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1929 · PDF PAGE 61

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…disembowel them, and the average so- called psychological writer tries to do. There are all sorts of obscure processes always at work in nature and they are more or less the same for all of us. To insist upon them is one of the worst kinds of false thinking. Zola's peasants in La Tere are untrue, except as among themselves. The ultimate issue is that these people breed cattle, grow corn and wine, and fight like demons for their country. Henri Barbusse's Le Feu was a disgrace to literature. Mass psychology is the only important thing about the m…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 362

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…o teach them to tread a long and lonely path which might or might not lead thither, to bid them dare to encounter all possible perils of nature unknown, to abandon all their settled manners of living and cut themselves off from their past and their environment, and to attempt a quixotic adventure with no resources beyond their native strength and sagacity. I had done it myself and found not only that the pearl of great price was worth far more than I possessed, but that the very perils and privations of the Quest were themselves my dearest memo…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 30

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…is really "the true, will of the inmost self". The sexual characteristics of the individual are, it is true, symbolic indications of its nature, and when those are "abnormal", we may suspect that the self is divided against itself in some way. Experience teaches the adepts who initiate mankind that when any complex (duality) in the self is resolved (unity) the initiate becomes whole. The morbid sexual symptoms (which are merely the complaints of the sick animal) disappear, while the moral and mental consciousness is relieved from its civil war …

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1929 · PDF PAGE 344

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…the intensity of love by putting obstacles in its way. I regard the idea as entirely morbid and objectionable. Artificial impediments to nature are necessarily as disastrous as natural ones. The essence of my objection to English ideas of morality is just this: that sexual relations are over emphasized and assume an entirely disproportionate value. The formula of the average novel is to keep the reader in suspense about the love affairs of the characters. I confess frankly that I cannot read such stuff with patience. I do not mind a background …

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1929 · PDF PAGE 538

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…uistic barriers. Its metaphysical basis is strictly scientific. Its principle is single, simple and self-evident. It does not deny human nature or demand impossible virtues. It offers to every individual the fullest satisfaction of his true aspirations; and it supplies a justification for all types of political systems beyond the criticisms which have undermined all previous theories of government. There is no need for the fraud of divine right or the cant of democracy. The right of

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1929 · PDF PAGE 183

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

… reminded of the Concordia Platz in the Oberland and named the plateau in affectionate remembrance. Once again the astounding variety of nature in this district impressed itself upon my mind. One would have said that it was theoretically impossible to combine so many types of mountain. The obvious exception to the otherwise invariable rule of practical inaccessibility was the Golden Throne, a minor point of which Conway claims to have climbed. I was very disgusted at the bad taste of some of the coolies who had been with him in saying that he h…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 347

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…penalties are stated or implied; the aspirant merely pledges himself "to perform the Great Work, which is to obtain the knowledge of the nature and powers of my own being". He is not required to reach any particular stage of knowledge by the end of his probation; he is free to choose such practices as appeal to him; and, provided that his record shows that he has devoted a reasonable proportion of his spare time to the Work, he is {561} unhesitatingly passed to the degree of neophyte. It sounds as if it were impossible for anyone to fail. Yet, …

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1929 · PDF PAGE 54

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…ing any but the easiest way out. I entered for the Moral Science Tripos with the idea that it would help me to learn something about the nature of things. I don't know why it should have interested me. It must have been my subconscious will speaking. In any case, I was profoundly disgusted to find that political economy was one of the subjects. I attended the first lecture; the professor told us that the subject was a very difficult one because there were no reliable data. It is easy to imagine the effect of such a statement on a boy who had be…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 389

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…thought that my ordeal was over. But no! I was suddenly faced with the fact that I had to cross the Abyss consciously, understanding its nature; for when I had passed through it there was in me no power to perceive. I knew no more than this --- a negative idea --- that its power was to dissipate me into dead dust. Now being bidden to cross it consciously, I asked the Angel, "Is there not one appointed as a warden?" I meant my Holy Guardian Angel, for whose Knowledge and Conversation I had abandoned all. The answer: "Eloi, Eloi, lamma sabacthani…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 187

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…orship, Chesterton, Srotápatti (two rimes to this), Balliol, and so on. I have mentioned hardships. It may be interesting to mention the nature of these. The first and greatest was malaise, which was mostly due to lack of food and exercise. The latter complaint seems rather ridiculous; but it is an absolute fact. One must not bring damp things into the tent; if one does, it practically destroys the efficacy of one's protection against cold. One must therefore stay cooped up in one's tent as long as the weather is bad. I was in charge of the kit…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 582

