John St. John

440- 6.10. 7.15. 8.3. 8.4.0. 94- THE EQUINOX St. john and his ₪258/?)?ושמthink af Adonai! Exactly: the one difficulty] My best way out will be to concentrate on the New Ritual, learn it perfectly by heart, work it at the right moment. . . . I will go, with this idea, to have a Citron presse; thence to my Secret Restaurant, and dine, always learning the Ritual. I will leave off the mantra, though it is nearly as much part of me as my head by now; and instead repeat over and over again the words of the Ritual so that I can do it in the end with perfect fluency and comprehension. And this time may Adonai build the House! Instead I met Dr. R , who kindly offered to teach me how to obtain astral visions! (P.S.—The tone of this entry wrongs me. I sat patiently and reverently, like a Mela with his gum, hoping to hear the Word I needed.) Thence I went my long and lonely walk to my Secret Restaurant, learning the Ritual as I went. Arrived at the Secret Restaurant. Ordered 6 oysters, Rable de Lievre poivrade puree de marrons, and Glace “ Casserole” with a small bottle of Perrier Water. I know the New Ritual down to the end of the Con- fession. It was hard to stop the mantra—the moment my thought wandered, up it popped 1 I shall add Cafe Cognac Cigare to this debauch. I continue learning the Ritual. I will return and humble myself before the Lord