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1906 · PDF PAGE 211

Collected Works (Vol. II)

…od: I hope it may do as much for you. 63. With eyes wellfixed on my proboscis, 5— See Bhagavad-Gita, Atmasamyamyog. 67. Brahma-charya.'*—Right conduct, and in particular, chastity in the highest sense. 72. Baccy.“—A poisonous plant used by nicotomaniacs in their orgies and debauches. ‘“The filthy tobacco habit,” says ‘‘ Elijah the Restorer” of Zion, late of Sydney and Chicago. That colossal genius-donkey, Shaw, is another of them. But see Calverley. 78. His hat.\8—lt may be objected that Western, but never Eastern, magicians turn their headgear…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 321

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…hine own soul in silence and alone. Take no aid with thee; take no mortal soul but retire and depart from mankind." Pentagram makes him brighter: he grows firmer. Repeated, form vanishes and only brightness remains. Asked for a sign of his name ... is written on throne. "I will give no other sign: you must learn to trust your own intuition." F's intuition tells her that he is genuine. As to our relations, he wishes us to work together (A contradiction v. supra:) "I do not wish you to go too far in work with S. W. She will dazzle you and be apt …

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1929 · PDF PAGE 170

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…en hours' trudge during which I had hardly sat down. My eyes, too, were inflamed. In the Alps, I had found myself able to go all day in bright sunshine without dark goggles and be none the worse. In Mexico I became uncomfortable after an hour or two and had to put on my glasses. But in the Himalayas, even at low altitudes (the Zoji La is about five thousand metres), snow blindness is a real menace. When I got to the upper glacier, I found that ten minutes without goggles even under a clouded sky determined an attack. I was too exhausted even to…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 317

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…an was not a bad one. I am quite inaccessible to disturbance except of one kind. The neighbourhood of anyone on whom I have bestowed the right to speak to me is a cause of distraction. In practice I train such people carefully not to address me when I am working --- aye! at any time --- without special justification. I made a further experiment in October 1908 (see "John St. John") of carrying out a complete Magical Operation of the most important kind while leading the life of the normal man-about-town in the Montparnasse quarter. I did this t…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 561

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

561 it from the staircase one inclines to the right. I was slightly surprised to find the whole staff of the hotel, from the manager to the porter, drawn up in a line between me and both the entrance and the restaurant. They all smiled and bowed obsequiously and awkwardly, like so many marionettes. The manager stepped forward, louted him low, and motioned me towards a passage leading to the left. I supposed that, it being out of the season, the regular restaurant was shut and meals served elsewhere. He bowed me into a sort of smoking-room and s…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 22

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…ur sincerity should be Roman about things that really matter to us. And I am still in doubt, as I write these words, as to how far it is right to employ strategy and diplomacy in order to gain one's point. The great men of the world have stood up and taken their medicine. Bradlaugh and Burton did not lose in the end by being downright. I never approved the super- subtlety of Huxley's campaign against Gladstone; and as for Swinburne, he died outright when he became respectable. Adaptation to one's environment makes for a sort of survival; but af…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 302

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…e to understand the details of the ceremony; and the missionaries regarded the while business as a blasphemous pagan orgy from which all righteous people should avert their gaze. I could see clearly, however, that the central figure was an ox. He was {492} evidently the hero of the occasion because he was going to help them out with their ploughing. It was a gay, spontaneous, harmless piece of merriment; to see idolatry in it is sheer morbid prejudice. We left Tali on February 6th and got back to the main road. The following day was without int…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 362

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…ly, firmly and determinedly, trusting to the scanty information to be gathered from signposts and strangers, to keep more or less on the right road, {583} and to take my chance of being satisfied with the unknown city which I had chosen as my goal with no reason beyond my personal whim. This I made our march symbolize life. There were other analogies. We had to endure every kind of hardship heartily and to take our fun where we found it without being dainty. We learnt to enjoy every incident, to find something to love in every strange face, to …

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1929 · PDF PAGE 146

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…iverse. I cannot follow him so far. I can understand that every possible combination of qualities may exist somewhere and that I have no right even to assume that my own detestation of such things proves them to be unjustifiable. I really rather agree with "Greenland's Icy Mountains", though I object to accepting Ceylon on the penultimate. But certainly every prospect is remarkably pleasing and, as far as I saw, every man is vile. There seems to be something in the climate of the island that stupefies the finer parts of a man if he lives there …

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1929 · PDF PAGE 552

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…head and control his frantic punches and kicks. They then got surgeons on the job who pulled him through. In a couple of days he was all right again. His experiment, if intended to escape notice, failed. They hauled him before the Lord High-Muck-Amuck, who told him, with the best respects and wishes of Uncle Sam for a prosperous passage to perdition, that after a careful consideration the Navy Department had unanimously decided that they could sweep the seas clear of the White Ensign without troubling themselves to put him to the inconvenience …