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…ountersigned by Raoul. She also singed a statement of the whole episode drawn up by us and signed. She justified our faith in her better nature and gave us no further trouble as long as she remained with us. After Raoul's death, she came to me for comfort and I am glad to think that I helped her through the worst. It was arranged for her to return to England. Raoul's parents cabled and wrote, asking us to take various steps, and pledging themselves to repayment. It is hard to believe that any human beings should act as they did; repudiating all…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 535

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…monwealth should not have to face any overwhelming obstacle, the gamblers have won. It is obvious that any man in an outpost besieged by nature (such as is every new settlement outside New England, the Atlantic coast and the old settlements in the south) was really a traitor if he said, however truthfully, anything which might daunt the spirit of his comrades. Those men won out through sheer ignorance of the chances against them, stolid stupidity which blinded them to their desperate plight and bestial insensibility to the actual hardships whic…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 156

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…rectly that every phenomenon, from the ripple of the river to the fragrance of the flowers, is the language by which the subtle souls of nature speak to our senses. That night we were tied up under a teak tree, and as I lay awake with my eyes fixed ecstatically on its grace and vigour, I found myself in the embraces of the Nat or elemental spirit of the tree. It was a woman vigorous and intense, of passion and purity so marvellous that she abides with me after these many years as few indeed of her {268} human colleagues. I passed a sleepless ni…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 262

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…h the fear that comes to people of his class in the absence of a chattering heard of his fellows, and in the presence of the grandeur of nature, he assumed moral charge of him. The difficulties with the rearguard disappeared immediately. Unfortunately, I did not understand at the time what was happening, o I should have gone down and sent Righi back to his kitchen. Pache himself did not realize his own importance and took it upon himself to come up. The moment his back was turned, Righi became insane. Everyone had passed a most uncomfortable ni…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 27

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…red rather blasphemous to offer any very positive conjecture on the point. The idea seems to have been that it was something like an ill-natured practical joke on the part of Jesus. This mysterious offence which could never be forgiven might be inadvertently committed by the greatest saint alive, with the result that he would be bowled out at the very gate of glory. Here was another impossibility to catch my youthful fancy; I must find out what that sin was and do it very thoroughly. For (evidently) my position was exceedingly precarious. I was…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 519

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…umanity to make real progress by the selection and variation which are the means of evolution. It may be said that my own work is in the nature of missionary enterprise; and that this is, in fact, the very thing to which I object, since its idea is to persuade people to abandon their established beliefs and customs. This criticism is invalid. I do, as a matter of fact, object to missionary enterprise as such, whether it take the {819} form of imposing the cult of Osiris on the worshippers of Adonis, of persuading the Chinese to eat with knives …

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1919 · PDF PAGE 459

The Equinox (Volume III, Number I)

…nd the embroidered veil of words to which he is unable to penetrates Others again seem to stiggest events of 00 intimate and ‘personal a nature to have a general application or interest. . . mixed metaphors—erratic visualisation. . .°. "Theosophy in Scotland. “Passion and pain, ‘red desire’ and ‘red roses’ are frequent motifs in Mr. V, B. Neuburg’s ‘Triumph of Pan’ The Equinox’ Office), much of which merits the ambiguous distinction of being unusual, ‘Though yy no means deficient in originality, vigour or imaginative power, his verse is too oft…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 52

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

… card table was the pawnshop, till I came of age. After that, it was simply a question of writing a cheque, which gave me no idea of the nature of the transaction involved. I doubt whether any one in history was ever furnished with such a completely rotten preparation for the management of practical affairs. My residence at Eastbourne broke up very suddenly. During the whole of my adolescence I had taken the romantic point of view of love; and I found that the universal practice was for elder people to interfere in the affairs of their juniors.…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 68

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…s and sent up the guide's coat by a porter. Now, in the hotel was a girls' school, being conducted to admire the wonders and beauties of nature. The following day they came down in the afternoon from the glacier, very excited at having found the tracks of a chamois on the mule path. I knew, of course, that this was hallucination and thought no more of it. Just before dinner I was outside the hotel taking the air, when I saw in the distance a solitary figure slowly approaching. Its action was very peculiar, I thought.

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1929 · PDF PAGE 60

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…the other, when it comes to excitement or amusement, we see perspiring brutes belching the fumes of beer; course, ugly parodies of apes. Nature affords no parallel to their degradation. There is no open air life, physical or mental, and there is the ever-abiding sense of sin and shame to obsess these slaves. Nowhere, except in English cities, do these conditions exist. Slum life there is elsewhere, and misery enough; pitiful struggle, monstrous greed and triumphant brutality. But only in England are the people poisoned through and through; else…

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