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1929 · PDF PAGE 65

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…this, there is no satisfactory {125} explanation of the appearance of the illusion. In Christianity evil is just as real as good; and so long as two opposites exist they must either be equal or there must be a third component to balance them. Now this is in itself sophistical, for the third component only exists as a make- weight; and it is pure fiction to discriminate between two things whose only function is to counterbalance a third thing. In respect of the universe of discourse involved, a proposition cannot have two contradictories. If the…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 452

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…atever it was) "but understand that so much of this must go to Admiral A., so much to Councillor B., so much to the Grand Duke C." --- a long list followed. "My dear sir," cried the Englishman, aghast, "surely I have made it plain that our price is bed rock. We shan't take a penny of profit. We only put in so low a tender because trade is so bad and we don't want to shut down." The Russian spread his hands mournfully. "Why, hang it," exclaimed the manufacturer. "If we were to allow you all those rake-offs, we should have to make the shells of t…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 504

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…erhuman intelligences who control the initiate communicate with him. Thus, my adventures in America seemed a series of stupidities for a long time. Nothing I did produced the expected results. I found myself suddenly switched from one episode to another so irrationally that I began to feel that I had somehow got into a world where causality did not obtain. The mystery only became clear when analysis disclosed that the events which threw me about in this manner occurred at almost exact intervals of 73 days, or of some multiple or sub-multiple th…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 566

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…n our early conversations he had argued with perfect justice that the English market for the English Review was hopeless, at least for a long time, and that therefore the only chance of restoring solvency was to push it in America. It was obvious that I could do this with success. He agreed to my plan, and I wrote accordingly to several of my friends, first-class writers, far better than any in England --- bar Conrad and Hardy --- asking them to contribute. They one and all wrote charmingly and enthusiastically, and sent a number of admirable s…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 341

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…ergy or of the force of gravitation, understood positively and not merely as the inhibition to rising from the ground. I do not know how long I stood there holding myself in, but judging from subsequent calculations it must have been over an hour: the sense of time had entirely disappeared. But I became suddenly aware of a terrific reaction; I felt that I had missed my chance by not letting myself go and perhaps been killed for my pains. At the same time I was seized with a sudden sense of alarm. I felt myself to be outside the spiritual circle…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 446

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

… suddenly stabbed to the soul by a suggestion so simple, yet so stupendous, that I was struck into shuddering silence for I know not how long before I could bring myself to switch on the electric light and snatch my notebook. At the first trial the solution sprang like sunlight in my spirit. I remained all that night in an ecstasy of awe and adoration. I had discovered the lost Word! The obvious line of criticism is this: How can you be sure that the Word which you have discovered is really the lost Word after all? This may be made clear by an …

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1929 · PDF PAGE 359

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…eached a wretched hamlet, so poor that there was really no food to be had. There was not even any pretence of an inn, and it was only by long negotiation and the display of wealth beyond the dreams of avarice, in the shape of a silver dollar, that we persuaded the inhabitants to let us have a cup of goat's milk apiece, a small scrap of dry bread, and a bed in the straw in a horribly dirty barn. It was a glorious meal and a very heaven of repose. On the third day we completed the one hundred and fifty kilometres on the road from Logrono to Soria…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 553

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

553 Alas for these men who cannot be taught the elements of common sense by any means soever. Not long afterwards some trivial incident touched the same spot. I thought he would be the better for a holiday from the abbey. He was working so hard that his health began to make me anxious. He interpreted {872} my suggestion as a banishment and instead of going, as I proposed, to Palermo, and putting in a month working up the interest of the people there about us, he went off to the top of the Rock without any provisions of any kind. He had taken an…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 157

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…manner to try to find Allan in the dark. The job was easier than I anticipated. The first man I spoke to greeted me as if I had been his long-lost brother, and took me off in his own carriage to the monastery (the name of which is Lamma Sayadaw Kyoung) where I found Allan, whom I now saw for the first time as a Buddhist monk. The effect was to make him appear of gigantic height, as compared to the diminutive Burmese, but otherwise there was very little change. The old gentleness was still there. I ought to have mentioned (when talking of Ceylon…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 384

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…he herd for splendour of strength could not move a muscle; he rolled from side to side with regular rhythm. The man who boasted could no longer speak; he uttered a long monotonous howl, hardly varying by a note, hour after hour. It is such cases that keep me constantly on my guard against being "too proud to fight" --- or to sweep the floor, if it comes to that. My Grade as a Magus of A.'. A.'., my office as the Logos of the Aeon, the Prophet chosen to proclaim the Law which will determine the destinies of this planet for an epoch, singles me o…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 564

