into the stream, yet I strove as a man may. Then, mine eye being accustomed to…

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1912 · PDF PAGE 61

The Equinox (Volume I, Number VII)

…filigree. A square slim altar was in the midst. I was questioned as to what I would sacrifice on that altar. I offered all save my will to know A which I would only change for its own realization. I now became conscious of god-forms of Egypt sitting, 21

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1912 · PDF PAGE 61

The Equinox (Volume I, Number VIII)

…filigree. A square slim altar was in the midst. I was questioned as to what I would sacrifice on that altar. I offered all save my will to know A which I would only change for its own realization. I now became conscious of god-forms of Egypt sitting, 21

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1913 · PDF PAGE 131

Book 4 (Part II)

…ne be there. These stones are the simple impressions or experiences ; not one may be foregone. Do not refuse anything merely because you know that it is the cup of poison offered by your enemy; drink it with confidence; it is he that will fall dead! How can I give Cambodian art its proper place in art, if I have never heard of Cambodia? How can the Geologist estimate the age of what lies beneath the chalk unless he have a piece of knowledge totally un- connected with geology, the life-history of the animals of whom that chalk is the remains? Th…

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1954 · PDF PAGE 307

Magick Without Tears

…uivalents, all practically the same in sound, in various Nordic languages; he doesn't say where it comes from, or what it means. I don't know either , bless your heart! 274

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1905 · PDF PAGE 17

Collected Works (Vol. I)

…e planted Paler roses, warmer grapes, Ere the maiden breasts have panted, And the sunny shapes F lit around to bless the hour, Comes men know not what false flower : Ere the cup is drained, the wine Grows unsweet, that was divine. All the subtle airs are proven False at dewfall, at the dawn Sin and sorrow, interwoven, Like a veil are drawn Over love and all delight; Grey desires invade the white. Love and life are but a span ; Woe is me! and woe is man! The sound stood trembling in the forest dim Lingering a little, yet there taketh him A stron…

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1910 · PDF PAGE 351

The Equinox (Volume I, Number III)

…er upon which they floated was composed of HO,. He wondered, “If it were they who were fools, or I myself,’—we, being mystics, don’t; we know! Their conversation was “trivial chatter,” so evidently it had nothing to do with ontogenic-phylogeny. The chaplain was “ insufferable” twice over, and so were his prayers. “The heavy mask of revelry was still on the faces of the men whom curiosity drew to the open rail: men in gay pyjamas and flaunting shirts, men with ends of cigarettes in their lax mouths, men whose language, up to a few hours before, …

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1910 · PDF PAGE 351

The Equinox (Volume I, Number IV)

…er upon which they floated was composed of HO,. He wondered, “If it were they who were fools, or I myself,’—we, being mystics, don’t; we know! Their conversation was “trivial chatter,” so evidently it had nothing to do with ontogenic-phylogeny. The chaplain was “ insufferable” twice over, and so were his prayers. “The heavy mask of revelry was still on the faces of the men whom curiosity drew to the open rail: men in gay pyjamas and flaunting shirts, men with ends of cigarettes in their lax mouths, men whose language, up to a few hours before, …

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1907 · PDF PAGE 50

The Star in the West

…. To die into dreams of my lover , To wake with his mouth like a dove Kissing me over and over ! Better sleep so Than be conscious , and know How death hath a charm to discover . 1 But not until we read “ The Eyes of Pharaoh " do we read one of the most astounding paintings in words , I make bold to say , that has ever been written in any language : And death's insufferable perfume Beat the black air with golden fans As Turkis rip a Nubian's womb With damascenéd yataghans . ? This one astonishing verse upsets the equilibrium of the whole poem ,…

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1907 · PDF PAGE 145

The Star in the West

…ome to mock at me And gloat on mine exceeding pain ?" Nay but to give my soul to thee , And have thee spit at me again !” She smiled - I know she smiled - she sighed , Bit my lips through , and drank , and died ! My veins poured out her marriage cup , For holy water her cruel tongue ; For blessing of white hands raised up , These perfumed infamies unsung ; For God's breath , her sharp tainted breath ; For marriage - bed , the bed of death . The host is lifted up . Behold The vintage spilt , the broken bread ! I feast upon the cruel cold Pale bo…

