John St. John

THE EQUINOX 9.30. Yet here answers me the everlasting Yea and Amen: 86 Thou canst not give up, for I will bring thee through. Yet here I lie, stripped of all magic force, doubting my own peace and faith, farther from Adonai than ever before—and yet—and yet—- Do I not know that every error is a necessary step in the Path? The longest way round is the shortest way home. But it is disgusting! There‘s a grim humour in it, too. The real Devil of the Operation must be sitting with sardonic grin upon his face, enjoying my perplexity For that Dweller-of-the—Threshold-thought was not as dead as I supposed ; as Iwrite he comes again and again, urging me to quit the Path, to abandon the unequal contest. Luckily, friend Dweller, you prove too much 1 Your anxiety shows me that I am not as far from attainment as my own feelings would have me think. At least, though, I am thrown into the active again ; I shall rise and chant the Enochian Calls and invoke the Bornless One, and clear a few of the devils away, and get an army of mighty angels around me—in short, make another kind of fool of myself, I wonder? Anyway, I’ll do it. Not a bad idea to ask Thoth to send me Taphtatharath with a little information as to the route—I do not know where I am at all. This is a strange country, and I am very lonely. This shall be my ritual. I. Banishing Pentagram Ritual. 2. Invoking ditto. [These will appear in No. 2, “ Liber 0.”—ED.]