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…range a convenient day to remove the books. To my surprise a perfect stranger came into the outer office, a weird creature of nightmare, long, loose-jointed, shaking and tottering with palsy, with a head grotesque and ghastly, rocking upon narrow sloping shoulders that seemed to shrink from its weight. This fantastic horror announced itself as the managing director of the new company. I stated my business. To my amazement, he broke out into a spate of unmeaning insults. He refused point-blank to deliver the books on the ground that Scotland Yar…

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1904 · PDF PAGE 66

The Sword of Song

…s of that well-known Eastern work the “Old Testament” I am w ith him ; any modern Biblical critic w ill tell him w hat I mean. It took a long time, too, for the missionaries (and Tommy Atkins) to discover that “Budd” was not a “great Gawd.” But then they did not want to, and in any case sympath and in- telligence are not precisely the most salient qualities in either soldiers or missionaries. But nothing is more absurd than to compare men like Sir W. Jones, Sir R. Burton, Von Hammer-Purgstall, Sir E. Arnold, Prof. Max Müuller, Me, Prof. Rhys Da…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 567

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…d my feeling and was the first to discover the source. Over fifteen years earlier he had been on the staff of a paper called What's On belonging to my old acquaintance Robert Haslam and at one time edited by poor crazy Dartnell. The gods had certainly started a new drama. The accident of this man, J. D. Beresford his name is, being the literary advisor of Collins probably made all the difference to the fate of the book. The synopsis was accepted enthusiastically and I obtained the pledges of money and advances, as per the "Yi" forecast, to the …

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1906 · PDF PAGE 211

Collected Works (Vol. II)

…uckily, I have no nerves. 4g. <TH CTA Wete.9—** Thou, as I, art God (for this is the esoteric meaning of the common Hindu salutation), A long road and a heavy price! To know isalways a difficult work .. . Hullo! Bravo! Thy name (I have seen) is written in the stars. Come with me, pupil! I will give thee medicine for the mind.” * The Phallus of Shiva the Destroyer. It is really identical with the;Qabalistic ‘‘ Middle Pillar” of the ‘* Tree of Life.” t An imaginary laiy to whom Sairey Gamp in Dickens’ ‘* Martin Chuzzlewit ” used to appeal. { Vide…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 354

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

… he meets Eliphas Lévi, who promises to cure him, provided that he swears never to enter the street where he imagined the house to be as long as he should live. He is, in fact, cured; but one day after Lévi's death he finds himself in the neighbourhood of the street, and decides to walk through it merely to celebrate the fact that he is cured, and that it means no more to him than any other street. Instantly the old obsession seizes him, and for the rest of his life he searches through Paris for the girl with golden hair, though he knows quite …

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1929 · PDF PAGE 321

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…n: F's freedom. (I reply that if this comes about in a miraculous manner, well and good.) (Note: Her husband died quite unexpectedly not long after this time.) April 21st. Sol enters Taurus. Open T.'. with A.'. I.'.. (Possibly ...1 spoilt it all) asking for special aid in --- what follows. F. finds the Nuit ring good; hence probably her hostility yesterday was due to lower self. I.'. of R. H. K. gives glorious material flashes of light, akasic (i.e. ultra-violet) and lilac. The god, beheld, will not speak. Asked for a messenger, Aiwass appears.…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 170

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…rage daily "local irregularity" approximates to double that amount. It is sometimes infuriating. One day, at the end (as I thought) of a long march, I caught sight of the goal not half a mile away, both it and I being close to the river. But a rocky buttress {291} gratuitously juts into the stream and the track makes a little detour of some three thousand feet in height to pass it. Apart from the mere fatigue of these marches, they are made detestable by the utter monotony and ugliness of the landscape. The mountains are huge hideous heaps of s…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 583

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…rust them absolutely to provide me with everything I really need for my work, as opposed to my own ideas on the subject. Ye despite this long experience of being saved from smash at the critical moment, almost always through some channel which I had no reason to expect, I have not

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1904 · PDF PAGE 113

The Sword of Song

…tent to form any. . . .” 2 Cf. “Evolution and Ethics,” note 1. from such possibility of misinterpretation in our own bodies. Compare the longevity of a bone with that of a cor puscle. But it is this “Substratum” universe, which must not be confounded with the substratum, the argu- ments for whose existence Berkeley so utterly shattered,1 which may conserve memory for a period greatly exceeding that of one of its particular avatars . Hence the “ Jataka.” But the doctrine is not very essential; its chief value is to show what serious difficulties…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 250

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…n a city beyond time and space; how much more beyond the ticking centuries and the itching inches of London! I have accustomed myself so long to look at the universe as a while that its parts have become imperceptible. When I am reminded of them, it is like being reminded of one's eye by getting a fly in it. That is what I mean when I say that London gives me a pain. I was very glad to be back in Boleskine. I had no particular plans; I had really settled down. If I had a tendency at all, it was to play little practical jokes. They were the outc…

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