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1907 · PDF PAGE 250

Collected Works (Vol. III)

…uldron of my woes, i. 202 Out of the waters of the sea, i. 79 Over a sea like stainéd glass, ii, 111 Over the western water lies a solar fire, 1. 214 O virgin! O my sister! Hear me, death! ill, 102 O voice of sightless magic, i. 103 O what pale thoughts like gum exude, ili, 12 O who shall overcome this earth, ii. 47 O world of moonlight, i. 205 PALE vapours lie like phantoms on the sea, i, 122 Paolo ignites, Francesca is consumed, iii. 120 Perfectly sad and perfectly resolved, iii. 114 Peintre, que ton amour inspire, i. 129 Pilgrim of the sun, …

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1929 · PDF PAGE 297

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…ius loci. At night, the wild beauty of the scenery was further enhanced. A house in the adjacent fields, several acres in extent, caught fire. This warm glow in the midst of the cold vastness of the plateau and the stars was very weird; and the silhouettes of

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1944 · PDF PAGE 41

The Book of Thoth

…se considerations apply to the cards taken from the Tarot. What is the meaning of the Five of Wands? This card is subject to the Lord of Fire, because it is a Wand, and to the Se‐ phira Geburah because it is a Five. It is also subject to the sign Leo, and to the planet Saturn, because this planet and sign determine the nature of the card. This is no more than saying that a Dry Martini has got some juniper in it, and some alcohol, and some white wine and herbs, and a bit of lemon peel, and some ice. It is a harmonious composition of various ele‐…

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1944 · PDF PAGE 73

The Book of Thoth

…e are symbols of the male and female principles in Nature; they are therefore equally, in various stages of manifestation, Sun and Moon, Fire and Water, Air and Earth. In chemistry they appear as acid and alkali, or (more deeply) metals and non‐metals, taking those words in their widest philosophical sense to include hydrogen on the one hand and oxygen on the other. In this aspect, the hooded figure represents the Protean element of car‐ bon, the seed of all organic life. The symbolism of male and female is carried on still further by the weapo…

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1907 · PDF PAGE 246

Collected Works (Vol. III)

…7 CALL down that star whose tender eyes, i. 171 Can you believe the deadly will’s decree, i. 254 Chaldean fools, who prayed to stars and fires, lil, 19 Clear, deep, and blue, the sky, i. 49 Cloistral seclusion of the galleried pines, ili, 119 Clytie, beyond all praise, i. 120 Coiled in the hollow of the rock they kiss, iii. 122 Come back, come back, come back, Eurydice ! lil, 158 Come, child of wonder, i. 167 Come, love, and kiss my shoulders, i. 233 Come over the water, love, to me, ii. 108 Consummate beauty built of ugliness, iii. 123 Could i…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 135

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…d to shoot him (D.D.C.F.), while the demon that resembled himself was equally anxious to shoot I.A. Fortunately, before the demons could fire, V.N.R. (Mrs. Mathers) came into the room, thus formulating the symbol of the Blessed Trinity. Frater I.A.'s account was less of a strain upon P.'s faculties of belief. They had had, he said, an argument about the God Shiva, the Destroyer, whom I.A. worshipped because, if one repeated his name often enough, Shiva would one day open his eye and destroy the universe, and whom D.D.C.F. feared and hated becau…

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1904 · PDF PAGE 100

The Sword of Song

…inuous acts of life? Why should an infinite Ego fill a non-e xistent body with imaginary food cooked in thought only over an illusionary fire by a cook who is not there ? Why should infinite power use such finite means, and very often fail even then?” What is the sum total of the Vedantist position ? “ ‘I’ am an illusion, externally. In reality , the true ‘I’ am the Infinite, and if the illusionary ‘I’ could only realise Who ‘I’ really am, how very happy we should all be !” And here we have Karma, rebirth, all the mighty laws of nature o perat-…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 76

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…as determined to make my dreams come true; and he represented eternal dissatisfaction. In his heart was "the worm that dieth not and the fire that is not quenched". {143} The school of art and literature to which he introduced me was thus one which I instinctively despised, even while I adored it. The intense refinement of its thought and the blazing brilliance of its techinque helped me to key myself up to a pitch of artistry entirely beyond my original scope; but I never allowed myself to fall under its dominion. I was determined to triumph, …

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1907 · PDF PAGE 133

Collected Works (Vol. III)

…oblems bewildering the brain, Deep lights beyond heaven unsought, Dead faces seen dimly in rain ; From the depths of Mind’s caverns, the fire Reclaims the old magical lyre ; The ways of creation are nought, If only, O mother, O Muse, I may measure Thy melodies in me again !

