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1906 · PDF PAGE 247

Collected Works (Vol. II)

…are represented in phases, just as 0° and finity are phases of an iden- tical expression, and I have an even chance only of being on the right side of the fence! The Buddhist leaves no chances of this kind; in all his categories he is infinitely un- extended; though the categories themselves exist; he is in fact 04+8+C+D+4+.+% and capable of no conceivable change, unless we imagine Nirvana to be. incomprehensibly divided by Nirvana, which would (supposing the two Nirvanas to possess identical cate- gories) result in the production of the origin…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 129

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…ful. Its object is to prevent mosquitoes from biting one. The method is: to love them. One reminds oneself that the mosquito has as much right to his dinner as a man has. It is difficult to get the exact shade of feeling and more so to feel it. One begins by lying defenceless against the enemy and sternly repressing the impulse to wave, to slap and to scratch. After a little perseverance, one finds that the bites no longer become inflamed; and this preliminary success is soon followed by complete protection. The will not bite one at all. But my…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 188

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

… hurry. We may therefore leave "acclimatization" to the mentally defective heroes of the Everest expedition of 1921 and 1922. Collie was right in saying that one is living on one's capital on prolonged mountain expeditions. My experience enables me to add that it is not only a question of mountains. Any kind of prolonged hardship gradually wears one down. Again I repeat, it is pitiful to have to insist on such obvious truths. The low vitality of the working classes, the national deterioration caused by the privations of wartime, scream their wa…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 387

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…ntments encompassing my essence with an energy mighty to work on my will in some inscrutable way. I began to feel --- well, not exactly frightened; it was the subtle trembling of a maiden before the bridegroom. My ardour increased with every vision and every vision became intenser and more intimate. I fortified myself by magical practices. Two or three times I had found it difficult to get into the Aethyr; there were bars which I understood as not to be passed by the profane. The progressive sublimity and solemnity made me tremble lest I should…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 278

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…f out" completely. But on this occasion --- when my unconscious self seems to have had me in hand throughout --- I made myself invisible right enought. The report of the pistol, the screams (for all I know!) of the wounded or frightened men, and the alarm given by the fugitives, had aroused the entire district. An European was a rare bird in that quarter at that time of night; and no native would be likely to have such a gun. No doubt, too, the whole assault had been watched from the beginning; and I must have been denounced descriptively. I re…

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1906 · PDF PAGE 216

Collected Works (Vol. II)

… climbing, meditating,—failing to think of a suitable rhyme at a critical juncture, Ah !—goes on working, goes on smoking, Until he goes right on to Woking. 637. No one supposes me a Satnt.54—On in- quiry, however, I find that some do. 686. Amrita.>>—The Elixir of Life : the Dew of Immortality.

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1904 · PDF PAGE 75

The Sword of Song

… climbing, meditating,—failing to think of a suitable rhyme at a critical juncture, Ah !—goes on working, goes on smoking, Until he goes right on to Woking. 637. No one supposes me a Saint.54—On in- quiry, however, I find that some do. 686. Amrita.55—The Elixir of Life : the Dew of Immortality.

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1904 · PDF PAGE 105

The Sword of Song

…at present to accept. The task of the Buddhist recluse is roughly as follows. He must plunge every particle of his being into one idea : right views, aspirations, word, deed, life, will-power, medi- tation, rapture, s uch are the s tages of his liberation, which resolves itself into a struggle against the laws of causality . He cannot prevent past causes taking effect, but he can prevent pres ent caus es from having any future results. The exoteric Christian and Hindu rather rely on another person to do this for them, and are further blinded by…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 340

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…t it at once; he would suspect a bad motive, put one down as a blasphemer and cut one down with unhesitating cheerfulness. And serve one right! In this way I passed the sentinels and mingled with the crowd. It was a wild tribe from Seoul. The women were present, thought they took no active part, and merely helped to keep the ring. The circle was some thirty feet across. Squatting on its edge were the usual musicians, playing as usual for dear life, while dancing and yelling were a number of men, armed with very small light axes of peculiar work…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 391

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…e and fine specimen of this stone in Ceylon and made it into a ring with a gold band of two interlaced serpents, I found that Burton was right. I had merely to exhibit this ring to command the greatest possible respect. On one occasion, in fact, a quarrel {625} in a coffee shop having developed into a sort of small riot, and knives being drawn, I walked into the scrimmage and drew sigils in the air with the ring while intoning a chapter of the Koran. The fuss stopped instantly, and a few minutes later the original parties to the dispute came to…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 282