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1929 · PDF PAGE 581

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…plaints about his selfishness in not looking after her instead of her looking after him, and attempts to obtain restitutions of conjugal rights, Raoul had been tended with all possible care. In fact, during the absence of Betty, owing to circumstances to be described shortly, he picked up surprisingly and I feel pretty sure that if she had not come back he would be alive today. The Ape and Jane Wolfe are the best nurses I ever struck. They do everything just right. I never had to ask for anything I wanted, they had foreseen the need and supplie…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 496

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…ress was tediously slow and the journey not without peril. At one point the stream is bayed out so that for something like a mile one is right out of reach of land. The slightest accident would have been critical. We hardly dared paddle with our full strength. We took something like five hours to reach the island using our utmost effort. It was after eleven o'clock when we beached the canoe. By this time the poor girl was drenched to the skin, completely exhausted and almost starving. Her femininity took advantage of the weariness of the besieg…

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1904 · PDF PAGE 70

The Sword of Song

… : I hope it may do as much for you. 63. With eyes well fixed on my proboscis.15— See Bhagavad-Gita, Atmasamyamyog. 67. Brahma-charya.16—Right conduct, and in particular, chastity in the highest sense. 72. Baccy.17—A poisonous plant used by nicotomanics in their orgies and debauches. “The filthy tobacco habit,” says “Elijah the Restorer” of Zion, late of Sydney and Chicago. That colossal genius-donkey, Shaw, is another of them. But see Calverly. 78. His hat.18—It may be objected that Western, but never Eastern, magicians turn their headgear int…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 266

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

… and did so. I warned the mutineers that they would certainly be killed if they tried to go down that night; it was perhaps more or less right for coolies, but for THEM --- I knew only too well the extent of Tartarin's ingenuity in producing accidents out of the most apparently unpromising material. They stormed all the more. I ought to have {439} broken the doctor's leg with an axe, but I was too young to take such a responsibility. It would have been hard to prove afterwards that I had saved him by so doing. To my horror, I found that Pache w…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 97

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

… had been granted to enable any English adept to form a Magical Link with the Secret Chiefs. Such competence would evidently establish a right to renewed relations. {175} Dr. Woodman had died and Mathers forced Dr. Westcott to retire from active leadership of the Order. Mathers, however, was not trusted. He, therefore, announced to the most advanced adepts that he had himself made the Magical Link with the Secret Chiefs; and, at an interview with three of them in the Bois de Boulogne, had been confirmed in the supreme and sole authority as the …

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1929 · PDF PAGE 582

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…mes of it." {918} Betty said, "But she's breaking the rules of the abbey." I replied, "Quite true, we've been getting slack. We'll start right now to be stricter." Now one of the most important rules is that no newspaper is allowed, unless it bears directly on some point of the work. The reason, of course, is that having a library of first-class books we should not spoil our appetites by eating between meals, especially the dirt of the streets. It chanced that the very next day a bundle of rubbish was sent to Raoul. Here was the very chance to …

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1929 · PDF PAGE 262

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…llent condition, it merely required a little scraping and stamping. But at the point where it becomes necessary to take the rocks on the right so as not to be under a small patch of séracs, the slope is in the direction the the tremendous precipice previously described. It was there that I gave an exhibition of glissading. I do not think the men would have been afraid at all if the excited shouts and gesticulations of Reymond and the doctor had not demoralized them. These celebrated climbers were themselves actually afraid for their own skins. …

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1929 · PDF PAGE 355

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…azhe" --- which is the nearest I can get to it phonetically. He had been warned against drinking absinthe and we told him that was quite right, but (we added) many other drinks in Paris are terribly dangerous, especially to a nice young man like you; there is only one really safe, mild, harmless beverage and you can drink as much of that as you like without running the slightest risk, and what you say when you want it is, "Garçon! Un Pernod1." I forbear to remark on the result, beyond mentioning that I took Nina and a lady whom I will call Doro…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 527

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

… corpse, and icier; the whole of my life concentrated in two spots; the small section of my brain which was occupied in the work, and my right wrist and fingers. I remember with absolute clearness that my consciousness appeared to start from a perfectly dead forearm. The book is written in prose, yet there is a formal circumscription more imminent than anything which would have been possible in poetry. I limited myself by making a point of dealing thoroughly with a given subject in a single page. It was an acute agony, similar to that of Asana,…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 43

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

… my astonishment, the storm centre. Jones, behind my back, accused me flatly of lying. Quite unconsciously, however, I put myself in the right. I have always failed to see that it is necessary to make a fuss about one's climbs. There is a good reason for describing a first climb. To do so is to guide others to enjoyment. One may also for the same reason describe interesting variations of a climb, or its accomplishment by a solitary man. Now as it happened, Jones had been blowing his trumpet about the first ascent of Kern Knotts Chimney; {90} th…

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