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1944 · PDF PAGE 134

The Book of Thoth

…ht, and beneath there is a silver wedge. I shudder and tremble at the vision, for all about it are whorls ,and torrents of tempes‐ tuous fire. The stars of heaven are caught in the ashes of the flame. And they are all dark. That which was a blazing sun is like a speck of ash. And in the midst the Arrow burns! the I see that the crown of the Arrow is the Father of all Light, and shaft of the Arrow is the Father of all Life, and the barb of the Arrow is the Father of all Love. For that silver wedge is like a lotus flower, and the Eye within the A…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 478

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…ked the Honourable A. B. to help me consolidate my position with the Germans by heating the {755} branding irons of infamy for me in the fire of publicity. I therefore attributed it to his ingenuity when I heard that the police had raided the office of an acquaintance of mine in Regent Street. They didn't know what I was after, took my articles at their face value, and thought to annoy, perhaps to intimidate my by the raid. The person they arrested was a motherly old fool who had been prophesying with tea leaves for about twenty years at the sa…

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1907 · PDF PAGE 24

Collected Works (Vol. III)

…me no arriére-pensée lends. Fall once the penny, head or tail, I care not—all the less my friends! Faultlessly faulty! Regular In ice or fire, ’tis nullness counts, So, spring of those Parnassian founts, A thousand garters heralded Thy flawless solitary star : A million garters shall bestead The poet’s turn, when, lone and far, All are dismissed: Some man, low brute, Cry ‘‘ Shame, O star that would not shoot, And yet went out!” But I, my dear, (Good-bye!) get neither shriek nor groan: Kiss, curse, cat’s hiss, I shall not hear, My dear, for I sh…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 131

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…t not I have damned {228} myself for her, as many a knight for Venus of the Hollow Hill, as many a saint for Lilith, Lady of the Lake of Fire? Yet no: the answer came, august and austere, from mine Angel, that I had passed the Ordeal. I had proved that no passion, however pure and powerful, could enslave me. The caresses of no Calypso could chain me in her courts, the cup of Circe corrupt my chastity, the song of no Siren seduce me to suicide, the wiles of no Vivien ensnare my simplicity and bind me in the hollow oak of Broceliande. I had intox…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 415

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

415 {659} given in three ways. The gross must pass through fire; let the fine be tried in intellect, and the lofty chosen ones in the highest. ... (V.50) The ordeals thou shalt oversee thyself, save only the blind ones. Refuse none, but thou shalt know & destroy the traitors. I am Ra-Hoor-Khuit; and I am powerful to protect my servant. ... (cap. III, v.42) These "blind" ordeals presumably refer to such tests of fitness as that of which we have been telling. In the ancient mysteries it was possible to appoint formal ordeals. A young man would go…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 73

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

… was never {138} published. I had paid Leonard Smithers to have it printed and he told me that the printers' works had been destroyed by fire, which may or may not have been the case. It is characteristic that I accepted the situation with a shrug of the shoulders. I had a complete set of proofs, but I had become rather ashamed of the book. I merely selected the poems which I though really worth while for inclusion in subsequent volumes. The collection was marked by a tendency to earthly passion; and its title shows that I already regarded huma…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 323

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…. This is confirmed by the entry of April 30th: (It has struck me --- in connection with reading Blake --- that Aiwass, etc., "Force and Fire" is the very thing I lack. My "conscience" is really an obstacle and a delusion, being a survival of heredity and education. Certainly to rely on it as an abiding principle in itself is wrong. The one really important thing is the fundamental hypothesis: I am the {536} Chosen one. All methods will do, if I only invoke often and stick to it.) I resented intensely being told that I was "the Chosen One". It …

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1929 · PDF PAGE 182

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…o that the headmen of a village are like rolls of cloth. Their method of preparing their food on the glacier is ingenious. Having made a fire, they get a stone as nearly round as possible and heat it thoroughly through. Round this they smear their paste of flour and water, twisting the while into their shawls. By the time they have arrived in camp the paste is baked through and still hot. One cannot wash on the glacier --- nay, not so much as one''s hands. The extreme dryness of the atmosphere removes all the natural grease of the skin, which b…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 575

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

… remarks was peculiar. Could I possibly have offended him somehow? Impossible; he was friendliness itself! Then why did he fail to catch fire at my suggestions, or even appreciate the cordial compliments with which I interspersed my remarks. He, on his side, seemed embarrassed. But we had talked quite ten minutes before he said, "You will excuse me, I'm sure; but I don't understand what you mean by that last observation." This was absurd. It was some perfectly simple straightforward comment on his last book. I began to suspect him of pulling my…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 82

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…om thirst, our water supply being extremely limited. Night fell; it was impossible to see our hands in front of us. We accordingly lit a fire to {152} keep off the jackals and other possibilities, which we heard howling round us. We naturally began to discuss the question of direction; and I said, "The moon will rise over there", and laid down my axe as a pointer. Eckenstein independently laid down his, after a rather prolonged mental calculation. When the moon rose we found that my axe was within five degrees and his within ten degrees of the …

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1929 · PDF PAGE 229

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…ineteen feet long, and said, "This time I will bruise your head and I bet you don't bruise my heel." I was within a few yards of him and fired several times. He moved off with leisurely disgust; he could not imagine what my game could be. Why had I disturbed his sleep? I followed, protesting with further drum fire. He moved lazily beyond the barrage. I am a patient man; but the conduct of this snake insulted and humiliated me. One of the me, his sensitive oriental spirit doubtless observing my distress, went forward and knocked him on the head …

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