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1907 · PDF PAGE 288

The Star in the West

…I Perceive the same to be absurd . ' ... " And this fleeting changeful “ experience,” Huxley says , is necessarily “ based on incomplete know ledge," and is “ to be held only as grounds of more or less justified expectation " ... “ On the other hand , no conceivable event however extraordinary is impossible ." 2 Thus all changeability is uncertainty , from the Gods and the Suns which we worship , to the kisses we shower on our loved ones ' lips ; as Crowley sings : Why must despair to madness drive The myriad fools that fear to die ? God's but …

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1909 · PDF PAGE 64

Clouds Without Water

…eap upon a babe unweaned. — 102 — {Il Kiss me at least! We always were good friends — Kiss me for old times’ sake — Kiss me just once! I know this ends — as every sweet thing ends! But — say you are not angry! Ere you pounce, Forgive me! You could make me glad to die, I think, if you would only kill me kindly. Just one swift razor-stroke — cut low! — and I Would pass the portal happily and blindly, Yes! I would like to think the fountain sprang Straight from my throat and slaked your aching thirst, Shot to your hot red heart one red hot pang, T…

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1909 · PDF PAGE 25

John St. John

1 1.35. 6.55. 7.0- 7.16. 7.30. 7.50. 8.5. JOHN ST. JOHN And indeed, though I tried to continue the mantra with its high aspiration to know Adonai, I must have slept almost at once. The Third Day Now the day being gloriously broken, I awoke with some weariness, not feeling clean and happy, not burning with love unto my Lord Adonai, though ashamed indeed for that thrice or four times in the night I had been awakened by this loyal body, urging me to rise and meditate—and my weak will bade it be at ease and take its rest—oh, wretched man! slave of …

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1910 · PDF PAGE 19

The World’s Tragedy

…“ honourable ” and laughed pleasantly. I remember how, boys as we were, we filed austerely from the rooms without farewell. Oh, you must know the C. I. C. C. U. ! I remember too how this Doddridge, while in charge of my morals, aided and abetted me in extinguishing street lamps ; and how when a policeman pounced upon me, he forsook me and fled ! A true disciple of Jesus ! I had no playmates ; my morals might be corrupted ! Only the “ children of brethren ” were eligible, and these were as a rule socially impossible. I was always being watched f…

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1912 · PDF PAGE 338

The Equinox (Volume I, Number VII)

…בדה Outer ; civil, as opposed?ןושח to sacred. [Vide K.D. L.C.K. p. 342] The Pillars?ם`רמע !65 Strength. [EL iii. 8] u'ptn “ Το make them know."?םשריהל [Ps, xxv. 14] Nehema?המענ NEMO. [Name of Milt]?תיממע Angel of 3 we An assembly my 166 A King of Edom?ובהלעב Reus mulctae. [Videב"ח ?ןוממ K.D. L.C.K. p. 498] Heaven of Geburah?ןועמ Night Demon of?;שיDec. πι?לופנ Native land or Job?ץוע The Most High?ןוילע

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1912 · PDF PAGE 338

The Equinox (Volume I, Number VIII)

…בדה Outer ; civil, as opposed?ןושח to sacred. [Vide K.D. L.C.K. p. 342] The Pillars?ם`רמע !65 Strength. [EL iii. 8] u'ptn “ Το make them know."?םשריהל [Ps, xxv. 14] Nehema?המענ NEMO. [Name of Milt]?תיממע Angel of 3 we An assembly my 166 A King of Edom?ובהלעב Reus mulctae. [Videב"ח ?ןוממ K.D. L.C.K. p. 498] Heaven of Geburah?ןועמ Night Demon of?;שיDec. πι?לופנ Native land or Job?ץוע The Most High?ןוילע

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1914 · PDF PAGE 23

Chicago May

…assion in the sky? Is there no fervour in the blasting sun To make a symphony of sympathy? ‘Oh, but if I were only with you—when ?— ‘Who knows if all our passion would suffice Us who were forced—we, Laylah now and then To bathe our bodies in the vats of vice? Why is our heaven so critical a point ? Why does life tremble on so tense a string? Why should so rare an oil as ours anoint ‘The brazen brows of a usurping king? Is it not in our right that you and 1, No more you and I, should be some third thing, given Not by the Gods, nor chance, nor De…

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