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…t my Kamma had in store for me. "This might be discovered," he said, "by acquiring the Magical Memory." This is equivalent to Sammasati, Right Recollection, the seventh step on the Noble Eightfold Path. I must explain what this means. The Buddhist theory of metempsychosis does not involve, like the corresponding Hindu idea, the survival of the individual. There is in fact no ego to survive. When a Buddhist says that he remembers the events of his boyhood, he does not imply that he is the boy in question. He is not; nor is he the man, elephant, …

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1929 · PDF PAGE 149

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…y, because I had not yet been healed of the wound of Amfortas: I had not got rid of the shame of sex. My instinct told me that Blake was right in saying "The lust of the goat is the glory of god." But I lacked the courage to admit it. The result of my training had been to obsess me with the hideously foul idea that inflicts such misery on Western minds and curses life with civil war. Europeans cannot face the facts frankly; they cannot escape from their animal appetite, yet suffer the tortures of fear and shame even while gratifying it. As Freu…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 280

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…ic reply was, "You've got here just in time to see me hanged!" Thornton gave a dinner party in our honour that night. My wife sat at his right hand. I saw that she was upset about something. I had no opportunity to talk to Thornon alone before dinner. He kept on giving a curious gesture and then raising two fingers. My stupid mind could not imagine what he was driving at. After dinner he took me and Rose aside for a moment. The unimaginable had happened. My single shot had gone clean through the abdomen of the man with the knife and lodged in t…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 532

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…t will affect me at present. Even the Way of the Tao looks idiotic --- but then of course that's what it is! So I suppose that's it, all right. And its freedom, in an utterly fascinating and appalling sense, is beyond my fiercest conception. An experience of this intensity demands a period of repose, no less than a boat race or any other form of intense effort. The adepts have always insisted on due preparation for any initiation. As The Book of the Law says, "... Wisdom says: be strong! Then canst thou bear more joy. ..." I accordingly broke u…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 367

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…seeking for a side that neither inside nor outside --- and then like a flash I saw that I had it! Oh Glory Ineffable of Realization! (Oh Right Thinking!) For either side is both inside and outside because I can use it as such, and it is neither inside nor outside with regard to the discrimination which might be made by an uninitiate between any one thing an any other thing. Now this quality is not in the robe, which has two sides easily distinguishable by hemmings, machining, etc., to say nothing of orientation in space, but in me, and arises f…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 228

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…they awake and the air literally becomes dark with their multitude. One has merely to fire into the mass. One of the bats, wounded, fell right on my wife and frightened her. It may have been thirty seconds before I could detach her from his claws. I thought nothing of the matter; but it is possible that her condition aggravated the impression. Our beds in the baghla were furnished with four stout uprights and a frame for mosquito curtains. I suppose in so remote a district they had been made of unusually strong poles. I was awakened in the dead…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 512

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…the story. I received an indignant letter from New York from the lady who had lent me the cottage, reproaching me for having built a dam right across the lake, to the detriment of navigation! This spasm of energy continued without abatement for some three weeks, after which I gradually recovered the balance of my normal faculties. The effect of my operations was now to increase the energy of each of them, but in reasonable proportion. I was now able to begin my proposed magical research. In order to erect the temple of the New Aeon, it appeared…

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1907 · PDF PAGE 133

Collected Works (Vol. III)

…nd colour of ink and pencil to stalk my footsteps, and (4) I am literally not the man who wrote it, and, despise him as I may, I have no right to interfere with his work. But I will not be haunted by the ghost of a Banquo that another man has failed to lay; and this kind of ghost knows but one exorcism, One should bury him decently in fine fat type, and erect nice boards over him, and collect the criticisms of an enlightened press, and inscribe them on the tomb. Then he is buried beyond resurrection; oblivion takes him, and he will never haunt …

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1910 · PDF PAGE 492

The Equinox (Volume I, Number III)

…ers. The Occult Review says: “Despite its cumbrous sub-title and high price per page, this work has only to come under the notice of the right people to be sure of a ready sale. In its author's words, it represents ‘an attempt to systematise alike the data of mysticism and the results of comparative religion,” and so far as any book can succeed in such an attempt, this book does succeed; that isto say, it condenses in some sixty pages as much information as many an intelligent reader at the Museum has been able to collect in years, The book pro…

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1910 · PDF PAGE 492

The Equinox (Volume I, Number IV)

…ers. The Occult Review says: “Despite its cumbrous sub-title and high price per page, this work has only to come under the notice of the right people to be sure of a ready sale. In its author's words, it represents ‘an attempt to systematise alike the data of mysticism and the results of comparative religion,” and so far as any book can succeed in such an attempt, this book does succeed; that isto say, it condenses in some sixty pages as much information as many an intelligent reader at the Museum has been able to collect in years, The book pro…

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